Its been awhile since I write any reviews on concerts, movies or breaking through tracks. Blame my over rated life, hence I'd been quite lazy to do any reviews or even to write a blog.

On 21st of December, my plane (from Kota Bharu, Kelantan) landed in KLIA approximately around 11am and I reached Shah Alam at noon. Dropped my luggage, get ready for the showcase and out again at 1.30pm. Managed to go for wash and blow (yea, i have to say my hair wasnt in its best of shape that time), drove myself to Batu Tiga station and ditched my car there to take the Komuter (to avoid traffic and unsufficient amount of parking space). Still tired, yeah i didnt exactly get much rest when I was in Kelantan, I marched myself to The Annexe, Central Market. Arrived there pretty on time, hence I've got a seat at the back. Oh yea, supposely Wan tagged along, but her ride got delayed that day and failed to reach KL on time. Therefore, I flew solo that day.

Took place at The Annexe, Central Market; Imran Ajmain started the show with a song called Dia. It was an old track from Harvey Malaiholo. The song was simply beau-ti-ful! Well, being a totaly self-absorb and perasan, I was drooling the whole 5 minutes (or 4 minutes and 40 seconds to be exact) of that song and wishing it was dedicated to me (Lydia = LyDia = Dia, ya know what I mean). Haha, which so NOT! Next, Imran continues serenading us with Malu and Aku Bukan Untukmu (cover version of Rossa's).

Infinatez conquer the stage after that, belt out their souls on Ada Masa and Acapella Medleys: L.O.V.E and Cant Take My Eyes Off You. I was very amazed by their vocal harmonization, oh well.. I'd always adore their talent even when they were in Gangstars 2007. After the medleys, Imran joined Infinatez to perform What If (Babyface's), Digenggam Surga (Numata's), Dengan Senyummu (Radio's) and Why You Follow Me (Eric Benet's). Something that I noticed about Imran that day, well... known him since March 08, he'd always been friendly and yet can be pretty sturdy at a time. But on that day I found another side of him which I never saw that coming, he has a very cheeky persona! He's just simply adorable and witty doing his thing on stage which I cant help it to rose a smile for the entire 2 hours show. =)

Atilia entertained the crowd with her soulful voice on Selalu Denganmu and duet with Imran on Imran's ever famous piece, Seribu Tahun. The crowd went insane drowned with that song. haha. The duo didnt stop there, they continue to serenade the crowd with Georgy Porgy (Eric Benet/Faith Evans') and Butterflies (Floetry/Michael Jackson). I was stunned when Imran sang Dia (Sheila Majid's this time) because I always love that song, and its been pretty awhile tak dengar lagu tu. Love it! And next, Imran perfomed a piece from Bunga Citra Lestari's Pernah Muda.

Imran brought in a surprise guest, Shazzy on the stage. Oh wow, I haven't seen this guy for ages! The first time I saw him was many years ago when he'd just launch his hip hop album and after that he kapush from the scene. Great to see him back and haha, I always knew he's super good in playing the saxophone. Once again, the crowd gone crazy as Shazzy played his sexy saxophone tunes on Mahakarya Cinta (Faizal Tahir's). Oh, I was hypnotized by the tune~! And finally, Shazzy accompanied Imran on Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang, Imran's latest single.

Oh wait, it did not stop there! Since Harvey Malaiholo's Dia been linger in Imran's head on that day, he sang it once again as encore. Haih, and now that song is stuck in my head! But I dont mind, I like that song.

As a conclusion, the showcase had been very successful and way beyond than what I expected. Two thumbs up for the team! =)

I reached home at 8pm (did some shopping for Adam Pilarczyk's birthday present) and helped my mom prepare the dinner. I didnt have much appetite that night because I was so exhausted. After cleared the table, I tertido kat living room and when my mom switched on the fan I woke up with a scream 'sejuuuuuuuuuuk!!!!'. Hence, I demam.. at least for the next 3 days followed with lack of appetite and diarrhea. Sigh.

  1. Sorry the videos are a bit shaky, playing with distance and very exhausting hands.
  2. Have I told you this entire showcase had been accompanied by a 5 piece band??? Stunning!
  3. Ohya, honestly.. is my name hard to pronounce if I tell you verbally? Because what happen was, after I snapped picture with the band (Infinatez), Alvin asked me for my name. I said 'Lydia' and he was like 'Nidia?' and I was like 'no, Lydia' and he's like 'Vidya?' and I was like 'Ly-di-a' and he was like 'Nidia?!' and I end up with 'haih, Lydia Wati!' and then he goes 'oooooh, Lydiaaaaaa'. Hahhaha. I wasn't pissed, but it just striked me to wonder... is the name Lydia hard to pronounce? Hehe. Nice to meet u guys too~!
  4. Imran Ajmain is among the people who can make me look slightly petite in pictures. We shall make more picture together next time! haha 

Last week I spent the whole week lepaking at my cousin's place in Bachok, Kelantan. Well, the trip had been planned for months dimana me, my brother, my sister and opah to fly to Kelantan for holiday/visiting my relatives there. The first mistake I made was at the airport. Actually I planned to withdraw my money at the airport, but that particular morning.. i tertinggal my ATM card in the other purse. haih. So, there goes my trip.. with a very minimal pocket money.

Coincidentally, my aunt baru terseliuh kaki... memandangkan I'm the only next-of-kin that has a valid license driver (besides my aunt n uncle) there, where so ever we wanna go (or i wanna go) i have to drive the Unser, which is sooo cooool! I always thinks the bigger rides, the better for me.

The 2nd day we're in Kelantan, I drove the whole lot to Pantai Bachok where we had picnic by the beach. The place have evolved somehow, ever since the last time I came to Kelantan (which is like 6 years ago). They have build wakaf so ppl can lepak there under the shades.

