View From My Open Window

Dear Tida...

2010-10-02T00:04:00.003+08:00

Which one yang lagi sesuai.. with white shoes or with silver shoes?

I to the D back to the I....

2010-09-26T00:58:00.004+08:00

Lets photogedik, shall we?

Missing The Old Express Train Ride

2010-08-17T02:10:00.006+08:00

While I was looking for an idea for a post (I nearly to make a post on a Curry Puff ya know) - I ran into one of my good buddy in my Facebook. We were catching up on each other as I have not seen her in the office for quite some time now. Suddenly 'that' topic came out....

For the past few months I have been working out my very best for 'that' particular achievement which is very crucial to my career life. So crucial it is, until I stoped everything and cotemplatingly to strive.

The journey had been like a old express train ride, which sadly the ride had never even started. So... I missed the first train whereby it hit me hard and I start to work harder to catch the 2nd train. And there I go, I'm on probation (somehow this word seems to give a bad potrait on me)... I am at my bestest behaviour, no more hanky panky at work, I maintain my efficacy and if I need to kiss ass the higher level, I would kiss their frigging asses too.

There's an old Malay proverbs that says 'Pisang Tak Akan Berbuah Dua Kali' which carry a meaning things will never happen twice. To be such a noob, I hardly swallow the truth that I missed the 2nd train without knowing. What is this? Is this like such a joke?? Who the heck gives one time frame and at the same time let go 2-3 more train rides passing by in between? Is it fair for those who are really try to catch em' up but in the end just have to stoned and watch the speedy bullet train gazed off infront of him/her?

So a friend tried to calm my raging sulk... perhaps it is not my ride, yet. But you see, I am not Management study genius, but somehow aren't there will be an after effect of this so-called upgrading procedures that would affect those people who are still in probation such as yours truely? And to be depending solitarily on performances, arent there any other supporting aspects that can be a forte to ones achievement? Not to pin-point, but some of those train passangers slammed on late comings and inaccuracy facts?

I am not complaining over my seniority and perhaps not due for being a such a preppy princess over my adequacy. But I feel bothered when...

My hardwork still remain unnoticeable. I'm unwell but still I come to work to jaga my so-called repo. Might as well I take that stupid medical leave kan? Does it really matter now as they are only gonna look back at my little black book in like another 4 months time?

Why done another quick LRT train ride (and didnt allow in those who missed the 1st batch) if they are not done with those who missed the first train.

So.. here I am. Still watching as the trains passing by and realizing life could be such an ass.

Still horrible

2010-08-15T19:15:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah.. I still feel horrible due to the break up. I thought I'm over it, but unfortunately... it seems not. Kenapa ye?

Little bit of shoes

2010-08-13T01:00:00.006+08:00

Ever since my split, I found out that I have a little bit more time for myself (and my family). I started to stay at home more and started a little bit extra more care on myself e.g my hair, my nails, my skin, my bowel activity?, my wardrobe etc. Life is little bit more focus these days.

I've been longing to update my shoes. One thing about me I am very particular about shoes, this is why it took me 1000 years to find a right shoes for myself. Bite me.

After many grueling months of shoes hunting, I finally sets myself to Pavillion today and good Lord, 4 hours was not enough! And of course the 4 hours was utilized not just for shoes hunting. Since was pretty light headed when I woke up earlier (thanx to 11 hours of sleeping) I decided get my hair wash and blow before my journey begins. (actually also to catch a glimpse of head massage... hmmm... oh my...~!) Nothing feels better than starting a mission, what ever mission there is, with a good hair!

And may I tell you, there are too many choices!-of shoes that is. As today is the 2nd day of the fasting month, I have to bare with all the shoes temptation (and perfumes!) and I have to say I'm pretty happy to bring home with these 2 shoes:

I am so over with court shoes and killer stillettos due to my back-ache. No more feet-killer shoes. Pumps/Mary Jane are way too comfortable!

I feel so HAPPY today!

Not believing

2010-08-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

For some few people who knows me, I have a passion for baking. But I barely shares that with people. Most of the time the people will only gets end product from me.

One of the reason I dont really like other people in my kitchen is because I like to be in control. I control the quantity, the speed of the mixer, the temperature of the oven.. etc. I will get annoyed if other people spill the things that I already measured. I get annoyed easily.

So the other day I was late for work because waiting for my muffin to be set in the oven. So my mom willingly to look after my muffin while I go to work. As the time goes by in the office, I was pretty much anxious about the out come of my Banana Pecan Muffin. Will it be undercook? Will it be tad dry? Will it be too sweet? Will it be too much liquid?

I have to say my mom is such a cool mother, besides willing to monitor the muffin... she also willingly to send the muffins to my office. Ain't she so sweet?

So as my mom called me when she arrived at my office, my heart feel such a glee as I excited to get my muffins. To my surprised my mom only brought half of the batch and when I open the container, some of the edge of those muffins are abit....

RENTUNG.

Haha, this is why I like to be in control in my kitchen. My mom is so hilarious-lah!

P.s: I took the picture with my compact camera the other day, but upon uploading the picture in here suddenly my memory card is having an error and have to reformat it. =.="

Subject Remain Unknown

2010-08-06T22:20:00.011+08:00

If u had been noticing, I had not been blog for quite awhile now. Having the idea of living in a fairy tale most probably had been a relentless reason of not having my fingers dancing on the keyboard anymore. I guess 'fairy tale' is such a strong metaphore, it is more like feeling occupied and filled in... thus I thought I would not need the blog anymore. I almost delete this account as I thought it may be pointless in such way on having to much accounts. (e.g: 5 diff emails, YM, FB, MSN.. twas thinking for Twitter too)

But a fairy tale doesnt mean ends with a happy ending. As I taught myself living life is like an experiment, I forgot there are other elements which is descret in ones life: Emotion.

So my relationship with Dave have came to an end, after a glorious a year and a quarter. We've come to an end and decided to be friends. Friends? Yes, friends. And at first I thought its gonna be ay-ok (too much optimiistic pills). Few mins after deciding, then a sudden hollowness struck my heart and my head. Oh Shit, I dont have a boyfriend anymore!

A symptom that I never noticed I had before, I was relying my emotions too much on this human being named Dave. When I was happy, I would laugh with him... when I was sad, I would cry with him.. when I was angry, I would complaint to him; Dave had been the new subject of comfort. But I forgotten that we supposed to have this sort of casual relationship. Like our former prime minister once said "Melayu mudah lupa..."

It has been 3 weeks since the official of me not being a girlfriend to Mr.Dave anymore. I will not lie... I still miss him though, I still imagine him walking across the office, I still felt the warm of his palm embracing my hand, I still have our picture sitting infront of the bed and I still have his number on my speed dial. oh come on.. after a year and a quarter you expect me to just forget about everything in a split nano-second? His existent to my life had been more or less like a routine to me. But routine will still be a routine, it will go off.. but this gonna take some time.

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Couple of months ago I knew someone over the internet and this dude name Jhonson. He'd been quite a good friend of mine and he ran a restaurant in Melbourne. He's such a fun dude, he'd made a point that he gonna be coming to Malaysia this October for vacation and I can tag in. We were looking forward the Langkawi trip.

I had not been on my YM ever since my brother came home for a month, so for the first time in a month I switched on my YM.. it was on the 3rd of August 2010. I received couple of offline messages from Jhon's account.

Suddenly my jolly evening on getting a hold to the pc again had turned to be a panic attack. I left my pc and straight to my room and dialed Jhon's number. His family answered, his sickness had taken its toll on him and he is really gone. Damn.

One freaking frustation gloomed inside of me. Well, few days before he left to India... he did give me a call in the middle of the night all the way from Melbourne. I was sleeping but I managed to answer, I got to cut it short due because I will be working the next day and I hope he understand. And that was the final phone call I ever receive from him. To go back to reality that he's gone now, this thing had been ringing in my head ever since I heard the news... "If only I could be much more friendlier to him on that call... sucha bitch...!"

10 Movie Myths (we wish were true)

2009-12-08T20:59:00.006+08:00

-adapted from Cosmopolitan June 2007 which I took from a clinic I went recently-

1. Movies Any kind of lock can be picked with a credit card or hairgrip.
Reality Ha! Just try it on your front door next time you lose your handbag during a night out.

2. Movies First-time sex is slow, sensuous and completely magical.
Reality First-time sex is drunken, a little bit bumpy and often not that good, really.

3. Movies Men's shirts get wet and have to be removed in women's home.
Reality We live in one of the wettest countries in the world, yet this never happens.

4. Movies Your boss is a smooth-talking lady-killer.
Reality He's more Hugh Hefner than Hugh Grant. Heh.

5. Movies You can work in a city, yet live in a thatched cottage (like Kate Winslet in The Holiday)
Reality Our homes look more like something from the set of Shameless (unless if u hv a maid, then there's a possibility to be otherwise).

6. Movies Convertible cars are glamourous.
Reality They make you look like you've been caught in an industrial wind tunnel.

7. Movies The hot bartender has time to give love-life advice while flipping bottles in the air.
Reality Our not-hot bartender ignores us for ages, then barely grunts as he serves us.

8. Movies Men make women reach orgasm with the use of a single flower (40 Days And 40 Nights)
Reality If the flower vibrated, then maybe.... (hahaha..!!!)

9. Movies You bump into a record-label tycoon while singing to yourself on a train.
Reality You bump into a guy on a train who has yet to discover deodorant.

10.Movies Your misjudge that sexy, yet arrogant guy. He reveals he's suffered a tragic loss and becomes your dream man.
Reality You were right. He's a moron.

$#%@#$%#$^$%!!!!!!

2009-12-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

Have u ever went out for a dinner with your parents and end up regretting it?

Yes, this is one of those night.

So my mom screamed on to my sick face this morning. I thought following them for dinner will a bit subside my aching aching aching heart today and brings us all back to a good term.

I was wrong, so wrong! I shud have follow my guts to stay at home and watch You've Got Mail on Cinemax, but my sadistic mind thought 'why dont I do a nobel thing and follow them for dinner so everything will be fine'. One of my nobel thoughts that turned out to be freaking unwise decision that I ever made.

I am 23 years old (24 in 4 mths time), but for heaven sake please stop being obsess with my life! Go find other kids to be obsess with, will you?

Omg, I feel so wanna move out from this house, seriously. Its driving me fucking crazy.

I believe

2009-12-04T00:55:00.004+08:00

It shimmers in the dark, yet this one's not a trophy,
It's worth so much more, there's no glorious flaw,
It's the best that I've ever seen.
Lovers cannot lie, when it gets you feeling alive ,
Brings your colour out, spreading word about,
That I'll kill before I try.

So please hand me my cover and my soul,
I'll throw away every piece I own.

'Cause I believe if you need me to,
I'll risk my neck, I'll go down with you.
There's no line to what I would do,
Can I be your life 'cause I need you.

A moving spectacle and in the beauty of it all,
It's so much to pull that they made no law,
It's just what the world has been waiting for.
Somewhere down the line, more spirit than in mind,
We'll carry on, forever gone 'cause we left everything behind.

So please hand me my cover and my soul,
I'll throw away every piece I own.

'Cause I believe if you need me to,
I'll risk my neck, I'll go down with you.
There's no line to what I would do,
Can I be your life 'cause I need you.

I believe if you need me to,
I'll risk my neck, I'll go down with you.

So please hand me my cover and my soul,
I'll throw away every piece I own.

I believe if you need me to,
I'll risk my neck I'll go down with you.
There's no line to what I would do,
Can I be your life 'cause I need you.
Can I be your life?
Can I be your life 'cause I need you.

Smack me baby one more time!

2009-11-29T09:19:00.003+08:00

I was happy to have the reunion meet up at The Gardens yesterday. Its like we grew, but not that much. Have I told u how I love reunions?

During my reunion party I received an sms from EX#2 wanted to mee up. So I agreed to have the short meet up... and guess what... he spill his heart out on wanting to take me seriously. Its felt like been pulled into the quick sand. To be honest, I have no feelings towards him. The feelings died when he misused me back then.

Dave been quite busy these days, I hv not seen him much but we do keep in touch from time to time. Or maybe twice a day. Somehow I felt pretty guilty on meeting up EX#2 last night and I have yet to tell Dave about the meet up. To my surprise, an sms from Dave this morning really give a smack on my head...

My relationship is not like the rain that POURS and GOES.

It's more like the AIR, sometimes keeping QUIET and sometimes making noise,

but it ALWAYS there around u.