And we practically spent the whole afternoon flying the kites and jumping all around at the beach mcm monyet. We were warned not to mandi laut because of the musim tengkujuh and the tide was pretty un-cool that time. But we're happy~!

And after that, Izzat brought us to see his little kambing that he called.... Mek.
The second day in Kelantan, its the day out for my siblings and the fellow cousins; Alief, Lan, Nanin and Izzat. Its time for the youth to have some fun! Well, judging from the land that we're on that time, you cannot expect la to hv much things there. Therefore, the bowling in KB Mall will do! And after that, we did some shopping in Tesco there... at least I can get most of my essentials of what I wanna cook there. I scored some time to do some shopping stuffs for Alief's birthday surprise.

Third day in Kelantan, we all went to my late grandfather's younger sister, Opah Ngah's place in Pasir Putih. I brought Apple Crumble (serves with Vanilla Ice-Cream, perfect for sunny day!) there and it left into crumbs in within 5 mins! Oh yea and I also made kerabu mangga/kerabu pauh as what they called there for lunch. We spent the entire afternoon at my Opah Ngah's house and headed home when it approach dawn. And we called the day off. And later that evening, we had surprise birthday party for Alief. Well, tak sempat nak buat cake pon. So, candles on roti canai pon jadi la. haha. But it was one heck of birth day surprise!!!

Fourth day in Kelantan, we visited Opah Ngah's son, Uncle Sham (who is also my mom's cousin) who lives in Kota Bharu. I brought my ever famous Carrot Cake and T-Gee brought her signature Moist Chocolate Cake. The house was such a breathtaking! I adore the architectural of the house and how well it been decorated. And I found this so funny, it feels like baru je lagi diorang ni kawin... tau-tau he has 4 sons now and the eldest is older t han my sister! waaaa... aku rasa macam da tuaaaaa~! During my rendezvous at Uncle Sham's place, suddenly my cam turn weird and displayed Memory Card Error. There goes all my pictures and videos, gone! That is why there is no pictures for 2nd-4th day as they kapush with the Memory Card. I ended the day with a feeling of devastetad.

Fifth day in Kelantan, that morning I have to call my mom to tell her my memory card hassle. And I have no choice but to tell her about my ATM thingy as well, because I already short of cash. After some money transfer, we decided to knock ourselves out for fishing in Machang. Uncle Wan (the father of my cousins) was rushing out that morning and b rought the Unser. So, I have no choice but to use the Kancil. Urgh, can u imagine all 7 of us - badan sihat belaka in one small white old Kancil? That fishing place is like 2 squares of paddy field, one for Air Tawar and one for Air Masin. After half an hour of journey, I dropped the kids at the fishing place and headed to Kota Bharu to get a new memory card for my camera.

After 4 times attempted of 'almost' dapat ikan, we headed home as the sky turn dark. That evening, uncle sham and family came for dinner.
And look, I found a very old picture of Lan, Alief and Nanin when they were much.. erm... innocent! hahahah

The sixth day in Kelantan, its SHOPPING day! We were out the whole day to buy keropok ikan, keropok lekor, wild mushroom, serunding, kain batik, kaftans and souvenirs. We crashed Pasar Siti Khadijah and get a very good deals!

And when arrived home, we gotta nibs some of the things that we never tried before. These combination enough to make gas ammonia untuk meletupkan rumah Borat kat Kazakhstan.

That evening, I kena jugak tunaikan my promise to T-Gee to make the lasagna and lotus tofu. Lasagna had always been T-Gee's favourite and I practically made for her every Hari Raya. Only this year I changed my mind and made Shepperd's Pie instead on Raya. Why it is so important for me to cook? Here a lil' thing bout T-Gee. She's my mom's younger sister, therefore she's an uptown girl since born. After STPM she pursued English in Scotland and live there for about 6 years. She came back and few years after that she got married to a pure Kelantanese, Uncle Wan, who jati diri melayunye sangat la kuat. Couple of years ago they moved to Kelantan and be a permenant resident to an area that can be consider 'ceruk rantau'. Therefore, I cook to feed my aunt-Gee's inner soul. Haha.

The seventh day in Kelantan, which also our last day there. We say bye-bye to the house, papaya, goat and Kelantan as my flight depart at 9.30am. Sigh, my bro tertinggal one of the hand luggage at the airport and aunt-Gee was super nice to pos-laju-kan the luggage. =)
I had so much fun there, and T-Gee's family are the best relatives I ever had (I'm not being bias, but relatives yg dekat pon mcm hampeh je.. jumpe time raya je =.="). Their hospitality is superb, tho' Alief demam and T-Gee terseliuh kaki... they still know how to have fun! That's the spirit I admire so much, the spirit of Family. Too bad diorang stay jauh. No worry, dalam 2 tahun ni kitorang bawak opah datang lagi! May Allah will always bless this family with joy and happiness.

I'm bored, though I reserved myself from doing my thesis correction, I'm still bored.

I'm jobless

My father restrain myself from going out since I'm jobless

My money is decreasing everyday

I'm anxious

The seeking maid process is such a pest

I cut my finger when i cook just now

I'm fat

I figured out I'm not that friendly, thus I have a very limited friends

Somehow once in while i felt betrayed

I feel lost

I feel lonely at the mo

I dont have a boyfriend

I dont know if I should get a boyfriend

I just hate to clean up my room at the moment

I'm feeling freaking miserable

I'm drowning deeply in this emotion time by time

People says I think too much

People says I complain much

I know this may drive me to a very dreadful depression

I'm sadistic

I'm psychotic

I changed my blog template to pink

I hated pink

I hate pink

I'm gonna hate pink

Wth, I'm just fucking bored!

It's time to blog again!

Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate Rudy and Intan, they both had just get hitched on Nov 15th, 2008. OMG, I cant believe u guys dah kawin!!! and I'm so happy for u guys! Smoga bahagia ke anak cucu. =)

Tersentuh skejap tengok gamba nie. =)

For the past one week I'd been pretty busy preparing myself for the ultimate thesis presentation which I proudly announce had been held last Friday. Oh well, cant really tell if it was good because i know... its BAD! But i don't bloody care, I am just glad its over. And I hope I don't have to repeat this semester again!

And for the past one week, ironically.. 4 out of 7 days people had been discussing wedding bells with me. The story started because last week was the final week of me being an undergrad student in my uni. And some makcik in the Haemodialysis Unit (where my father done his 3 times a week routine dialysis) reckoned that I'm gonna get married in this mere of time. Don't worry makcik, I will pray for your good health and I'm pretty sure u akan sampai juge ke my wedding, kelak. But what I know, my wedding lambat lagi. I have set several goals to achieve before I can get married.
  1. I must have a secured job with a good income.
  2. I must obtain my MBA. (come on la, lepas kawin nnt sure susah punye kalo nak blaja balik)
  3. I must have a car, under my own name. (hopefully by end of next year i can achieve this one)
  4. I must have a unit of house/apartment/condo/flat, also under my name.
These are my 4 personal essentials/conditions/goals before I can tie the knot. And this is why I kata I akan kawin LAMBAT lagi!

I cant believe I could give a tutor using SMS. Haha. Alex had been asking me to help him out with his proposal preparation through this week before he could present it to the examiners. Oh, Alex is a junior of mine and oh boy, I had never been asked such number of questions regarding multiplex PCR before, not even from my examiner. One thing for sure he is such a high determine kiddo! And aku yg penat kena explain kat dia through sms panjang berjela.

Nasib baik dia nie baik dan comel. =)

Getting a new maid seems live forever. So I'm trying to get used to cooking in the house every now and then. Last Tuesday, my mom sent my sister a note to ask me to cook Masak Lemak Rebung, Ayam Percik and make sambal belacan-tempoyak. To tell you the truth, I had never cook Masak Lemak before (though now I know how freaking easy it is) and its been ages since the last time my Opah taught me how to cook Ayam Percik.

As a result, voila~! I cant believe it taste alright. As the matter of fact, my parents were so pleased with the food (which leads to several days of discussing wedding bells =.="). Not bad aye my hand?

Remember I told you how baking could calm me down? My mom had been planning for oh-so-many weeks to make Tiramisu, and I'd been searching the Mascarpone cheese for high and low and finally I've decided to get it at The Cold Storage. Biasanye, if my mom says she's so excited to do something... u dont get fooled by that, biasanye I yg end up kena buat. So there I go, 3pm on Sunday afternoon in the kitchen. The egg whites and sugar were whip till it silky smooth. The cake had been sliced equally. The coffee had been made to perfecto. And things starting to get hay-wire the moment I poured in the whipped cream. Damn, the cream just dont want to fluff! So I stop to whip and add the Mascarpone cheese. And things are getting worst. The texture seems to gradually curdled. Oh, that is bad. Something I know bout whipped cream, if it turns up curdled - meaning it had been over-whipped and nothing can be done anymore. Damn, so there goes my Tiramisu. =.=" Enough this thing make me heartache for at least 2 hours, bengang giler.

It may look like shit, but it taste not bad. Tunggu la Malaysia, aku akan buat till perfecto!

So just now my mom asked me to make fried chicken (the usual tumeric seasoning) for dinner. But I dont know why, I have this experimenting mood. I've decided to make fried chicken ala KFC, where I ground the spices from scratch. And of course la I tengok buku but I've done some modification in the recipe (bak kata Puan Rozila - my food microbe lecturer, it is called "optimization") and it turns out to be not that bad! It doesnt taste like KFC so much, but it is still hmmm good. I was happy when my father and my sister berebut for the last piece, I take that as a complement. And now my father asked me to learn how to cook more because my 'air tangan' is consider good. Hear that? My 'air tangan' is good. =)

Yesterday Zul SMSed me that he figured it out how to tackle a girl's heart. Zul is my good friend in uni, my classmate infact. A so-called hearthrob to ramai gadis in my class (tempat lain juge), and he's much like a big brother to me.

Zul wrote: I dont know how much dia (his working colleague) suka kat I. But her attitude da jauh berubah dari mula kenal dulu. Dulu if org kenenkan kitorang, dia marah. Skarang, dia senyum2 je. Banyak lagi la. And all I did just listen to her probs, her ambitions, her hobbies - and then shows her everything that she told me. And I always could guess her mood. If she looks moody and I ask her why, she will look very happy when I noticed and ask her. Boley apply kat gurl lain tak?

I replied: Well generally, female memang suka orang caring macam tu. To a woman, a man who listens n remember details (walopon detail tu tak important), to a woman ia agak bermakna jugak la. So, not surprise la if she terpikat kat Zul. Haha.

Orang tua-tua kata, kalo nak pikat hati laki... mesti dari perutnye. Betul ke?

Tepuk dada, tanye selera... nak Kuey Teow Goreng Kerang or nak Char Kuey Teow? =p

Its 12.50am and I'm waiting for my hair to dry. I figured out, perhaps I can scribble something in here.

Life had been same ol', it seems like forever for my family to get the new maid. So, for the time being AKU LAH SURI RUMAHTANGGA SEPENUH MASA itu. Still.. juggling with the fact I need to work out more than twice a week at the gym.

Talk about gym, my abdomen is still sore from working out with Nurul last Wednesday. Whenever I laugh or cough, my tummy will hurt like crazy. I wonder what went wrong.

Yesterday when I was accompanied my sister and her friend to watch High School Musical 3 (I know, stop laughing!), I received a text message from Wan regarding my viva/presentation. My examiner will be Puan Fatimah Corazon Abdullah. Damn, even by saying her name boley menakutkan aku. Inikan lagi dapat dia as my examiner. Habis la akuuuuu~!

I'm running out of word. And my hair is dry enough. Toodles~!

ske ati aku le, aku ske pussycat dolls! aku nak jadi kurus mcm pussycat dolls!

What do ya know... I thought its impossible to complete my thesis within these few days (due to the so last minute data/result), but i totally rock it! Yea, despite the fact I had to stay up more than 40 hours.. it was all done and I already passed it to the coordinator. Though my lecturer end up calling me 4.30pm because she wanna discuss about my correction (lambat giler call aku, baik tak payah.. coordinator pon balik kul 5pm. giler nk suruh aku buat correction?) i felt relieve, like big burden had just lifted out of my head. Well, there's still little burden left, since my viva presentation is in next week. Well.. what the heck?

Last week had been a super crazy week. From failing my multiplex pcr (for 10th time?) to the return of my exes, it was infact the craziest thing ever. From my previous blog I did left out the scene of Ex#1 actually hold my hand tight that evening and said how he miss me much, hahaha.. goosebumps!!!

Special note to my exes (or bakal ex): if u guys dump me, I dont mind being fren with u guys after that (plz gimmie couple of years to clear my head first, of course). But... tolong la after that few years tu, tolong la JANGAN muncul kembali dengan tiba-tiba dan merayu nak couple balik macam tu. Not nice la. I mean, it was hard when u guys dump me... and guess what, I'd moved on. Korang buat camtu menjadikan aku sakit jiwa je.

Ah.. I'm gonna take some time off for the next couple of days. I'm tired, very tired. Sapa bley tolong urut nieh? =p

How bizarre! Yesterday my first ex (Ex#1) texted me saying that he's in Bangi and will be in Shah Alam today, invited me to hang out since its been awhile we didnt see each other and we bet we hv loads of catching up to do. (we haven't reach the bizarre part yet)

Story behind Ex#1
Knew back in early 2004 when we both were part-timer at the local fast food franchise. Seperated in October 2004, he sorta left me back then. 2 years after that he texted me to wish me birthday and since that I hold the grudge no more and we became friends. Somewhere in 2007, he get a job in Penang and moved there. But seriously, we barely keep in touch and practically text each other less than 5 times a year (including Raya and birthdays).

When I was on my way to the venue that we (me andEx#1) set, I received a text message from someone... er.. someone I hope he'd die far far. I received an sms from my second ex (Ex#2). The message sounded like this:-

Hi Lydia, **** ni. u still mrh kt i lg ke? i mintak maaf ape yg i wat kat u. I nk kawan balik ngan u. susah tul i nak carik balik no. u ni. plz accept me back. i miss u. really.

I was like.. wat the fuck?

Story behind Ex#2
We were friends back in highschool and he was my highschool bestie's bf. After highschool, their (my bestie and Ex#2) relationship collapse, but I still be friends to both party - until my bestie end up to be such a nasty biatch. So, me and Ex#2 used to hang alot since then and decided to bring the relationship to another level (konon). Few months after that he dump me (2005), over my room-mate. He told my friends 'we (me and Ex#2) didnt declare' and my room-mate told my friends 'mana la tau.. dah dia yang nak kat aku'. Ever since that i wish him to just go die.. far far. And I didnt commit any relationship ever since then.

How bizarre! The evening I'm about to do some catch up with Ex#1, the same time Ex#2 texted me! Its like.. both of them are from my past, and both of them were... thinking about me at the same time?! Bizarre kan? kan? I've decided to go meet Ex#1 first before I could make any decission about the Ex#2. Memeningkan kepala je.

I had a great time meeting Ex#1, we were like bunch of school kids gossiping and updating and kutuking each other like no body business. Yeah, its been a year since he moved to Penang. Surprising, he said he has not get involve in any serious relationship after we split. Another part I felt honored. Well.. I know Ex#1 is a great guy, but enough that he knows I dont have any feelings towards him anymore, and I know he dont have any feelings towards me too (I think so).

I came back, i felt a huge pain on my head again when I have to face my handphone. Well... Something I'd learnt from Alfred many months ago, just let go. Yang sudah tu sudah. So I've decided to forgive Ex#2 since syawal is still around. Ya know, my friend adviced me to torcher him like mad since he sorta mess up with me last time. But then, aku terfikir... if I hate people, I dont torcher them... i just leave them. Make people suffer is not my style at all. So, he sorta safe in that part alright. But I guess replying his message wasnt a good move, because here comes series of apologizing, reconcilation, and begging to restart the relationship. Damn. What makes he think I wanna accept him back? He's a jerk, for God sake!

Kenapa la mereka begini. Dahsyat nye hidup aku malam nie!

p.s: aku masih lagi terasa nak bakar Merak hidup-hidup sampai dia rentung, memandangkan dia bagi no. tepon aku kat Ex#2 and now he's haunting me!

Yesterday was a very weird day, I'd been running around shah alam - subang like mad, like no tomorrow as my routines and project collides. I have to get my project done by the evening as my due date is approaching next Friday. The day was chaotic, till it really kick me at my head because I was so damn hungry (at 7.45pm)... i forgot to take my meal that day.

I was alone doing my DNA research project yesterday in the Food Microbiology Lab (accompanied by my trustworthy MP3s of course), it was rather calm since most of the students had gone back for their Diwali holiday. Suddenly around 6.30pm I heard bit 'kecoh' behind my lab, and they were speaking in tamil (I was like 'aiyo.. asal depa tak balek lagi nie? tak reti ke da nak deepavali?') as I heard the sound of a girl and a boy, perhaps joking around at the back of the lab building.