Good morning my Love :)

Unleashing my new... boyfriend?

2009-11-19T01:39:00.003+08:00

So... I had just thinking of getting a new boyfriend when the old one started to have some attitude problem, cracking up and having some disfunctinalities issue. Well, I thought of finding new one this January as I thought... new year, fresh start. But oh well, I couldnt stand on the tantrum on my boyfriend had put on these days. Thus, I requested to have some time away.

As I walked in PJ today, I saw a guy who kept starring at me. Omg omg omg... he's freaking gorgeous. He wore a black sleek attire with a sensuous smile. He's kinda tall and build. As I walked near him and he start saying 'hi'. So we just chat, he seems very smart though. I like having conversation with him. And, have I told u he's an expatriate? He said he's from Finland, cool! He's currently working with the telecommunication industry here in Malaysia. But one thing amazing about him, he seems so good with places around. He said he'd stayed here for quite some time now. Awesome!

So I guess I'm gonna spend much time with him from now on. Well... at least I'm having a good time having him around rather than keep screaming on top of my lungs on my previous one.

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I LOVE YOU, N97!

I do, I dont, I dont know.

2009-11-11T20:33:00.006+08:00

Life is much easier if we're still kids.

As my age turn to 23 these days, I came across to adult issues that pertaining commitments, love, life, money, sex?, etc. Its funny as I brain hv to grow along to make it synchronize with my age.

The same old question still lingers in my head: "How would you know he's THE ONE for you?"

I have asked the question once to Kak Fatin, a week after Farid blurted the news about her getting enggage and she said..."well... u just know" and left me in blank after that. The question is remain unanwered (or its already answered but I dont buy it).

I do

Few weeks ago I managed to participate in Kak Fatin's wedding to Mr.Mubarak. It was very nice, I was overwhelmed with how it went. Most probably it is because the first wedding that I attended as adult. Still, I feel like those were the days I used to follow Opah around to wedding ceremonies back in my younger days. It was fun! Despite the fact that my toes hurt due the new shoes (damn u new shoes!), the ceremony was lavish and beautiful. Kak Fatin looks gorgeous and how handsome Mr.Mubarak was. The whole day was blessed with happiness. Now the couple are on their way to produce progenies.

I dont

Living in the working life at the moment allow me to mingles with varieties traits of people, varieties of people means varieties of issues, varieties of issues means varieties of headache. Jennifer and Michael are happily married for 9 years now. They had been blessed with love and happiness, health and wealth. The turning point for the marriage when suddenly Michael starts having affair with Cheryl, a much younger woman. Very much for happy ending. The fairytales that they living in turns to a mighty nightmare. Jennifer felt betrayed, deceived. Michael treats her like a piece of doormat and only turn home to be feed or for sex. Now Jennifer is considering for a divorce.

I dont know

So... my bestfriend Ashley is getting engage in 2 weeks time. A vibration from my phone broke down the silent of my Monday morning where she texted me with "Lydia, I'd just found out Russel has a new affair". Why it didnt shocked me much, perhaps I heard about this thing way before the existance of telephone, thanks to Alexander Graham Bell. So, yesterday Ashley spills everything pertaining to Russel in my kitchen. He start seeing that girl when the day Ashley told Russel that she wanna a little time away. I was like "wtf? he seeing the girl 'that' soon?" and time has past like 2 months ago? The scenario is like, the man got into an arguement with the woman, the man go to the pub, and there he go... he scores a whore! Well, for the moment... since there's alot weird things happening between those two (have I told u Russel's mom and sister is not a big fan of Ashley?), Ashley is having a second thought of whether marrying Russel is the right thing.

So... how do u measure LOVE by the way? I am not prejudice on this matter... I am just blindly confuse.

Relevan?

2009-11-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

Relevan tak kalo aku nak rasa tak berapa puas hati kalo bf aku terlupa nak call aku?

Aritu bila dia transfered dia JANJI nak call aku tiap2 malam.

Smalam dia lupa nak call aku.

Malam nie dia hampir lupa nak call aku... itu pon masa aku call dia, dia tgh bz nak get ready coz nak gi clubbing and dia kata nak call aku bila dia dalam kreta nnt. He end up call aku, conversation cuma 1 minit 30 saat je. Aku rasa sekadar cukup syarat je.

Relevan tak kalo rasa tak puas hati skarang nie???

Shit you! Aku rasa nak dispute!

Shift

2009-11-05T08:53:00.002+08:00

So... this is my 2nd month on working in shift.

Do u know what is the weirdest thing to work in shifts?

Is the Transition.

Its been few weeks my schedule had been afternoon and evening shifts where i hv the previledge to wakes up late.

Today is the first morning shift for the past2-3 weeks, the cuckooness strikes the air and oh God its been 2 hours I'm in the office but I'm still one heck of sleepy!

I hv to adjust my biological clock back pronto! sigh...

Socio-economy?!

2009-10-31T20:20:00.003+08:00

I had 'that' talk with my mom again yesterday. My mom adviced not to fall on 'that' kind of man.

My life is like an odd ball. I dont know why these days this thing kept linger in my head. Its like the potential of my life will be either one:

Aku jadi andartu
I fail my marriage

Scary, somehow I dont fantasize on happy ever after ending. Perhaps the reality that lies around me is not so happy ending like what teenage girls always dream on. My mom had warned me about her bestie's life, Ita.

She have 4 kids, quite successful woman. But his husband does not work. So I asked why his husband is not working? Well.. previously his husband did work with some kind devoloper company, but after for quite some time... he decided to not to work anymore. And I've met this man before, his not old owhkay! So left Ita alone who hv to work on her own to maintain the life for her kids, her husband and his husband's family. Yes, the in-laws. Ita owned an apartment that is fully furnished but the husband insist to live with his family in BB. Then later the husband treats her shitty, perhaps he thought he's still great - forgotting that the homosapien who brings the food to the table is his wife - alone. After few years of feeling deceived and used, Ita thought enough is enough. Furthermore the husband always joke around on giving a talak. What the hell is wrong with that guy? Ita packed her bags and out of the house. She's now a free woman.

This is indeed scary. I need to find for a guy who I can feel secure, who willing to take care of me sincerely, who can be with me until my last breathed. Worlds these days proposed that its hard to get these kind of gentlemen with such exquisite qualities.

My mom said I must start to socialize from now on so I can find my 'missing' puzzle. Perhaps there is a guy somewhere in this world who is looking for me as well. Sigh... my mom always gives hilarious quotes these days.

Rejecting Ex#2

2009-10-29T22:32:00.003+08:00

I dont blog these days. Not because I dont have anything to babble about, good Lord I have a hell loads of things to yap on but all become an end when I come across to the normal significant habit of mine, MALAS.

This morning I had an appointment with Optimax. Oh... I forgot to tell you I had my eyes lasik-ed 24 days ago. It was the prime time to get a lasik since the last incident during my raya in kampong this year whereby my glasses snap on the raya morning which leads to almost one day of three quater blindness.

My opto said my eyes are very dry.

After my appointment with opto, I've decided to go to my grandmom's house and have lunch. Oh snap, it's just 9.30am... that Muslim Chinese restaurant not open at that hour! So I've decided to have breakky, in Shah Alam still. That will buy some time. After figuring out who will be my victim, so I thought... lets asked Ex#2 for breakky since he'd been smsing me last week to ajak lepak. Btw, Ex#2 is my 2nd ex bf - was my former schoolmate, was my former bestfriend's former bf, who cheated on me over my former roommate. It was a shitty 4 years for me over him, but maybe I am kind to let him be friends with me again this year.

Lepak in McD, bla bla bla.. catching up. And he said he missed me and he sorta hv an idea to get back together. I was like, wth? With all do respect, no. And judging from my quality, he's planning to send the rombongan meminang next year. ?!?!?!?!?!?!

Sorry babe, I have to reject you. Though I hv yet to found any candidate at the moment, but I rather not having the relationship with you... judging from the shitty experience I had with you previously. He confessed he done loads of stupid things previously, even I dont really like him he was having the idea of 'perhaps u can love me after the marriage? some ppl do that'. No.

So I sped to my grandmom's house, had a good day there lepak with my grandmom and playing with Baby Omar. Omg, he's a huge baby now... so mischievously adorable. With collides of anxiety from other issues in my life, later that evening I've decided to write Ex#2 an sms:

Dear *Ex#2*,
Sorry, I dont mean to reject you just now.
1. I realize u're not that serious.
2. I'm traumatize/phobia.
3. I dont feel secure.
4. I dont wanna end up hating you again.
Let your life stable first. If u really serious about this, who knows one day I might reconsider.
At that point, let your judgement base on your sanity, not your lust.
Regards,
Lyd

OMG! Kenapalah aku baik sangat?!

Petai Oh Petai

2009-10-21T22:53:00.004+08:00

ADVICE FROM UKM MEDICAL DOCTOR

Little did you know ....... after reading THIS, you'll NEVER look at petai in the same way again!

Petai contains three natural sugars -sucrose, fructose and glucose. Combined with fiber, petai gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy. Research has proved that just two servings of petai provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute wor kout. No wonder petai is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy isn't the only way petai can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression:
According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND among people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating petai. This is because petai contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

PMS(premenstrual syndrome):
Forget the pills - eat petai. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anaemi a:
High in iron, petai can stimulate the production of haemoglobin in the blood and so helps in cases of anaemia.

Blood Pressure:
This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the petai industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke.

Brain Power :
200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating petai at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipatio n:
High in fiber, including petai in the diet can help restore normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Hangovers:
One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a petai milkshake, sweetened with honey. The petai calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn:
Petai has a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you suffer from heartburn, try eating petai for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness :
Snacking on petai between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito b ites :
Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the inside of the petai skin. Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves:
Petai is high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system.

Overweight:
Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at work leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report c oncluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers:
Petai is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

Temperature control :
Many other cultures see petai as a "cooling" fruit that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers. In hoiland, for example, pregnant women eat petai to ensure their baby is born with a cool temperature.

Seasonal Affecti ve Disorder (SAD) :
Petai can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural mood enhancer, tryptophan.

Smoking:
Petai can also help people trying to give up smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress:
Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium petai snack.

Strokes:
According to research in "The New Engla nd Journal of Medicine, " eating petai as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%".

Warts:
Those keen on natural alternatives swear that if you want to kill off a wart, take a piece of petai and place it on the wart. Carefully hold the petai in place with a plaster or surgical tape!

So, as you can see, petai really is a natural remedy for many ills. When you compare it to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrates, three times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the other vitamins and minerals. It is also rich in potassium and is one of the best value foods around. So maybe its time to change that well-known phrase so that we say, "A Petai a day keeps the doctor away".

*copied from my aunt's forwarded email

Maciek is back in the track

2009-09-30T23:15:00.008+08:00

Ok... I know, this is not a big thing. Yes, I know. But to me this is big!

Its been 5 years since the last time I heard from Maciek, my good friend from Poland. To be honest, I do not know what had happened to us. We just dont communicate. Have I did something wrong? Was he ignoring me? Though we've added each other in Facebook while ago... but we still didnt communicate. But I do communicate with his brother, Adam (who is so madly in love with his gf, Trish.. haha), from time to time. My friendship with Maciek were only in mute form, so silent without any slight sound.

Tonight, I do not know... somehow I caught Maciek online in Facebook. So, I thought.... why dont I say Hi. 5 years seems like 500 years, I am very pleased to chat with him again tonight. I missed those feelings of anticipation getting news from him, its funny. Those were the days when internet was pretty new a thing. We communicate like many many many times a day? I still have the letters that he wrote and those presents that he sent to me. And though we're basically halfway around the world, it felt like he's not that far away from me. (ok Lydia... u shall stop there)

Its good to know that he's in France now furthering his study. Its good to know he's back in his part time modelling job, only now in Paris. And it sucks to know he's not engaged anymore (even when he got engaged last Feb, he asked Adam to hush hush from me, which I do not know why). Oh well, all the best for him.

Yes Mak, I miss you too.

Mr.G

2009-09-29T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hi,

Over a week ago, I've attend one branch call from down south due to one customer. The branch officer is... err... lets call him Mr.G. During my conversation with him, its rather short but he seems pretty enthusiast talking with me (which I normally keep my conversation short with my clients or any branch officer).

So, few minutes after that I received a compliment memo from him. Decided to read and ignore because good Lords I have many else things to do that day. But later he complaint that I didnt reply, man... he's one kind.

Days after days I just replying his memos, only today I think he already cross the line. He called me thru my cell phone (which I did not pick up as was working that time). Many times I asked him where did he get my number, then he revealed he took it from the company database. He's sneaky old bastard. Pretty creepy ya know. Meaning by any branch could access to my database and to get my personal info? Where's the security on that?

It creeps me out the whole day somehow. So I decided to tell Dave that this particular guy stalking on me. He took it as a joke, alright. Dave got no problem understanding the fact that Mr.G is actually an Indian. He even laugh at it when I told him. But Dave seems to take things seriously when I told him that this Mr.G is 38 years old.

Dear God, may I know why OLD GUYS always attracted to me? And can I get other than Indian, Punjabi, and Pakistani kind of guy? And please ask this Mr.G to buzz off from my life, pretty please.

Psycho Shoppaholic

2009-09-29T00:21:00.003+08:00

So.. a continuous of my psycho mental problem-depression series... its just a symptom of my pre-menstrual-syndrome or what people call it PMS. My mood swings like one kind, i felt very insecure, and I'm very gullible.

After work I've decided to make a little detour of my own... I went for a shopping spree and it was a hell loads of shopping. Most people will go to shopping complexes for shopping... but not me. My detour brought me to KLIA where I hunt for Paris Hilton's perfumes, Ralph Lauren Silver and Marc Jacob's Daisy EDP. I was very sure what i want owhkay. But to my disappointment, they dont sell Marc Jacob's there as they only sell it in the International Terminal (the last time I saw in LCCT). Meaning by... I must hv an international plane ticket to go in there. Sigh.. thus I just bought other than that. Yeay me, the sales girl gave me Paris Hilton's Bag and also sample from Versace.

My fuel tank almost empty, decided to put in some petrol near the airport and continue my journey back home. With accompany by Frank Sinatra serenading the clear night, it was rather a calm drive home. And, since I already in the area... last minutely I took the turn and sped to LCCT.

And there you are my Marc Jacob's Daisy EDP which has only 4 bottles left there. I believe their sale is more into EDP as compare to EDT (on my opinion, their EDP smell better n a bit diff then EDT!) and I have to give a credit to the sales person there. She's so sweet... and she let me brought back more and more samples. Kudos to the girl!

I drove home with a very happy mood, not long until my mom announce that I might need to use my credit card for my eye surgery this friday if she didnt get her annual leave. Oh no...! I'd just spent a fortune, and tomorrow I have to pay some... at least to let RM6200 sufficiently can be charge to my credit card.

I shop crazy, I pay crazy. I have a problem, I am shopaholic and I need to go for psychotherapy.

P.s: Ohyea, hv I told u I save like RM80 from the normal price of perfumes in the market (because I bought like what... 4?)... and my journey only cost me RM30? The parking and journey might be similar if I go to Pavilion or KLCC during peak hour, and minus the possibilities me getting attracted to other shops like clothes and miscellaneous.

Frust

2009-09-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

Today is an official day of my frustration
Things happening as opposite from what I planned
From one to another
This is very irritating
Ever since I woke up this morning
Yet until this hour
It irritates me inside like a small pin which gradually killing me slowly

I feel like locking myself in my room
I feel like killing a man
I feel like smashing things
I feel like throwing my phone and let it crash to my wall

This is quite depressing

Welcome to my bipolar disorder.

Sing a happy happy happy happy song~!

2009-09-19T06:08:00.003+08:00

Its that time of the year again! All pumped up and ready to celebrate on the month of Eid. I hereby would like to take this opportunity to wish everybody Selamat Hari Raya to all my friends and love ones. Realizing I'm not the kind of goody two shoes (kinda evil in a way somehow), I also would like to apologies on my wrong doings and my wrong choice of words thru out the years in this sacred month of forgiveness. To those who are traveling going back to home towns or perhaps just a skip away for vacations, wishing u peeps have a tremendous of good times, take care and drive safely.

Cheerios~!

Jenga With Tida

2009-09-09T21:24:00.006+08:00

I'd been looking forward to go out with Tida for quite some time ever since our last meet up in IKEA sometime ago. And I'd been dying to bring her for a Coffee Jelly Frap dose in Starbucks, at least while its stock last or otherwise I need to wait for the season again next year.

Coincidentally Tida announced she'd be coming back last Weekend, thus without any hesitation we expedite the plan of hanging out in Starbucks, and sadly... sushi have to wait for another round.

I've decided to fetch Tida from her place... I mean, its been awhile since the last time I set my foot in Taman Permata. I believe, ever since I moved to other school in 1996, I never ever come back to that neighborhood. Much change now, but funnily the houses are remain the same. While waiting for Tida, drove around in that neighborhood (and yeah, my exhaust been screaming thru the silent night) and pulled over infront of my old school. Yikes, memories flash back. That school rocks!!!

Fetch Tida, shoot to JJWM. We spent quite couple of minutes to window shopping and we saw an AMAZING shoes in Nose. Tida, I urge you to buy that shoes!

So here we go, 2 chics lepaking in Starbucks while sipping a grande Coffee Jelly Frap each.. Decided to play Jenga while rendering old stories and updates. I always love the idea of bunch of friends lepak at some sort of cafe or kopitiam playing board games. And there we are, regardless countless of people starring at us, with our countless of priceless expressions on our Jenga session.

I love that day, I had loads of fun! We should hang again the next time u're back in Malaysia! Err... I mean, KL!

I cry tonight...

2009-09-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hollywood Undead - Pain

Now I can see your pain, I’m sorry
(good bye)
I cry so hard
Now I can see your pain, I’m Sorry
(good bye)
I cry tonight

The next of this youth
With their necks through this noose
Were told lies like it’s truth
And we suspect that it’s you
So you trap ‘em with the AK
It’s mother fuckin mayday
They swear I’m fuckin crazy
Ain’t nothing gonna save me
I’m breaking, I’m feeling
I’m naked, I’m kneeling
I’m shaking, I’m reeling
My god I keep bleeding

I watch the world die through crimson eyes
I cry, it turns to night
I die, I see the light
And now I’ll say goodbye

(Chorus)

If I could take all this pain away
Use the rage of the youth today
Who’s to say that it’s you to blame?
It’s the people above you
The ones who say that they love you
Look what the world has come to
So now it’s time to say FUCK YOU
If you they care, then they drug you
And no ones there when they numb you
Fill will you terror and crush you
Pretend they care as they shove you
So you look to me to find the truth
And what I say is what you do
But everyone you look up to
Is really as fucked up as you
Time is getting shorter
With these enforced disorders
And we get blamed to pushed around
Whos the fuckin’ villain now?

(Chorus)

We can’t stop now
We’re so close now
Cause these times are almost over
I won’t give up, so god save us
It feels like we’re getting closer
We can’t stop now
We’re so close now
Cause these times are almost over
I won’t give up, so god save us

(Chorus)

Its all in the eyes

2009-08-29T01:42:00.007+08:00

So... I'd just came back from meeting a friend. He's a new friend, someone I'd just known bout 2 days ago. We're basically working in the same company, its just that he based in different location.

For the past 2 days he'd been calling me about 4-5 times a day and he sounded pretty eager to know me though I did told him I'm currently in relationship. I'm ok with people that wants to make friends with me, but I got a bit of issue with people who seems too eager like this guy. And more irony, he has a pakistani heritage... which is not much diff with the one I'm involving with at the moment.

For the past 2 days, what I know about him... he's 26 years old, youngest of 3 siblings, pretty caring, religious wise pretty ok, quite friendly, another mommy's boy and born-raise in KL. And other that we talk about the business.

Decided to meet up at a diner near my house, my first impression about this guy... hurm, he look pretty ok. He kinda look like Edika Yusof (picture), a malay actor back in the 90's. Only slight much more pakistani spice on his features. And his nose, oh no... like Dave's. Hahahha. Talk about this Dave, I feel pretty bad on meeting this 'new friend'... not that he need to give any consent but I do feel like a little betraying on the other half. I know I shouldn't be so serious about this, I'm not... but still... somehow if the other half had been treating and respecting us nicely, of course we will do the same thing, vice versa. And due to the respect, I feel pretty bad.

But... the meeting aint so great. To be honest I rather sit at home and watch tv or rambling in internet. He's an ok guy, but from the body language and at the rate of his going... I believe he can be pretty cocky and he smokes which is so not my preference. And the most demerit point of all, eye contacts. He lacks of it, like major lacks of it. Due to that he lose to my boyfriend on eye contacts, at least the first time I went out with Dave his eyes were constantly look into my eyes and yet after 7 months we still can stare at each others eyes, deeply. Yes, it may sound pretty corny, but I do think eye contacts are pretty necessary, regardless to anyone u talk to; your teacher, your student, your friend, your enemy, your boss, your employee, your butcher, your client, your doctor, your patient, your family and the list goes on... unless if you talk via online or on the phone. A word is a word, but a word expressed upon the sincerity of the eyes will allow the words spoken to reach the minds of those they are spoken too. This is why eyes contact is important. I did not realize the essential of it, until today. Ironically there is an old English Proverb quote: the eyes are the window to the soul .

Dude, after this let just talk about business from now on.

Eva is the name!

2009-08-29T01:09:00.004+08:00

Isnt she the cutest? Her name is Eva Lestari binti Azlan Rudy, the first born of proud parents, Rudy and Intan. Born on last Wednesday, 26/8/09 at 5.50am and weight at 2.86kg. A very healthy and pretty child. Just look at her hair... so thick and black and.. loads of hair! Awwww....! She's so adorable!

Congratulation to Papa Shuvit and Mommy Shuvit on the newborn Baby Shuvit. Hahaha. Eva will be as beautiful as you both, may God bless all of you.

p.s: photo credits to Rudy. cant resist for this photo... its too cute.

MC Hammer

2009-08-28T12:25:00.004+08:00

Good afternoon earth links!

Haha, i barely update my blogs in the afternoon ever since I got myself a job last Feb. But oh well...

So I woke up this morning with a tummy unfit and a hell lot of lazy-ness as it had been raining since last night... or afternoon? Been out of the bathroom and felt limb (and lazy)... I spent 45 mins lying on my bed thinking to MC or not to MC. Its a fact that this Monday is a public holiday thus we're gonna have a slight longer weekend off. But anyhow, its also a fact that quite a number of ppl will take today so at least they will have 4 days off instead of 3.

And I bet I'm gonna get a hell lot of cranky calls today.. so.. since my mood today arent their best, might as well we prevent it from making it ever worst. Thus, a quick call to tell I'm taking an MC and a trip to the clinic.

Doc said my tummy is active, meaning diarrhea in coming. Thus, a valid medicine with a valid MC.

Gosh... at least I'm not faking on my sick leave. =D

Lets call it official

2009-08-21T22:50:00.003+08:00

Its Ramadhan again!

I'd been quite jolted with this coming Ramadhan, most probably because this the first Ramadhan in my working era. Ya know, its different from the time u were studying last time. Plus, I'd been quite berlagak towards this entire year since last year managed to fast the whole month without a day skipped! Hahaha

So... today is the 1st Ramadhan eve, been stuffed myself with choki-choki and ice-cream ever since I got back from work. Haha, dont know why I my sweet buds kicking in tonight. What ever.. its a total bliss, owhkay!

After choked myself with chocolates n ice-cream... 10pm and I decided to take my bath. Yea, I realize.. I'm prone to take my bath pretty late these days. Bad habit. So, back to the story... I'm about to take my bath when suddenly I dont feel so right with myself...

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.... officially my puasa tak penuh this year. Adeh.... so much for the excitement. This is pretty depressing.

Offer

2009-08-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

While we were having lunch at Subang Parade earlier today... my parents popped out a proposition regarding the plan for my future.

It was an interesting offer though, which requires me to think hard of it.

To be honest, I kinda like the offer too... but I'm still considering the first plan.

Thinking.... thinking... thinking.... thinking....

Damn, this is hard when I have to think of this alone.

.... what is the purpose of me living in this planet?

Unproductive Sunday

2009-08-09T23:25:00.004+08:00

This is to save a person's soul from my blabs.

For a start, this was how my morning like today...

.... amboi mak minah sayang, mak minah kaki temberaaaang... (the alarm clock from my phone)

Me: alamak, its already Monday.... i wish today is Sunday... I am so lazy to go to work~!

Still... semi sleepy, to look at the phone...

Me: Oh yeah, today is Sunday. Zzzzzzzz......