When my electrophoresis were done (approximately 7pm), I have to tranfer them (my electrophoresis gel) to Ethidium-Bromide solution in the Genomic Lab, which located in another block. I was on my way to Genomic Lab with 2 cases of electropherisis gel in my rubber gloved hand as I past by the inter-block valley and I saw the chaotic bout. They weren't joking around.. they were actually quarelling! (please, I dont understand tamil) I saw in front of my vary eyes the guy actually snatched the girl's hand and sorta slam her to the pavement. Chill striked.. I just walk (as I hv my project in my hands) leaving the scene and I was kinda relieve as I met a security guard in the other block.

me: bang, kat blakang jalan tu ada org macam gadowh...
pak guard: saya tau, biar la... kita tok sah masuk campur. kalo saya masuk campur nnt takut saya plak yang kena..

so, i left the pak guard and went into the Genomic Lab.

What bother me most bout the above scenario is..
Is our society been so ignorance towards domestic violence like that? I mean, I saw the guy gone physical towards that girl.. I made my right to report it to the nearest authority (well, reporting to the security guard is authority, no?) but all I get is 'biar la...'? You must be kidding me. I mean, aren't they were paid to secure the place and its a common sense that they are responsible to monitor any abnormal activities (like.. smoking, fireworks, adultery etc) in the varsity compound, no? Ye la, to those yg do such activity like that secretly takpe la terlepas.. but the guy terang-terang bersikap ganas to that girl. Kenapa ia dibiarkan?

I know its their urusan rumahtangga (sungguhpon tak kawin lg), but u see... is it rational to put the woman's life at stake of such violence act? Mungkin her bf wasnt rational, but as a citizen to a country that had been fighting for the nation rights back then, rasional ke if kita biarkan je keganasan sebegitu berlaku? Kang tak pasal-pasal ada yg mati la, kena rogol la.. bila da macam tu, it will be too late already. Then, the public will just put a blame on "alah.. benda nak jadi..". What the heck?

Tepuk dada, tanye selera... nak satay atau nak ayam golek?

Afgan - Entah

I had just came back from Merck's Annual Dinner at the The Saujana, KL. It was fun and frenzy, until the moment I dropped Wan at her place.

Here's a lil dirt about Wan. She's a good friend of mine since my sophomore year and still am since I'm doing my project under Puan Rozila and she's currently Puan Rozila's research assistant.

Recently she had a breakdown, the shit is like... her current boyfriend is sorta gives her a cold shoulder or bak kata orang melayu 'main tarik tali' atau 'acuh tak acuh'. Before this she'd a breakup with the same person (she wanted it), but then after that she went to dig her own shit by cari balik orang tu. And I think the guy is starting to play with her heart and her head.

I've been bare with my own feelings to remain calm for the past few weeks due to her antiques (her so called misery), but just now she'd just across the border a little bit more.

In the middle of Merck's Dinner, she borrowed my cellphone. I figured she's calling her sister. Then after we went back from the event, when we reached her house... she borrowed mine again and put it on loudspeaker. And a guy's voice answered. WTF?!

Wan: Hello... saya da sampai umah dah.
That guy: ok la

then he hung up. Well.. the moment she put it on loudspeaker, I wasnt happy bout it. It doesnt amuse me at all. Why she go and call that blardy bastard? And the most I'm not happy about, why calling that bastard using my cellphone?! Dah tau i tak suka that guy... urgh! Then complain if she's using my cellphone the guy will answer it immediately while it takes him to answer after the 3rd times of calling if she uses her own phone. what is she trying to prove to me by doing that?

i knew from the start that he's not really that into her. and tomorrow she wants me to follow her all the way to Bangi (i think i buy my own tix) to meet up with him because she wants him to break up with her. Yes, u didnt read it wrong. She wants that guy to break up with her (not that she wants to break up with the guy instead). What the crap?

the reason she wants me to go along because what she heard from her friend, one girl faced the same thing and the guy end up asked her to prove to him (by giving her virginity) and end up the guy still dump her. i know Wan wants a closure. and she seems really positive about that guy is so gonna break up with her if she go to Bangi (as she will make him angry sorta shit). But she'd been ignoring my thoughts:

  1. What if dia cakap dia still sayang kat Wan? Then Wan will melt again and going thru the same thng again, and misery again, and feels shitty again.. (and haunt me again?) Then she said "he will definitely would never say that". I asked "how u know?!". She replied "because i know him". I asked him "but if he changes his mind and say he still want to continue the relationship?"
  2. Once Wan asked that guy "do u still love me?" and the guy took a long pause before he answered "maybe". And since then Wan still putting her highest hope on that guy. WTF? What kind of boyfriend answers "maybe" on that? Either it is a 'yes' or 'no' isnt it? If its a 'maybe' the guy is unsure with his feelings, thus.. he does think bout ditching u la blardy ass-hole! cuma dia takmo cakap je!
  3. From there u can see that guy can end up mess up with her head by saying that he dont wanna break up with him, kan? Then the usaha of 2 hours komuter journey to Bangi will be such a waste. Kan? Kan?
  4. Is it nescessary to report everything yg ko buat kat lelaki tuh? Perlu ke? I bet the dude dont even wanna know lah!
The other day Wan did said something bout I didnt really support her like her other friends do (because the rest were so furious regarding this matter and i can remain my calm). I told her that if I give her nasihat pon, not that she gonna listen pon. She said "tak jugak..." (denial). And now, I'd give my words... ada dia dengar ke? Ada dia nak peduli? Fuck u la, she dont give a damn.. nak ikot kepala sendiri je. Lagi nk bertekak ngan aku kata aku tak faham.