After a short nap, I got up again.. in my semi-conscious-ness take shower and get ready to breakfast with my dad.

To be honest with you, this morning I still have the hangover from the med I took yesterday... oh.. hv i told u I had a fever since last Friday? After got back from an event at my working place, I was at the the top notch of my exhaustness... my muscles were aching, i had cough for the past 2 days since I strained my vocal much for the 2 weeks, and I have a temperature of 38.6. But still, with all my will after dinner I went and collect my CPU all the way in Sec 2 and actually assembled and update all the software for the sake of the peace in this house in the next day. And the next day I was forced to go to the hospital since I look like hell. But dont worry, it wasnt H1N1... its just a normal fatigue. And still.. I'd been quarantine in my room for 24 hours.

So.. where were we? Ah.. we were talking about how unproductive my Sunday like today. My mom gave me a strict order not to go out, not to do chores like cooking, or baking or carrying stuffs. Yea, u got it right... I'm still in quarantine, only this time in the house. So I practically spent my whole morning and afternoon watching tv, until I got so sick of watching Keeping Up With Kardashian marathon (not saying the marathon is boring, but I've seen it quite couple of times already... but seriously, thats the only show I can watch since nothing much interesting show in my cable tv during the weekend) and got up hearing one round of Hollywood Undead's album and another round of Imran Ajmain's latest album. After that I spent my evening reading novel for couple of chapters until its time for dinner.
After dinner, another round of watching tv since 'Journey to The Center of The Earth' already aired on HBO. Then, here I am... blabbing bout how unproductive my day like today which I spent by watching TV, reading and listening to music the whole day.

Hurm, in second thought... it actually sounded like a perfect relax weekend. Why the heck it still feel pretty unproductive to me?

.... and the meds already take charge, I'm signing off. Roger and out!

Exquisite literature

2009-08-04T23:50:00.004+08:00

This what kids write for their karangan these days.... owh....
Haha... kids says the darndest things! And more ironic... usually its true. Hahahah~!

I Dont Want To Get Married

2009-08-04T23:43:00.004+08:00

So... the hullabaloo regarding marriage had been spreading in my life like how H1N1 had been an epidemic to the whole world these days. People kept bringing this issue up maybe because I already turn 23, as my mom got married to my daddy at that age 24 years ago (oh this coming 10/8/09 would be their anniversary btw). Its killing me in a way....

My mom wish I found my 'jodoh' before 25, which is... 2 years from now?!
My grandmom also brought this issue up last weekend.
Well, more my friends are getting married these days (or at least got engaged or more or less on the way) and I'm like... me?!
Dave told me on his so-called plan last Saturday of moving to UK next year, and since I'm leaving too... he got a plan in his mind for us to stay together and get married there. (which I replied with a laugh but deep down I was scared to death)
Regarding the first matter I had asked Farid to send in the proposal (masuk meminang) to satisfy my mom's wicked wish (haha, it was suppose to be a joke btw)... which I totally forgot that he's still studying.

My inner voice is screaming as I'm kinda tired to hear noises regarding this matter, thus I've made up my mind not get married. Why?

I'd been questioned everybody, how the person know he's the ONE for you? And most of the answers would be... 'you just know'. Hello... you left me puzzled still.
I dont have a confident to run a family, I dont even have a confident to run my own life... how would ppl expect me to run a family then?
Will be sorry to my future husband pertaining to my health issue.
I'd been linger in Kak Shue's separation case these days, she'd been happily married for 5 years... suddenly his husband found another bitch few months ago and now he treat Kak Shue like some sort of garbage. Damn parasite, the husband is.
Most daughters would like to have a husband similar to his father's persona, not in my case. Read my lips... I do not want to have a husband like my father.

And again... who knows I might change my mind in the future.

This Love, This Hate

2009-07-26T22:13:00.008+08:00

This Love, This Hate by Hollywood Undead

In a time of need only few can see what's wrong
millions tend to crawl but only those who choose can make it through this all,
only few can sing like lions 'cause we sing until we're gone
and we've got each others backs until we're back where we belong,
a woman held my shield and through the battle we did wrong,
a man who taught me wisdom through the static we recall,
and maybe when we' re gone our names will echo through the stars,
every start's got it's ending even when we've learned to rise above it all,

[Chorus:]
These lies are leading me astray its too much for me to stay
I don't wanna live this destiny it goes on endlessly

I see you so please stay strong
I'll sing you one last song and then I'm gone
I don't wanna live this destiny it goes on endlessly

And we once also had a story too
you can see that good men only come in few.
Even in our greatest moments we may win or we may lose
every song's got it's rules, you've got to learn to make it through.
Maybe one day we can choose how it feels to be a woman or a man
without rules but burried underneath there's a picture glued.
So when my body burns in ashes only sing the truth
Let these words strengthen all your views
because these words were meant for you

[Chorus]

An' now I'm floatin' right above my coffin as it closes I look down
I see sigh as she's cryin on my moma's shoulder.
I look up into the sky as the gates to heaven open somethin's wrong
is this destiny or am I goin' home,
what will happen to my soul will I come back I don't know,
will you meet me when its over let me know,
You can meet me here in heaven don't you ever let me go

This love this hate is burning me away

[Chorus]

This love this hate is burning me away

Reunion 2009

2009-07-26T00:10:00.006+08:00

It was last minute done and been hastily planned. But it went pretty well... i dont care, I'm there coz I missed my fellow schoolmates! It so good to meet them back after so many years!!!

Its funny though we're bunch 23 years old people there, but it felt like highschool again where we crack some stupid crazy jokes, crappy stories and act like one.

It had been 24 hours, and I still miss these kids!!! I had a pure good time yesterday, and I can live with this everyday. Why on earth did I changed school last time? Damn.

100 Things Your Kids May Never Know About

2009-07-24T08:53:00.007+08:00

Got this from Wired.Com. Its true, even myself couldnt find most of these stuff. Yikes~!

There are some things in this world that will never be forgotten, this week’s 40th anniversary of the moon landing for one. But Moore’s Law and our ever-increasing quest for simpler, smaller, faster and better widgets and thingamabobs will always ensure that some of the technology we grew up with will not be passed down the line to the next generation of geeks.

That is, of course, unless we tell them all about the good old days of modems and typewriters, slide rules and encyclopedias …

Audio Visual Entertainment

Inserting a VHS tape into a VCR to watch a movie or to record something.
Super-8 movies and cine film of all kinds.
Playing music on an audio tape using a personal stereo. See what happens when you give a Walkman to today's teenager.
The number of TV channels being a single digit. I remember it being a massive event when Britain got its fourth channel.
Standard-definition, CRT TVs filling up half your living room.
Rotary dial televisions with no remote control. You know, the ones where the kids were the remote control.
High-speed dubbing.
8-track cartridges.
Vinyl records. Even today’s DJs are going laptop or CD.
Betamax tapes.
MiniDisc.
Laserdisc: the LP of DVD.
Scanning the radio dial and hearing static between stations. (Digital tuners + HD radio b0rk this concept.)
Shortwave radio.
3-D movies meaning red-and-green glasses.
Watching TV when the networks say you should. Tivo and Sky+ are slowing killing this one.
That there was a time before ‘reality TV.’

Computers and Videogaming

Wires. OK, so they’re not gone yet, but it won’t be long
The scream of a modem connecting.
The buzz of a dot-matrix printer
5- and 3-inch floppies, Zip Discs and countless other forms of data storage.
Using jumpers to set IRQs.
DOS.
Terminals accessing the mainframe.
Screens being just green (or orange) on black.
Tweaking the volume setting on your tape deck to get a computer game to load, and waiting ages for it to actually do it.
Daisy chaining your SCSI devices and making sure they’ve all got a different ID.
Counting in kilobytes.
Wondering if you can afford to buy a RAM upgrade.
Blowing the dust out of a NES cartridge in the hopes that it’ll load this time.
Turning a PlayStation on its end to try and get a game to load.
Joysticks.
Having to delete something to make room on your hard drive.
Booting your computer off of a floppy disk.
Recording a song in a studio.

The Internet

NCSA mosaic.
Finding out information from an encyclopedia.
Using a road atlas to get from A to B.
Doing bank business only when the bank is open.
Shopping only during the day, Monday to Saturday.
Phone books and Yellow Pages.
Newspapers and magazines made from dead trees.
Actually being able to get a domain name consisting of real words.
Filling out an order form by hand, putting it in an envelope and posting it.
Not knowing exactly what all of your friends are doing and thinking at every moment.
Carrying on a correspondence with real letters, especially the handwritten kind.
Archie searches.
Gopher searches.
Concatenating and UUDecoding binaries from Usenet.
Privacy.
The fact that words generally don’t have num8er5 in them.
Correct spelling of phrases, rather than TLAs.
Waiting several minutes (or even hours!) to download something.
The time before botnets/security vulnerabilities due to always-on and always-connected PCs
The time before PC networks.
When Spam was just a meat product — or even a Monty Python Sketch.

Gadgets

Typewriters
Putting film in your camera: 35mm may have some life still, but what about APS or disk?
Sending that film away to be processed.
Having physical prints of photographs come back to you.
CB radios.
Getting lost. With GPS coming to more and more phones, your location is only a click away.
Rotary-dial telephones.
Answering machines.
Using a stick to point at information on a wallchart
Pay phones.
Phones with actual bells in them.
Fax machines.
Vacuum cleaners with bags in them.

Everything else

Taking turns picking a radio station, or selecting a tape, for everyone to listen to during a long drive.
Remembering someone’s phone number.
Not knowing who was calling you on the phone.
Actually going down to a Blockbuster store to rent a movie.
Toys actually being suitable for the under-3s.
LEGO just being square blocks of various sizes, with the odd wheel, window or door.
Waiting for the television-network premiere to watch a movie after its run at the theater.
Relying on the 5-minute sport segment on the nightly news for baseball highlights.
Neat handwriting.
The days before the nanny state.
Starbuck being a man.
Han shoots first.
“Obi-Wan never told you what happened to your father.” But they’ve already seen episode III, so it’s no big surprise.
Kentucky Fried Chicken, as opposed to KFC.
Trig tables and log tables.
“Don’t know what a slide rule is for …”
Finding books in a card catalog at the library.
Swimming pools with diving boards.
Hershey bars in silver wrappers.
Sliding the paper outer wrapper off a Kit-Kat, placing it on the palm of your hand and clapping to make it bang loudly. Then sliding your finger down the silver foil to break off the first finger
A Marathon bar (what a Snickers used to be called in Britain).
Having to manually unlock a car door.
Writing a check.
Looking out the window during a long drive.
Roller skates, as opposed to blades.
Cash.
Libraries as a place to get books rather than a place to use the internet.
Spending your entire allowance at the arcade in the mall.
Omni Magazine
A physical dictionary — either for spelling or definitions.
When a ‘geek’ and a ‘nerd’ were one and the same.

Thanks to Geek Dad and Nathan Barry to list it all out. =)

No String Attached

2009-07-22T20:54:00.005+08:00

A tak nak pergi if B tak pergi
B tak nak pergi if C tak pergi
C tak nak pergi if D tak pergi
D tak nak pergi if E tak pergi
E tak nak pergi if F tak pergi
F tak nak pergi if G tak pergi
G tak nak pergi if H tak pergi
H tak nak pergi if I tak pergi
I tak nak pergi if J tak pergi
J tak nak pergi if K tak pergi
K tak nak pergi if L tak pergi
L tak nak pergi if M tak pergi
M tak nak pergi if N tak pergi
N tak nak pergi if O tak pergi
O tak nak pergi if P tak pergi
P tak nak pergi if Q tak pergi
Q tak nak pergi if R tak pergi
R tak nak pergi if S tak pergi
S tak nak pergi if T tak pergi
T tak nak pergi if U tak pergi
U tak nak pergi if V tak pergi
V tak nak pergi if W tak pergi
W tak nak pergi if X tak pergi
X tak nak pergi if Y tak pergi
Y tak nak pergi if Z tak pergi
Z tak nak pergi if ...

Dah... dah.. abeh tu smua org tak payah pergi la macam tu! I dont know whats the deal with these human beings yang takde pendirian macam ni. What on earth are these people still doing in this planet? Zaman macam ni pon ada manusia mcm ni lagi ke? I mean come on la... we're independent. Kita dah merdeka dekat nak 52 tahun pun... still wants to let other people dictate our mind and our decisions? Oh puh-lease~!