What the heck that I need to understand?
I understood that he dont want u...
I understood that he wants to mess up with ur heart...
and I understood that you're a psyco-bitch who failed to face the fact.

So siapa yg tak faham skarang nie? Siapa yg nk sangat pergi Bangi supaya jantan dgn harapan jantan tu akan putuskan hubungan (mcm confirm je)?
Sometimes I wonder why I put myself in this shitness. Kalo diikutkan, I dont even wanna know this crap. But kenapa aku nak buang masa dgn benda ni smua? Wan... because ko kawan aku. Ko sahabat aku. Aku care pasal ko. Ko nak defend lelaki yg buat ko terpinga-pinga tu over kawan ko, kan? Tapi kalo mcm ni la perangai ko, baik ko tak payah jadi sahabat aku. Tuhan da bagi ko otak, ko tak nak guna. Tuhan da bagi sahabat-sahabat ko otak, ko still tak nak dengar. Berlagak la konon lelaki tu nak go on lagi the relationship dengan ko, end up ko sengsara and ko kusutkan otak smua orang. Seriously, at this point.. kalo ko rasa ko nak gi mati, aku pon tak peduli dah. At least otak aku tak kusut da lepas tu.

And last but not least, kalo ko rasa ko nak mendekatkan diri ngan Zul.. lepas ni aku da tak nak tolong da... coz aku sedar, kalo camni la perangai ko... ko ternyata tak layak langsung untuk lelaki baik seperti Zul!

p.s: drama ko ni betul-betul mematikan my happiness after meeting my bapak angkat kat Merck tadi! Sesungguhnye aku tersangat happy bila terjumpe bapak angkat aku tadi and glad that he's still cute and wicked, which I hope my happiness will remain at least till aku tertido mlm ni. But tak sempat aku nak sampai umah ko da spoil-kan mood aku. Damn u!

This is out of the blue...

I went there unintentionally just to feed me and Wan's curiosity on Abg Baju Ketat Kaler Purple...

Initially just went there for info seeking...

About to pull the plug, but Wan kept persuading me...

I have no where to escape...

Without a cash, I had to swipe my credit card...

I hope my mom won't kill me at the end of the month...

Now I have 12 months contract with...

Damn, I almost pull the plug and that would save me from paying RM@#% every month. Damn u Wan for persuading.

p.s: Farid, just to feed ur curiosity... remember the last time we talked on the phone and u asked me bout my weight. The next day I weigh myself, I lost 5 kilo ever since Raya. I win~!

Time fly by so quickly this week.

Are you insane?! Its so quick until I forgot what happen to me this week!

How many of u out there likes to 'berebut' things with other people? Some people likes it because of the thrill and the adrenaline rush, some people likes to play with other people's head. But I *hands down* DON'T. I like something that I wanna use is there for me to use. Maybe u'll laugh till u pee (judging from my car condition and the messy-ness of my room), but i like things to be in order. Like last month, when I was so enthusiast to do my lab works. Suddenly the rubber glove is out of stock. My lecturer said she'd ordered few boxes of new glove already and its probabbly on its way for the next couple days. I've waited, from days to weeks. Gosh, how I hate doing lab works without appropriate things. I end up buying it myself, which it practically cost me about RM26 for 2 boxes. See.. I rather buy the thing than keeping my works lagging. Last thursday, if according to plan... Wan wants to do her PCR in the morning. So, I agree to use the PCR machine in the afternoon. So that morning, I came around 9am to do extraction for my Salmonella spp. and Escherichia coli O157:H7, and Fiza (Wan's co-partner) haven't show up. Do u know what time she showed up? End up she came around 11.30am! So much for doing in the morning. I was surprise why she (Fiza) didnt start her PCR thingy at 12 noon, but after that Ghopi came. After some hulla-balloo moments bla bla bla (I was so angry, so I was on my headphone and MP3 all of the time) for 2 hours, Ghopi asked me if I know how to set the programme for the PCR machine. OMG? All the hulla-balloo and waiting for Ghopi is because she doesnt know how to use the PCR machine?! Like, sooooo wasting my time. So I jumped out of my table to the PCR machine, and under 5 mins.. her PCR is on the run. Then Wan said "laaa... ko tau PCR ke? asal ko tak cakap? aku ingat ko tak reti" At that time it was 2.30pm and I'm at the top of my anger. These are the things in my head that time:-

  1. Supposely I do my PCR in the afternoon, if she starts at 2.30pm and finish at 5.30pm... and at what time can I use that blardy machine and what time can I go back?! (because my project requires 3.5 hours of PCR and 90 mins on electrophoresis and 30 mins on EtBr plus 30 mins editing it on SynGen - do the maths!)
  2. Oh, slama ni si Fiza tu mcm bagus sgt je... but end up, stupid jugak.
  3. Memang la aku reti PCR, yg aku dok buat PCR run every week tu apa (for 7th time!!!)? Ingat aku bodo sgt ke? (Oi, I'm not that stupid as I look ya know!)
After setting for Fiza's PCR, I just went out of the lab. Hatred just lingers in my head. I couldnt bear to see their faces (even Wan's, tho' she's my bestie) as if I stay any longer in that lab, I might throwing things and perhaps destroy the lab. I dont mind dummies, I willing to teach them. But when it comes to people that berlagak bagus but a dummy and end up menyusahkan I and wasting my time, there's a lot to be hate ya know. If PCR machine is so cheap, I rather buy one for myself. But I'm sorry for myself because the PCR machine is so blardy expensive, I can get 4 of my cars to get one of that stupid machine. Isnt it insane?