I have to admit I am very angry with this kind of homosapiens... the most sempoi word to describe to these people is... PEROSAK SEGALA PLAN.

For God sake... Free Your Mind~!

Icky Thumb

2009-07-19T03:02:00.003+08:00

This post I dedicate to Farid... hahaha for his curiosity.

So... the other day I accidentally poured a boiling water onto my thumb and I was screaming like hell in the kitchen. After put my thumb in running water, I went to the living room and showed my mom and she said "haih, macam la tak biasa kena... suck it up". haha, thank you very much for your sympathy.

The next day to my surprise the thumb went bloated like a water balloon. Haha, and its squishy... like an external water balloon planted onto my thumb, what not to love? That night I've decided to poke with a sterilize needle because I thought the water balloon brings abit disturbing feelings to my peace. It soothe a little bit.

I woke up the next morning and the thumb bloated again. =.=" Haih... so I went to work as per usual. Later that day I had just came back from a wash room and decided to resume my work, which put me a lil bit on hold because I accidentally bump the thumb with my other hand and it burst flooding my table with the clear liquid. Owhkay, it was over exaggerated there... but it did burst, just minus the flood part. And the skin torn open revealing the flesh about half inch long. I ran to the wash room again to get a tissue, wash the wound and try to intact back my skin with my flesh. Good Lord the open wound was painful.

For the past 24 hour I'd been keeping this thumb dry, only once in awhile I wash with anticeptic. How ever as u can see, it is still swollen though. Just pray hard so this lil thumb will not get any infection.

I have an ugly thumb!

Cheerios~!

The Attack of The Momsies

2009-07-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

-In the mood of dissing people, pls excuse my mix language-

So... ada one area kat office yang buat aku malas giler nak dok, aku gelarkan... The Momsies Area. After quite sometime tak jejak sana, eventually smalam aku terpaksa gak dok sana coz kat office tu dah takde cubicle lain yang available memandangkan these days working hour aku start 10am.

The Momsies consist of 4 blardy biatches. Not worth to mention their names, nanti ada plak yang sabotage keje aku.

Actually masa mula-mula aku join that office, aku memang pandang tinggi ar kat Momsies ni.. coz they potrey as skillful workforce, knowledge diorang power and serba serbi diorang cam dasyat tahap dewa ar. And I always wanted to be taught by them, coz aku pikir aku nak jadi macam diorang. Tapi... keinginan aku tu tak brapa di-fullfill jugak la coz they seems reluctant to let me be their protege. Tapi aku heran, certain people elok la pulak depa layan.

After training, aku tak tahan dok dekat ngan TL... I've decided to moved in to The Momsies area, semata-mata nak amek ilmu daripada mereka. Lama jugak la aku menglocation kan diri kat situ... tapi... aku still rasa diorang tak ngam dengan aku. Aku pon tak tau apa issue diorang nie. Tapi tak kisah la.

One thing for sure, adat orang menuntut ilmu... aku ske bertanye. And I have to admit, this industry is so new for me.. therefore aku mmg a bit slow. (agak2 ar aku study apa dulu..!!) But to be honest, aku rasa most of the time aku dok area tu... aku rasa macam asyik kena marah je. Marah biasa2 aku ok ar, no hard feeling.. tapi the words yang kluar tu... macam sial je. At some point aku rasa diri aku di-downgrade gila-gila... imagine situation nie... at some point aku sendiri kena admit kat diorang yang aku ni BLUR/BODOH/BINGAI etc. And besides that, satu lagi ayat mmg aku tak bley lupa which they yelled to me out loud.. "awat blur sgt nie? kan akak dah ajar dulu? dah lupa? awat tak masuk otak nie? cuba la guna otak skit! tanam skit benda tu dalam otak... brapa kali nak akak ajar?!"Damn, sepanjang 23 years nie.. tak pernah aku di-downgrade camni. And of course... diorang peduli apa aku feel mcm mana. But at the end of the day... aku tak brapa nak kisah sgt ar.. itu personal issue aku dgn diorang je.

After awhile.. I moved to Island area (actually because ada org dok cubicle aku aritu) whereby aku tengok diorang ni happy je sentiasa. Btw, The Momsies ni slalu kutuk Island masa aku dok Momsies area dulu. So.. kirannye first impression aku kat Island nie teruk gak ar. But so far, to be honest aku lagi tenang dok sana.. aku lebih senang buat keje aku.. and I dont wake up feeling petrified everyday. Plus, when there are things that I need to refer... they tak marah-marah. They are willing to help me tak kira bila. They very humble, cheerful, teamwork, and yet very efficient in their work. Unlike bunch of those posers Momsies. I dont know, my life much easier there. Plus, when the area was almost full there and I try to find other places in the office.. they took care of me very well by reserving one of the place in the Island. Omg, I've never been taken care off like that in the office before... and I realize I'm in the good hand of these people, never been so secured like this.

Eventually, aku terpaksa dok kat Momsies area yesterday. I came with a clean heart, but tak sampai 1 hour kat situ aku dah jadi jiwa kacau balik. Awal-awal dah kena marah. Good Lord.. and the rest of the day aku rasa misreable kat situ. Thank Goodness there's IM so I can still chat with Haniff and Dayah, they are the source of my amusement for the whole day.

But suddenly, something came out from their mouth yang buat aku agak tersentak ar...
"Tengok Hidayah tu.. dok situ senyap-senyap... tak tanye orang pon. Macam kita je terkejar-kejar selama ni nak bertanya, elok sangat ke kerja budak tu...?"

"Elok la tak banyak soal, dari orang banyak kali tanye.. dah ajar banyak kali ajar pon tak masuk otak jugak, blur..."

And I was like... waddaheck? Dayah yang takde kena mengena ngan Momsies ni pon nak kena attack gak ke? Apa masalah diorang nie? So far... as I know la.. Dayah is in good shape there. She's refering to bunch of great people at her area. Yang Momsies nak kepochi sangat tu apahal? Bukannye dia pernah buat masalah pon. And... agak-agak ar nak buat commentaries... apa tak tau ke yg aku ngan Dayah nie goodfriend kat office? Argh.. terbakar jiwa aku ar camni.. aku tak kira kalo diorang nak attack aku coz mmg I have to admit I required loads of their attention jugak before this. But... Dayah? She have not communicate ever with the Momsies... so what's the deal between her and their lifes? Itu dah kira personal attack.

And still, I'm lying la kalo aku tak terasa langsung apa yang diorang kata for the 2nd commentary tu.

Aku pon heran why aku pandang tinggi sangat kat diorang dulu, I've reconsider now. Furthermore, they are much technical.. They might be good at their work, but at the same time.. kalo hati tak baik.. tak jalan jugak. But so far what I know, The Momsies nie mmg suka cari kesalahan orang lain, suka ngumpat orang lain, suka jeopardize other people's life. And mulut.. God knows!

So... there you are, my personal perception of the Momsies. Well, aku tak pernah luahkan this things to anyone.. cuma today I take it as exception since aku rasa ketensionan aku terhadap Momsies ni dah sampai ke tahap optimum.

May God bless this Momsies.

At Heart vs. In Mind

2009-07-07T23:25:00.005+08:00

I came out with a theory while I was chatting with Tida awhile ago.

Its pretty simple to differentiate between someone u keep in your heart and someone u keep in your mind:

Someone in heart: u can describe them in thousand of words without full stop or intermission.
Someone in mind: u have to brainstorm a little bit, the first thing that popped in your mind are the person's flaws.

Someone in heart: ... because u speak from your heart.
Someone in mind: ... because u have to think with the 10% of your approx 1.4 kilo brain.

Maximizing my day

2009-07-06T01:20:00.009+08:00

I woke up pretty early today, realizing i had sucha weird dream yesterday. Whats the deal between me and weird dreams? Hahha.. and hv u ever heard I called my dreams other than 'weird dreams' before?

Woke up early and I start to go to kitchen to chop some onions, chillies, mushroom, tomato, crack some eggs.. chop chop chop stir stir stir... and voila~! An omelet du fromage & fungi! What an ample breakfast to start a very good day.

After breakfast we get ready to go to Pavilion. The people there are not as much as other shopping complexes like Midvalley or One Utama or Pyramid... which is good because i wasnt in the mood to go into too cluttered space. My father was so in the mood for shopping and at the end of the day he's the one who shops alot! Me in the other hand have to reserve myself a bit due to my current economy crisis. Well, let just hope I could survive with RM200 for the next 3 weeks. Oh Lord~!

We had teppanyaki for lunch. Yumma~! As well known I'm allergic to bean sprout. Err... ok-ok, i confess. I'm not allergic to bean sprout, but I just hate it. The reason I'd been yapping on the allergic so other ppl cud cut the lecture part and just get on with their life and let me go with my own taugeh-less life. But I managed to taste a bit of the taugeh, its quite ok... but still got my goosebumps arise like a disease! But cut the taugeh crap, the teppanyaki was very nice. I enjoyed it very much. Babah was enjoy at first, but he did not enjoyed the paying part much. Hahah, what to do... thats a sweet lesson for him not to bet anymore. (he made a bet with my mom on Tennis Match 'Venus vs. Serena' and he lose)

Have u ever seen this much of taugeh to be cooked infront front of you before?!

My lunch

After lunch, got home and managed to squeeze some time for groceries shopping. =)

At 5pm I sped to The Curve to meet an old mate, Farah. My excitement level was on high and very much anticipated to meet her up after....5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13... 13 years of not seeing each other! OMG, time fly by like a speed of light. And it feels like yesterday when the last I spoke to her in 4 Intan twas upon a time. Having friendster and facebook as a medium of communication, I've never met any of my former SKTPians before in real life after I moved to Bukit Bandaraya. Thus to be frank, Farah is the SKTPian ever (besides Etty which coincidentally went to same high school, once upon a time coincidentally work at the same place and coincidentally lives in the same area now) I ever met so far. Farah is a good buddy and seriously nothing much change on her though it had been 13 years. She's still the same old bubbly as ever and her voice didnt seems to change at all. Hahahahhaha... omg, if she's a guy I have to bare with the husky vocal change... lucky for us woman, we dont have to go thru all that! Hahaha.

Accompanied by her sisters (so we had bunch of Farahs at the table.. haha) we've decided to have a meal at Ikea and talk and talk and talk and rendering the old moments. It feels so good to meet her back after all the years.

So... we were naughty to bring in outside beverage in the dining hall.

After meal I thought of joining the girls for another shot of Transformers 3 but the one seat next to the girls was taken, so I decided to depart from The Curve. And... I managed to lost my beloved digital camera. Funnily I wasnt so panic as I'm supposed too... I can still laugh when I found out my camera when missing from my bag. I have a strong feeling that I left my cam at Ikea's Dining Hall thus I marched myself to Ikea being que sera sera. And thank goodness, the camera was at the Information Counter. I have to say a high respect to the cleaner guy who found my camera as he was honest to pass my camera to the Information Counter, if other people found that camera.. who knows the camera will just gone like that. Highest respect ever, I love you Ikea! (yes, u can tell that I'm very happy alright.. the camera is like half of my soul owhkay!)

On my way to the parking lot, suddenly an idea just popped out of my head. Remembering Ashraf who had been messaging me for the whole afternoon, so I thought... its a good idea ask him out to have a little meet up before he get busy off to overseas end of this month and so on. So here we go extend our lepak at Kedai Kopi at 10pm. I can conclude, Ashraf is among the best buddy I have (besides Asna) so far in my former high school in Shah Alam. Its good to see he finally do what he love most now and I'm all happy for him. To me, sometimes a human being's achievement is not been measured by how much money he earned or how top he is at the moment. To work for something that brings self-satisfactory and happiness is consider an achievement to me. At least he's happy with his work though the degree he took didnt serves up his current job. Better than he feels like dragging himself to job every single day and being a single depress homosapien on a planet, where's the life to that? Its always a good time with Ashraf too. =)

Omg, Ashraf is all skinny now!

Have I told you I bought new perfume? Seriously I cannot resist Miss Dior Cherie L'eau. Just... have... to... grab... it...!!!!

Today had been an awesome day! =)

Omg, Kak Fatin got engaged!

2009-06-21T21:42:00.006+08:00

I woke up that Saturday morning with a phone call from an anonymous number...

Me: Emm... hello?
Caller: Hello.. Lydia, Farid nie. Sorry my phone takde credit. Hey, apa nie anak dara bangun lambat?
Me: Urgh..!

So I jumped out of the bed, brushed my teeth and getting ready to follow my family for breakfast. Having nasi lemak at the stall nearby my house... a phone call once again broke my peace.

Caller: Hey Lydia... Farid nie, urm... u ada camcoder tak?
Me: La... apasal tak cakap awal-awal?
Caller: Nak mintak your favour to buy tape for my camcoder.
Me: Err.. owhkay.

After breakky, went back... showered, make up and off I go.... to Subang Parade. Reached there at 10am and nothing much stores open. So I decided to hv a quick wash and blow while waiting for the camera store to open.

10.50am... I sped from Subang to Sungai Besi on gear number 5.

Reached there 11-ish and made a scene since I crashed my car's front bumper to a root of a tree. After parked, I open the door and Farid ran to get the tape. Phew, I guess I came at the nick of time. Yeay!

I have to say the rombongan from pihak lelaki sooooooooo ramai and it was done quite traditionally and pretty lavish. At least I gotta see besides the modernity in Malay culture these days there are some who are still practice the old tradition, which I think what makes a certain ceremony more special and unique. I love it.

And Kak Fatin was dropped dead gorgeous! I always thought she's pretty but seriously, she's so gorgeous that day. If on engagement day she already this beautiful, can imagine how would she look like during the wedding ceremony?

The engagement ceremony were past gracefully without hiccups (I think). Admiring at the mini pelamin and also their 'grey/silver' theme. Very nice indeed. Seriously, I got the first glance on how would I expect my engagement ceremony will be like as being the eldest in the family. =.=" Which brings to so many butterflies in my tummy.

And I had tremendous amount of fun! Knowing Myra and Jojo on that day is like knowing them for my whole life. Who could predict 15 mins we knew each other we already cracking jokes like knowing each other for 15 years! Bunch of good people.
I had a good day yesterday. Hanging around with Farid's family and friends were so splendid. Proves that good company could provide good hospitality regardless where ever we are.

Congratz to Kak Fatin and Abg Mubarak!

1st Week Of June 2009

2009-06-07T22:16:00.007+08:00

Monday, 1st June 2009
Its the first day of the week... and I already felt pretty crappy that morning. I couldn't sleep the whole night and my heart was pounding insanely. Most probably because I was so tired the day before as I drove my father back to hometown and also back to Shah Alam. Twas restless that night, imagining myself like a living time bomb whereby I'll look to my alarm clock every one minute.

The morning, getting ready for work.. I still hv a split guilt whether to MC or to go to work. Semi-zombieness I drove myself to work... but when I reached the junction, I've decided to take the clinic junction as my head was at the top of cuckooness that morning. Called my TL, waited for one hour at the clinic and voila... I got my medical cert. Btw, doc's prescribed me sedative to overcome my anxiety attack.

Got back, decided to chill at the living room till i fell asleep for one hour and I'm up again. This time attempted watch ANGELS AND DEMONS in Pyramid. Reached there, the queue was so effing long and I changed my mind to window shopping instead. Gun metal Parker rules!

After that I joined my father and sister for lunch. After short luncheon I decided to do some bank errands. And omg, I did something very unexpected thing in Sentul that day. Haha!

Tuesday, 2nd June 2009
My morning was ok, though as the matter of fact I still feel like staying in bed that morning. Most prob still hangover from the sedative I took last night.

Went to office that day as per usual. Bump into my bf at the elevator as I'm going for lunch, so we decided to hv lunch together. When we went down to the working floor, suddenly he planted a mini kiss (in the elavator, u can judge there's no one there except for both of us) and I got freaked out 'are u crazy? what if there's CCTV in here?! omg!'

And again my nerve had been stirred after getting a msg from Ex#2 saying he misses me and wants to meet me that night. I fwd the msg to my bf and he can only smile. He's like the most understanding bf I ever had so far!

So I went out with Ex#2, we had dinner somewhere in Damansara. And yes, he wish for the reinstatement. But seriously, even if I'm not seeing anyone at the moment I still will not accept him back. But the funniest thing, over the meeting my bf sent me messages to check on me. Check out one of his message:

'Are u still with that donkey?'

I was laughing out load the moment I received it. Came home at 11 and my bf called and I got scolded not because I went out with my ex, but because I told my parents I'm going out with my ex-school mate. Well, he is still my ex-schoolmate though.

Wednesday, 3rd June 2009
Its like the busiest day ever! And surprise surprise I get called to our manager room that afternoon. My heart was pounding like hell again, restlessly... perhaps I get caught with the elevator thingy. Dug dug... dug dug... dug dug... and I pass my ORT! Omg, thats a fucking relief! And nothing on the elevator scene. wakakakakah.

Thursday, 4th June 2009
Supposely I hv a date with my bf... and it got canceled again... for the 6213546513 times. The thing is like this.. when he's free, I'm not; when I'm free, he's not. Get wat I mean? Hopefully our schedule will be more ideal after this, once he already move to his new office. Unless he's too busy snogging new girl at his new place, then I'll definitely will file for a divorce!

Oh yea, and finally I able to lunch with Haniff n Dayah! Omg, its been awhile ay?

Friday, 5th June 2009
Busiest day for me... i got too much follow up cases to do that day till I feel like wanna puke! And my head was cracking real hard. I was surprised my bf decided to change cubicle nearer to mine that day, most probably its among his final days at the office. One thing not good about he moved cubicle nearer to mine... he often disturb me and merepek... and I abit pantang if my head is messy and at the same time ppl disturb me with crappy things. I went home with a messy emotions.

Saturday, 6th June 2009
Breakfast at Tanglin was such a bliss! Bliss for the tummy, bliss to my soul and bliss for the day! After breakkie, we went to our old place at Hillpark whereby the last tenant had just moved out. The house was so messy like hell. Brought along Ivy (and his hubby is hot hot) to list things to repair n replace.

After that sent my father for dialysis, and just lepak at Subang Parade. As my sister's quote... ' Remember you told me u gonna stop shopping this month... yea, I thought so. I knew u cant..' after seeing me stash the shopping bags. hahah

Today is the day Brian and Nana get married. Congratz to both of them! Gosh, I remember I met Brian at Hitz Birthday Bash few years ago, it was nice and one of the event I could not forget. It was super fun.

I dig some pictures from the internet that evening just to catch a glimpse at their ceremony. Its so pretty!

And that night I slept at 2am just to prepare things for Grilled Party at my grandmom's house the next day. The chicken is so freaking yummy! And the Potato Boat too. Yeay me!

Sunday, 7th June 2009
I woke up late that day since I slept pretty late the day before. At 12pm we set the gear to my grandmom's house in Klang. It was freaking awesome! Yea, if more ppl involve will be much more great... but I guess the one we hv that day was all ok. We had Fish, Chicken, Beef, Calamari, Mushrooms, Fried Rice, Clam Chowder, Breads, Puddings, Lai Chi Kang, Fresh Fruits and... good Lord think I left few more things here, but what am I saying is.. we had too much food that day.

As per usual Omar will be the centre of attraction for the family. He's so freaking cute. At 6 months he's wearing 2 year old toddler attire. He's huge and adorable!

On my way back home my Ex#1 texted me saying he wants to meet me and he's in Bangi at the moment. Omg, dejavu again! Remember end of last year I had a tragedy whereby Ex#1 and Ex#2 find me at the same day? Only this time its happening agan, but on the same week. And I freaked out again.

So that night I met Ex#1, decided to go for a drink near my house. And yes, I told my other significant bout the meeting and he was laughing out loud coz this thing had happened twice and both at the same time frame. It was a short meeting though, due he was bored at his hotel in Bangi. Great to know he found a gf now, relief the same time. It was all good that night though twas short meeting.

Later that night my bf called, and we still hv issues to go for movie the next day. Aiyaiyai... =.="

12 Reasons to Laugh

2009-05-30T22:28:00.003+08:00

Inspired by Urban Health. =)

Laughter helps to control blood pressure and heart disease by reducing the release of stress-related hormones and bringing relaxation.
Alleviates pain and gives a sense of well being by releasing endorphins, the body's painkiller hormones.
Increasing stamina through increased oxygen supply.
It reduces blood sugar levels, increasing glucose tolerance in diabetics and non-diabetics alike.
Effective antidote for depression, anxiety and psychosomatic disorder: laughter boosts the productions of serotonin, a natural anti-depressant.
Ensure good sleep and reduces snoring because laughter is very good for the muscles of the soft palate and throat.
Laughing is aerobic, providing a workout for the diaphragm and increasing the body's ability to use oxygen.
Brings a happy glow to your face and makes your eyes shine with a thin film of tears which are squeezed from the lachrymal sacs during the act of laughter.
It improves job performance, especially people whose work depends on creativity and solving complex problems.
Clinical studies shown that laughter strengthens the immune system.
Humor helps integrate both hemispheres of our brain, for the left hemisphere is used to decipher the verbal content of a joke while the right hemisphere interprets whether it is funny or not.
Laughter helps your blood vessels to function better. It causes vessels to relax and expand, increasing blood flow and reducing the risk of cardiovascular disease. In other words, it is good for your heart and brain.

Shall we laugh, now?

Flipped out

2009-05-23T22:57:00.008+08:00

So.. I wasnt in a good mood ever since before I'm suppose to wake up this morning, thus affects the whole day today. I was so flipped out due to these few people:

My boyfriend - who does not know how to prioritize things, argh!
My boyfriend's ex-girlfriend - who doesn't know how to stop, geez!
My father - who kept nosy about my personal issue
My father's physiotherapist - who also nosy about my personal issue, thanx to my father.
Myself - who failed to get some sleep for the past 3 days.

Argh! Its just leads to cardiac pain the whole day! Daymn! I managed to make all 5 of them shut up today, but... when will this come to an end?!

Wasnt in a mood to talk much today, I killed my anxiety with these stuff:

Blook - ooh, i got a pair of khaki trousers and black basic tee... on sale!
New undies - cant believe I spent about an hour at that blardy shop (sorry MasterEar hv to humiliate himself in the picture)
Urban Health - good Lord this stuff is good
Meds - finally after 4 days refusing to go for check up, I give in today. Doc's verdict: very high temp, throat inflammation, cold and cough. Prescribed meds that confirm will knock me down tonight.

Nothing beats retail therapy on a mood swing day. =)

Owh... and this one kept blasting on my stereo for more than hundred time today!

Argh.. this is just a blardy heart-wrenching! I'm heading my bunk, the meds most probably already take the effect.

Roger, and out!

Where Rainbows End

2009-05-16T01:23:00.003+08:00

I finished reading this story book approximately one month (on the dot) after I received it from my dearest friends, May on my bday. I dont know why, this is like the first story book that I picked up from the box set. Apparently I couldnt help to be too emo while going thru with the book.

Like reflecting myown life on a piece of paper... I saw myself like Rosie Dunne in the book. I felt her, I saw her vision and I'm having the same feeling that she felt. She's independant, she's smart yet she do more and more stupid things in her life. Boo to me and her.

So.. if you're asking me which part of the book is my life now, I would say... perhaps in the middle of Part 2. Casual dating had been not so bad these days, but on pursuing my own happiness.. yet I still feel disturbed by some sort of hollowness in me once in awhile. I still feel dreadful in some ways. In other word, I'm not 'that' happy.

Maybe I should clarify here that he's slight diff from Greg's character in the book, he's fine...

... and I took an oath not to take him too seriously, not to care him too seriously and not to have any deeper feeling too seriously as I'm preventing myself from hating him if there's anything happen between us, I dont want to hate people like how I hate my exes before. Thus, thats how my casual dating works.

So... could I really wait for another 27 years?

=Omar=

2009-05-05T23:29:00.003+08:00

So.. it was a very boring Sunday. I've decided to 'lepak' at my grandmom's house just to clear up the wind in my head and also to visit my grandmom. Yea, I found a lil' tranquility in the house, most probably I was raise there ever since I was born till at least 6 years old before moved with my parents.

Few hours after that, angkoi and aunty M got back from wedding, so does Omar, our latest addition to the family. Omg, he's as huge as ever! The cutest little thing. Hahaha. Fascinating to see how square his face mold when he sleeps.

At the age of 4.5 months, he's now 8.6kg... and he wears a one year old clothes. =.="

What interesting more, he's kinda ok with me and barely cry when I carry him around. Unlike with my grandmom who often fought with. I sensed we're gonna make a good team someday. =)

He also likes to grab my hand, stare at my hand... and suddenly start eating my hand with his gum! hahhahahhaha... omg, he's like a living baby zombie without a teeth! hahahaha Cant help it though, my hand seems so tempting to him.