That same night, I was so tensed.. I end up chopping off my long hair. I kept my hair long (of course i do some trimmings every 3 months) for nearly 3 years now, only for one purpose; I want to curl it up for the convo. So much for having convo this year. Since I'm not graduating this Nov, I guess no point for me to keep my hair long la. Dont u think? So, without any hesitation, I just go to any stupid salon in section 7 and chopped the hair off. And clearly the hairdresser doesnt know what he/she (omg, how to say this.. its a she-man) is doing. Tho' my hair looks like the cutest hair style in the world that night, remind me not to go the purple salon again!

On Wednesday morning, due the stress and tensed I had last evening, I decided to stay at home in the morn
ing and bake chocolate cupcakes to calm me down. Baking is sorta like meditation - only when I have someone else to clean the mess for me. Thank God I have a very hardworking temporary maid at the moment. Again, baking is sorta like meditation. You dont just throw things in the mixing bowl, u put one by one in order. Then I skip the mixer, I mix it using the wire wisk instead. When i bake, i sorta use all my 5 senses all together; i can see my cake puff up in the oven, i can smell the cake from a far (meaning it's cooked! and i dont even have to use the timer), I can touch the warm puffy cake and I can taste the rich goodness of my semi-sweet chocholate cupcake (yummmy). Hear? Well.. I only can hear my sister shouts "Yummmm sedapnye!!!!" and she's just 1 meter away from me. I feel so calm~!

A lot of cooking I did that day, when my sister came back from school I made her chicken rice for lunch. After lunch I taught my maid how to make kerabu. After the cooking lesson, I decided to go to UNISEL to take some data from the lab's computer (back up just in case i need to lie, later). The sky was grey.. dark grey, and the rain pour heavily like there's no tomorrow. That's the scariest stormy wheather I ever experienced outside. I drove my car as careful as I can. I was relieve when I'm just about 20 meters away from the university. Suddenly, when i'm approaching the university, the car infront of the van that is infront of me stop abruptly, making the van stop abruptly as well and I have to pull the emergency brake. Since the road was wet and descending, my car sorta slide down and BAM! hits the van. Damn! The van didnt damage much, except the steel inside sorta bent and the bumper scratched. But my car... the worst damage I ever had so far! Thank goodness the second I realize my car slided down, I had turned my wheel so the damage only occur only at the half side of my bumper. I'm just happy to be alive. Tomorrow I'm gonna collect my car from the mechanic, I wonder whats the cost like. Damn.

Ever since my accident, I have not gone out of the house. Even my lecturer decided to ask me to pass up the thesis draft on next Monday instead of Frid
ay. Aww.. Puan Rozila is soooo sweet~! Yea, she could be unpredictably blur sometime, but she is nice. As long the student is nice to her and shows that he/her is hardworking, she'll help you all the way as much as she can - even in her preganancies. But if the student didnt show his/her affection to the work, she'll just them in hell. Hahah, that is something unpredictable bout her. She could be quite ganas in that part sometimes.

Have I told u how I hate my computer table... very much?! I have to do my thesis for the next 2 weeks and my books are EVERYWHERE! and since its small and tall and not so solid, it practically rocks when I use the printer. Haih, i told my mom i wanted the big RM170 computer table, but she dont want to buy it because it's slightly bigger and pricier. Haih.. see... we buy small and cheap and not solid computer table, and we get a hulla dancing computer table each time when I print!

I followed my father for his physiotherapy last saturday. I dont know, I can see Hidayat sorta look at me in every other minute... and I saw it thru the huge mirror! Hahahha. But every time I caught him do that, I just give a friendly smile. Haha, clearly he's shy. How cute. Omg, how long will it take for him to break the shy-ness? I bet if this take any longer, till my father can walk properly also he will never approach me. Hahah! But something that I learnt from him, he's ok around kids. =) And thats have a point!

I went to my relative's wedding Sunday. Something that I learnt today, my father is NEVER a good co-pilot. Hahaha. My mom has a quick temper when she's on wheel. So when my father, the no good navigator give wrong instructions... the car will go chaos like more chaos than Kedai Nasi Ayam Pak Mal. Haha, I hope I got neither of those traits. =)

Earlier in the afternoon today, Torai/Tony/Toneq/Firdaus called me but I had my sister answered the call since I was taking my bath. Later after that I smsed him upon why he called me. He didnt reply. Later tonight I've decided to return his call instead, here's the conversation.

Lydia: Hello, wei.. ko call ke siang tadi? Asal?

Torai: Oh, ala.. saje je... sebab arini Sunday. Ok-la, aku tgh futsal nie. Bye~!

It was a short call, but enough to make me stop and think for a while... ada jugak orang call me because it's Sunday.
"Because its freeeee... on Sundaaaaaay~!" (Xpax advert)

Last week had been quite prolific as I able to break my routines.

It was the first working day after Raya holiday. Attempted to start my PCR project again [after the holiday], but I wasnt in the mood. Therefore, I've decided to go to the bank to put in my duit raya later in the afternoon. But the ASB close at 4pm and it wont make it to my turn.. so I've decided to do some cabinet shopping. Haha, it sounds so odd, isnt it? Well, my mom asked me to find a new kitchen cabinet to replace the current damaged one. Done that, and the tauke said it will be deliver within this one week. After some cabinet shopping, me and my sidekick, Wan, went in to Shah Mall to just kill the time. Oh my, after 3 years of waiting, the Starbuck's Coffee Jelly Frappuchino is back and me love it!!! Ah... heaven~!