Hurm.. what else did I missed? Oh.. at the moment he's still struggling to lay on his tummy by his ownself and barely can sit. But he's so eager to walk when his foot touched the ground! And he walk sideways... just like crab! Hahahhahaha~! Yea, gotta remind Kamal to teach Omar moonwalk and shuffle when he got back from Perth later on. As per quote by Kamal 'Omar already hv the basic moves'. Haha... how cute!

So.. that's the update on Omar at the moment. Gosh... I dont wanna miss single bit on his growing process. Too bad I'm gonna leave him at least 2-3 years, perhaps starting on next year. I'm gonna miss this boy to the bit then. =)

Here are few pics that I managed to snap with Omar the other day.

This is why I rather watch movie alone.

2009-05-02T23:24:00.004+08:00

Him: It was a very exhausting day, me and my cousins all went for a movie. We watched x-men, and then went for dinner.
Me: Wait... u went watch x-men?
Him: Yea, that movie was so good! Seriously... totally worth it. Oh, I also met my ex-gf at the curve too.. she was watching x-men with her cousins as well.
Me: (ignoring the ex-gf part) u already watch x-men?
Him: Yea, best giler.
Me: Hey.. ya know, I'm gonna watch x-men too tomorrow. Dont mind me, I'm watching alone.

So... you might know that I'm used to complain alot. And now... this is why I hate to watch/planning to watch movie with other people. The scheme is simple:

I'm thrill to watch a movie (well, there are only certain movies that i will excited to watch)
That person is excited to watch that same movie.
That person planning to watch that movie with me.
Will talk about this movie for months before it aired.
Then... that person announce that he/she already watch that movie with somebody else.

What the fuck?

So... I belief this had happened before.. kinda reminded me of very similar incident which occured some 5-6 years ago. Been talking about Van Helsing for months with my senior, Alif, and planning to watch together since the day we were start discussing bout this movie. Then.. one very very very fine morning he announced, "sorry la lydia, smalam abg alif da pegi tengok ngan Rahman"

Also... some few cases which thank God I dont remember the details but I knew on the existance.

This is why I hate make movie plans with my friends (or what so ever). This is why I prefer to watch alone or not watch movie at all.

P/s: Pls dont make movie plans with me if u will end up watching with somebody else and proudly announce to me after that.

Men and Lies

2009-04-26T00:07:00.007+08:00

Me: ... I... I'm not angry, I'm just disappointed.. why would you lie on this? If I didn't check this out, I would not or perhaps will never know. Besides, I don't know what else have u been lying to me.
Him: I am not lying.. I'm just hiding it from the public. Remember the conversation we had last week? I've tried to hint you, but u just don't get it.
Me: Owh... now it makes much more sense now. Nicely done, congratulation!
Him: thank you.
Me: That wasn't a compliment.
Him: Haha.. I know.

So... I'm seeing someone lately, perhaps u already know from my previous post. Things that you might not know, he's someone I met from work.

Do men always incorporated with lies? Well... let's check the record. Once upon a time my granddad lied my grandmom. My father lied. My brother lied. My uncle lied to my aunt till they got seperated. My exes lied. Farid lied. My friends all lies all the time. Some man said they lie to get off from trouble. Some men said they lie to please some people's heart. But does it hard to at least be honest at something? No, I'm not accusing the entire XY population but so far... I don't know, I have a skeptic intuition when men trying to bull shit me.

And again.. I am not angry, its just a little bit of disappointment.

Coversation earlier...
Him: You're not afraid going out with me?
Me: Like I said last time...
Him: No, I mean... u accept me as I am?
Me: Oh come one, if u're my boyfriend... there will be things or...
Him: *shock disbelief*
Me: Oh my God, that did not come out right... I'm so sorry...
Him: *still jaw dropping*
Me: I mean.. if I take u seriously, there will be things or two that I would be strict on. You can see that I dont prohibit you from clubbing and such. You go if u want, I dont bloody care coz I'm not going. When I know you.. you already be this one person. I can't change you in split second. Therefore, I take you lightly and you can do what ever you want as long it doesnt drag my life in bull shit.
Him: As pertaining to your question the other day, the reason I informed you that I'm going to the club so you will know where I am. I just wants to be honest with you.
Me: Very well then. =)

And that must be the reason why I'm not angry when he lied to me on the top matter. I dont take him seriously. And he also realize he's the one who trying hard to get me and at the same time I need some time to make an adjustment to my life (pretty thankful he hv the patient for that). At the end of the day, we both know we're not gonna marry each other. The reason we agree with this relationship is just to fill in some empty spaces in each other's life. Therefore, we both live in the moment without worrying what comes ahead because I know... we wont be together for that long... and I know... he's not THE ONE. (I also have yet to know who is THE ONE, God must have it all pre-planned)

Living in a moment. I'm a girl who loves to read fairy tales but did not belief them at all. Once in awhile knowing this guy makes me feels like living in fairy tale (well.. you can imagine he's the kind who would do everything for me and care me like a living gem, so far... too good to be true, heh?), which contradict from what I'd been belief on. And again... I'm living in a moment. Who knows... nightmares is just around the corner.

Yet I am still very grateful having him around. =)

Omg! Bilik aku banjir!

2009-04-20T00:02:00.004+08:00

It was a rather fine sunny saturday, twas having lunch with my father at SJMC and suddenly my sister called.

Marissa: Kak Lydia, where are u now?
Me: SJMC la, wat u think?
Marissa: Have mama told u that ur room got flooded?
Me: What?!
Marissa: Owh mama haven't told u then, suddenly we heard bunyi 'hujan' at upstairs.. we when up and the sound came from ur room. Its like waterfall came down from ur ceiling. Paip from tank atas pecah, we're calling a plumber.
Me: ?!?!?!
Marissa: I think u need to come home.

So thats a short call I received from my sister, after put my father at the dialysis center... I rushed back home.

I reached home, my mom and the maid had just brought down those mattresses for sun dry. And most of my stuff in my room had been brought out to clear the room. But I managed to get some photos courtessy of my sister.

Its been a very tiring weekend on cleaning and drying my stuff out on the sun. And it had been a very hot weekend as well. Oh do u know 3/4 of my cupboard were affected? I have to bring out all my clothes out of the cupboard and dump in washing machine. And it affected most of parquet as well. Thank goodness I brought along most of my gadgets.

To look at the bright side, my mom always wanted me to do some spring cleaning of my room. And yeay, we're getting a laminated floor boards!

Ralph Lauren Silver

2009-04-19T00:10:00.005+08:00

I left the annual dinner pretty early yesterday, simply because:

It was super super super hot evening
Me legs were killin' me
I sorta promise to spend some time with my bf since it's his bday that day

Well.. not that early, we left at 10 instead of 11pm. haha

I wasn't in a mood much to go whereabouts since I was having a post-hotness headache. So we decided to just wander around KL (and also because the air-cond is just nice at that specific time) without getting down from the car which most of the time that we do is just talk.

He sensed my exhaustiveness (talk about the hot weather and tired of the event colabo) and I guess he got quite a common sense, he started to massage at the back of my head to ease my headache. It was not so bad anyway. After the pain ease a bit, I started to demonstrate him another point at the back of the head for muscle stiffness or headache massage (and it may sometimes bring an opposite sex limb at their knees.. haha) and he noted.

Then coincidentally I was touching my face after that, I could smell homme perfume from my fingertips. I think it got transfer when I was massaging his head along with his neck.

Me: (sniff sniff my fingers) your perfume smell nice... what are you wearing?
Him: Polo...
Me: (still sniffing) Really? Which one?
Him: Oh.. I cant remember what's the name but it's definitely my fave one.
Me: Owh.. ya know, I love one range of Ralph Lauren for man... the name is Ralph Lauren Silver and I'd been crazy about it ever since they launched that range 5 years ago. I even bought for my ex and my uncle's bday on that year. It smell quite masculine, pretty much like yours. And previously I would drop by at the perfume department once in a while just to give a sniff. But I dont do that anymore.
Him: Really? Well.. I cant remember mine. I dont usually bother with the name.. its like I go to perfume counter, I just take what I think smell nice. All I can remember that this perfume's bottle is some sort of black color, with a silver package.
Me: ???? the bottle is square or cylinder?
Him: Square...
Me: (still sniffing) omg, that's Ralph Lauren Silver la sayang oooi~!!!

That explains why I kept sniffing my finger ever since I notice that smell. Shish.

Seriously, I'd never met anyone I know who really likes Ralph Lauren Silver before.

And I can't help to notice that he got some similar habit and similar taste on choosing some stuff like mine. At least I know he got a good taste. =)

And he said...

2009-04-15T23:46:00.004+08:00

"i dont mind if u suka org lain and later on u want to be with org lain... i'm ok with that, but u must let me know awal-awal la.. u're young and I cant stop u from making ur own choices... but i just can hope it wont happen la.."

I only able to answer it with a nod. Somehow I felt the above quote is a bit powerful, too powerful for me to give a verbal reply.

The quote had been blurted out from my bf over dinner after I complaint about my best friend to him. Yes, you heard (or read) it right.. my bf. Its long time since I get involve in any relationship. I actually in doubt with this one too earlier, but I sorta give up due to I can sense his sincere-ness and I don't know, just fascinated since I never felt so been taken care of so seriously before. Its too 'so' till i said it twice.

I know my relationship with him didnt get much approval from couple of my buddies (due to extend certain factors) but I just want to let it flow. Further more, when I'm in need of my buddies far back then they barely available to feed my soul, but once there's a guy walk into my life who care for me and made me smile constantly each and every day... those buddies sorta start giving their p.o.v's. What the heck?

So, sayonara series of 'oops, sorry la dik.. akak dah kawin' excuses each time a guy wants to get to know me. Once upon a time, I don't need a boyfriend due to I have a bestie that can fill up my soul and somehow I felt he'd done a marvelous job till I dont have to find love from other guy (why I sorta feel this is like snippet from Cecilia Ahern's 'Where Rainbows End'?). And now, my bestie sorta neglected me, which I think it's ok for me (though other ppl don't find my justice over this scenario) because somehow I realize I need to move on without depending on my besties. And apparently that guy coincidentally came in perfect timing to fill in my current semi-empty soul. Which I feel pretty much grateful because he's there for me all the time (so far) and he accepts me as what I am (so far) regardless I'd showed him much flaws before.

Therefore, I decided to go with the flow.

P.s: He's not my rebound, thank you. And I love Cecilia Ahern's Where Rainbows End, its just...

It Takes Two To Tango

2009-04-06T23:24:00.004+08:00

Its been one week this quote ringing in my head, ever since my induction training at the academy last week.

And coincidentally, the above quote practically reflected in my thoughts on these recent scenarios:

It Takes Two To Tango : Friendship
I don't know if I changed over these years, but most of the people around me does. I don't mind change, changes could be good sometime. But I do care if some friends are gradually ignoring me, left me out in the picture, insignificantly. Deep voices in my head popped a question "Dey, don't u get this scenario all the time?". I do. But I did not testify. Let me say this clearly, in friendship... I cannot do this alone. You and I have to play equal part to maintain this relationship. If I sorang je yg play the part, nampak macam I sorang je yang terhegeh-hegeh nak berkawan. And I dont like that. Therefore, if you're my friend, start acting like one. If not, baik tak payah.

It Takes Two To Tango : Marriage
Went out for movie with my office colligue, Dev, had open my eyes on the above topic. Well, I never discuss much on marriage before, maybe I think marriage is a very heavy topic to discuss on... especially from a girl who so naive on this subject. Dev told me bout his history and his divorce thingy. One thing caught my attention when he start babbling on marriage "ye la, time bercinta dulu sayang-sayang la, masa tu kentut pon wangi. but once u get married, u start to feel the responsibility, even my wife masa tu pon change. At office she marah-marah, at home oso she marah-marah. Then marah if I buang sampah tak masuk tong sampah. I told him what kind of a man I am, masa bercinta dulu ok je, Ni bila da kawin, when I nak kluar je banyak soal". Hurm, I'm not defending his wife... but, it takes two to tango in marriage. Both parties have to give and take and do their parts equally la to maintain the quality of the marriage. Its like... I dont marry you just to be your bloody door mat! You get what I mean?

So thats about it. I kinda like Nabil Ahmad's tagline, i think its quite a genious and its like so... in your face!
Lu Pikir La Sendiri!