Attempted to do DNA extraction using P:C:I method. But after doing it halfway thru, my mood went down again when I couldnt find the chemical for the second half of the process. Damn, ruining my mood very badly. End up, I followed Wan to UiTM to support her cousin - organize a blood donation campaign at the Engineering Faculty. Well, at first I wasnt much into donating because for the past one year I failed to donate blood as my Hb (haemoglobin) count had been reportedly low, in the range of 11.2-11.8g/dl. I heard, anything below 11g/dl is consider anaemic. Creepy. A normal individual have to be in at least 12.5g/dl and above to donate blood, but in my case... my Hb count has to be at least 12.8g/dl so my blood in the body will still be enough even though my I've given away 450ml of blood as my blood takes slower time to replenish. But hell yea, I successfully donate my blood that day! (without really knowing what's my Hb count like for that day) After the the blood donation thingy, I sped home as the tauke called me because he wants to send my kitchen cabinet already. Yeay. After moved the stuff from the old cabinets to the new cabinets, I sped to Section 7 again to follow Wan for.... jogging~!


I woke up enthusiastically that morning as I planned to catch BioMalaysia 2008 with Wan. We reached KLCC at 11.30am and practically spent 2.5 hours at the convention center. Though I think 2.5 hours is barely enough. But what can I do, my sidekick, Wan been complaining much as her feet kills her after the 2nd hour and she's hungry. This is the down part of going with/accompanied by other people, because I know I wanna spend more time at the convention center (to get contacts for job hunting). This is why I like to go anywhere ALONE. After lunch, we went for lil' window shopping which includes for refrigerator and stove. My current refrigerator and stove is so sadistic. =.=" God, have mercy on them.


We (me and Wan) were anxious because Puan Rozila, our supervisor didnt return our calls and messages. So I've decided to meet Puan Shila to spill my anxiousness as the due date is approaching. But I was in Puan Shila's room, surprisingly Puan Rozila came that day. Though for a short time but enough for me to have a conversation with her about my project and yeay, Natasha from UPM has got the PCR result! With her new method, I hope my project will success as well. In the afternoon, Wan asked me out for lunch. Attempted to go nearby, but we end up having a short trip to KL Sentral [via komuter] to have lunch and to surprise visit Zul during his Management Training there. Working hard, brother, working hard~! Mission accomplished. =) When we reached Shah Alam back later that afternoon, Wan were surprised as the time is approaching to 5pm, so she totally forgot to check the purities for her project. Haha, constantly merepeking with her kills the time rapidly more than I expected. On my way back, I drop by to get my father Starbuck's Coffee Jelly Frappuchino as he had been kutuk-ing me religiously everyday because I only brought back one Coffee Jelly Frap for my sister... and none for him. Hahah, a tall Coffee Jelly Frap will shut him up. =)

I dont know, I just feel like lepak-ing in the lab that day. For lunch, I followed Wan's former housemates; Leen and As, for lunch at Barra, After lunch, I just lepak in the lab with them... listening to their recent breakup stories. God, have a mercy on me~! I was dead bored. After the 2 hours of sadistic ear-aching stories, As has to go off to Genomic Lab to have class with Puan Fatimah. So we decided to get out of the lab. We went to Ole-Ole instead for bowling. yes, me + baju kurung = bowling. haha. After bowling, we went for karaoke. It was quite fun. Later that evening, I had dinner with my highschool friend, Asna. Oh well, she texted me earlier that day - wants to meet me and sounded pretty urgent. So we decided to meet up at Bigfood, a new western dining place near my house. Well, she was having a problem with Ajib, his bf. We tried the Grilled Salmon and Romeo & Juliet Pizza. The pizza was ok, but the Grilled Salmon tasted a lil' bit yucky. I've cooked much better than that. But so far, after went there for 3 times.. this is the only time it disappoint me. The rest of the time, it were ay-ok~!


I accompanied my father for dialysis that day. Oh man, Kim canceled the physiotherapy session that day as she were on emergency leave since Thursday. Ala... tak dapat la nak usha Hidayat [the other physiotherapist]!!! Hehe... naughty me~!


Suddenly my father wants to go to Tanglin for breakfast that morning. Yeay, I had a blissful bowl of Wantan Curry Mee and a glass of Iced Nescafe. Yuuummmyyy~! After came back from breakfast I sets off to do some groceries. Later that day me and my mom fixed a new computer table. Yeay, I feel very independent because we dont need a man to fix a computer table. But it was a one hell of exhausted and I hate the new computer table because it is so small! Urgh~!

Through the entire week, I also felt terribly useless as I've gone to the lab everyday but I didnt do my PCR project but I kidnap Wan to go jalan-jalan instead. Damn, the due is on 17th October 2008. Giddy up Lydia~!

Ya know, I was waiting for my sister the other day, to fetch her from tuition [which the routine is like 4 times a week?]. I was bored with my track cd listing, so i switch to the radio. I turned on to and they played Tokio Hotel - Through The Monsoon. Tokio Hotel is a rock band from Germany. I thought "oh, they already start to play this song (in Malaysia) now..."

After that song, the advert was up and i switched to And guess what, they're playing
Tokio Hotel - Through The Monsoon as well. I was like "wah, this song is so famous now meh?" because the first time I heard that song is like a year ago. Delayed famous. =)

Then Marissa, my younger sister, hopped in the car and automatically recognized the song "eh, didnt we heard this song long time ago... when will and play Elliot Minor - The White One Is Evil???" Haha, a very clever 11 year old little kiddo I must say. Yea, play their songs so they can do tour here, as promised by Alex of Elliot Minor to me last month. =) Play other than TWOIE also i dont mind. Hurry up la. Pleeeeease~!

p/s: yes Farid, I know u're bored of me talking bout this guys for the past one year.. but what can I do? They are so close to my heart and Ed Minton is soooo comel~!

comel = cute (in malay language)

Finally, here I am in Blogger/Blogspot after been urged for oh-so-many months by my 2 besties, May and Farid. First thing first, I have to admit that I am no longer a frequent blogger... but I guess by joining this, who knows I might get myself back in the track - just to kill the time in my fast pace life.

For the mean time, cheerios~!