The Chronicle of Milah: Memey Suhaiza

2009-04-01T00:10:00.001+08:00

**Gotta credit Abe We for this as well.. LOL**

"asalmualaikum...kak memey...o kak memey...is there anybody home?". milah meninjau2 ke dalam rumah kak memey. ehh takdo orang? sonyap ajo? g honeymoon ko kak memey nih? maklumlah baru dpat laki baru. seketika, tatkala milah berkira2 untuk meninggalkan rumah itu dio tetibo terpandang objek bulat dan besar dari belakang.sedang duduk di bawah pokok jambu.hah..sah2 tu kak memey. tidak syak lagi. sapo laie kek kampung ni suku sakat dengan doraemon? milah segera mengatur langkahnya cepat2.

"kak memey! buek apo kek bawah pokok jambu ni? penat milah panggil tau,sampai serak suara milah yang lunak merdu nih" ujar milah gedik, sambil memanjakan suara serak2 basah ala fasha sanda. kak memey tak menjawab. wajahnya sugul. kelihatan badannya sedikit susut, kira-kira 0.03%. matanya bengkak. tiada segaris senyumanpun di wajah bulat dan montelnya itu. milah benar2 terkejut. baru minggu lepas, dia bertemu kak milah. dia sihat, ceria,sibuk bercerita tentang suami baru dinikahinya di sempadan narathiwat, thailand.

"kenapa ni kak?" tanya milah sambil kontrol ayu.segera duduk bersimpuh ala2 tiara jaqulina dalam puteri gunung ledang. "huhu..milah...jantan tu.. dah tinggalkan akak!" "apo?tak guno punyo jantan" tiba2 darah milah menggelegak, hampir mencecah 100 darjah celcius. pantang baginya kaum perempuan dianiaya. kalaulah dia ade power, masa tu jugak bertukar power rangers! "itulah akak, den dah agak dah dari dulu, jantan sekor ni memang tak leh cayo, muko jo kiut..." "entahlah milah, nasib akak agaknyo. inilah balasan dio kek akak. bagi makan, jago elok2...alih2 jumpo betino lain, lupokan akak! huhuhuhu.

"tu la akak, berhati halus sangat! baik terlobih2. jantan ni akak, tak leh bagi muko. maso dio nak sesuatu dari kito, dio buek baik! pastu..kito ni dipandang sebolah mato pun tidak!!" haiisshhh...milah mula menyinsing lengan baju. kalaulah dia tak dapat melindungi kaum teraniaya, sia2 saja dia menuntut ilmu karate dengan ber"belt" kaler hitam. "nak buek camano milah...hati dah sayang..uwaaa..akak redha ajelah" kau kunci...hatiku...di dalam hati muuuuu...(halamak akak ni feeling ramlah ram la plak!)

"hah inilah yang den tak suko. copek bonar mengalah! takmo pertahankan hak sendiri! akak sodih2 dio suko2 dengan betino lain! patut ko?? dah berapa hari akak camni?" "dah tigo ari milah. tigo hari akak melilau seluruh kampung cari jantan tu. tak lalu akak nak makan, sedih botul. sanggup dio buek akak camni? ekau tau milah, selalu akak makan 3 pinggan, sejak tigo ari lopeh, akak makan dua pinggan setongah yo..sob sob" aishhhh akak ni makan ko mentekedarah??

"camni lah akak, sebagai wanita abad ko dobloh satu, kito tak bulih lagi dibiarkan diri kito teraniaya.jom kito poie umah betino tu. biar den karate dio. sio2 yo den ado tali pinggang kaler hitam! ini milah! dio belum konal sapo milah!adik beradik ultraman neo" ujar milah begitu semangat, umpamo kempen untuk merebut jawatan ketua puteri kampung juaseh. "takpolah milah, terima kasih. biarlah ku pendam sebuah duka (feeling khadijah ibrahim la plak).walaupun daku elergi sepi...sob sob" ujar kak memey tersedu2.

"akak, sebagai wanita cantik lagi anggun, kito tak bulih ditindas! jom ikut den poie ko pejabat kadi! kito mintak fasakh! ingat abby abadi je bulih buat! dasar jantan kabret!" "err..milah kenapo sampai nak ajak akak tuntut2 cerai ni? poie pejabat kadi?" "kan abg norman hakim dah lari dengan pompuan lain?" "maso bilo lak?" tanya kak memey terkebil2, umpamo baru tertelan kapur barus. "abis akak cerito tadi?"

"lahhhh..akak cerito pasal kucing akak, namo jantan. dio dah merendek dengan kucing betino kampung sebelah!" "cesss! brengset sungguh kak memey!kenapo tak cakap awal2? buang air mato den yo menangis bagai nak gilo! desyus desyus desyus kat situ juga milah mengkarate kak memey sebelum melangkah pulang dengan hati yang penuh geram!

Realizing something

2009-03-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

Working for 2 months now, nothing had been so easy for me. Especially when my sciences background meets my current banking job. Its out of the world. But anyhow I'm trying my best to adapt with the new rhythm in my life.

I have to say, the supervisors might be quite 'kerek' at a time. Some are ok. Somehow I have to bare with the kerekness of these few numbers. Thats how working life works, I suppose.

And I realize, knowing someone who at a certain level of organization might affect other people's perception/reaction towards you. For example, one of the 'kerek' supervisor enquire me on my father's job. Well, I told her that he's working in HQ. At first she had a sceptic look at me, then i told her bout the incident that occured almost 3 years ago. She had a disbelieve in her face, and she asked what's my father's position in HQ... perhaps she thought my father is just a normal officer. My answer was short... but enough to make her choke.

And today, I realized she'd been so obvious nice to me. No more shouting, when ever I need an assistant on something she would guide me with TLC. Hahhaha... damn blardy office politics~!

=Trust me, I would never misused my family background.=

p.s: I wonder, the other 'kerek' supervisors... especially the one who had 'maki' me infront hundreds of people the other day... if they get the same info like the former 'kerek' supervisor, they'll be sorry for treating me like shit. =)

The Chronicle of Milah: Bungo Cinto Lestari

2009-03-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

courtessy of Abe We again.

milah berjalan penuh gaya catwalk persis tyra banks. panas mentari begitu terik. renik-renik peluh mula membasahi muka milah yang gebu itu. alamak, abisla foundation yang den lotak tadi! karang tak cun lak den?abih la tittle primadona kampung den! pikir milah sedikit gundah. "opocot omak kau! terkojut den!". berderau darah milah tiba2 bapak kambing separa hensem melintas di depannya. tersengih2 bapak kambing tersebut kepada milah. di satu sudut, milah terpandang seseorang sedang melayan blues. matanya merah. ada pilu di wajahnya.

"asalamualaikum" sapa milah lembut. "Oh, milah.." jawab suara itu lemah umpama 3 hari tak makan. " err..apo kak bungo cinto lestari buek kek sini? jauh bonar akak termonung? macam bermasalah jo?" sob sob sob, tangisan kak bunga makin kuat.beberapa ketika sendunya tertahan. diambil hujung baju kurung sambil mengesat air mata yang mengalir (ala2 neng yatimah menangis daa). "kenapo kak? boleh den tolong? akak sedih sobab Mc Cain kalah dengan Obama ko?" tanya milah ikhlas.

sambil tuturnya tertahan2 kak bunga berkata, "gilo apo ekau nih? tetibo cerito pasal obama lak! sob sob sob....abang ashraf sinclair ekau nak kawin lagi satuuuuu..uwaaaa" tangisannya makin menjadi2. milah jadi gelabah. uishhh meroyan pulak akak sorang nih. "sabar kak. botul ko berito sensasi ni? tak kuar melodi pun?". " betul milah, akak dongar kak stacy tembam cakap. dio jumpo abang ashraf ko kek pekan seromban, gi pejabat kadi" uwaaaaa

"aisshhh..akak percayo ko cakap kak stacy tembam tu. dio kan diva propah? lagipun abang ashraf tu kan dah tuo? takdo sapo nak laa akak!" "errr..." sedu kak bunga makin perlahan. "akak dah tanyo kek abang belum ni?" "errr..belom.." "hah, akak.. akak..sungguh emo!kalah kak saripah ani. lenkali keno selidik dulu.tambah2 kalo cerita dari mulut kak stacy tembam. kadang2 10 ayat 2-3 je betol"

kak bungo cinto lestari terdiam. tiada lagi sedu sedan seperti tadi, macam orang mati laki. mungkin kembali rasional (tak yah makan ubat penenang). "terima kasih la milah. maaf yo, tadi akak emo sikit. akak nampak je kool, tapi sebenarnya akak ni emo.kadang2 akak berpikiran singkat" "ehh, takdo masalah akak,lagipun ni maso akak. cumo lenkali akak kenala hati2 sikit. orang ni rambut yo samo hitam, hati lain2. akakpun keno la rasional sikit, kalo nak bandingkan abang ashraf tu..bapak kambing tadi lagi hensem!"

"amboi kutuk laki aku nampak?" "oppsss terlebih sudah!" ok la akak, den nak balik rumah dulu. anak daro cantik cam den tak elok kuar umah lamo2.kang pudar plak kulit den nih terkeno sinar UV. den jalan dulu yo..."

The Chronicle of Milah

2009-03-18T22:46:00.003+08:00

***Courtesy of Abe We~! GREAT thinking bro!!! LOL***

milah duduk bersimpuh dengan ayunya. dia tengah leka melipat kain2 yang bertimbun. sambil melipat, dia menyanyi kecil lagu2 melayu asli. telinganya disumbat dengan ipod apple berkaler merah cili api. tetiba ibunya menegur. "milah, boleh omak cakap sikit kek ekau?". dada milah berdebar2, dag dig dug..didalam dada...(feeling haiza jap). "boleh omak, apo dio?" tanyo milah. "tadi makcik munah datang..errr..." zass! makcik munah?? bakal mertuo aku?? kenapo lak orang tuo tu kemari. nak putuih tunang ko? aisshhh...milah makin gabra. "kenapo mak?" dia cuba mengawal perasaannya.

"hmm dio hantar masak lomak ikan sembilang. pastu gegossip jap. dio bagitau bakal tunang ekau teraso ati dengan kau" "hah?? kenapo lak nak teraso2 hati ni mak? ese takdo buek apo2 salah dongan dio. aisshhh" " alahh, omakpun nak tergolak jugo. tapi kena la respek kat bakal besan. karang guling2 kek situ apo lak dikato kek omak". aisshhh pehal lak ni? omak ni buat den gabra ni. bisik hati milah. aihhh pesal lak tunang den nak emo2 lak nih? aisshhh tak ponah laki sorang tu emo? ado perasaan ko? kato macho, hati batu? kato adik bradik superman?

milah terus berhenti melipat baju. begitu teruja ingin mengetahui apa sebenarnya berlaku. "omak, cakap la kenapo? ese ghisau ni" "rilek la my darling. bendo kocik, tapi ekau keno amik perhatian jugo. kang bondo2 kocik ni yang melarat ni." aiishhh omak jadi drama queen la pulak. ingat ni drama spa Q apo?

"camni hah, tunang ekau tu teraso hati, sobab ko tak kato terima kasih kek dio maso dio belikan cekelat coki2!" terang emaknya dengan penuh senyuman. "lahhhh..ingatkan apo tadi? lerr bukannya bosar bonar kesalahan ese ghuponya. tak kato terimo kasih yo" "iyo, memang la kocik, tapi apdo sesetengah orang bendo tu bosar. bukan susah bonar. dua perkataan yo. terima kasih, kot maleh bonar ko kata yo tq. keno la hargai usaho orang kek kito" "aisshhh tunang ese tu sensitip jugo ghuponyo? keras diluar lembut di dalam?"

"hehe, tu bukan masalahnya milah. yang penting keno appreciate orang" wahh sejak bilo mak den gheti speaking london nih? "bak kato pepatah, yang kurik itu kendi, yang merah itu saga, yang baik itu budi, yang indah itu bahasa. keno la pandai, dah bosar gedabak! orang berbudi kita berbahasa, orang memberi kita merasa" "iyolah mak, lopeh ni ese blaja untuk kato terimo kasih. bukan apo kadang2 ese ni pelupo." "baguslah camtu. kito ni orang timur, penuh dengan adat dan budayo. yang baik keno kekalkan. tambah2 ekau tu perempuan. dah lipat kain tu. omak nak poie masak spagetti bolognaise dengan tuna melt jap. ekau dah bosar...apo2pun..lu pikir la sendiri!"

So long... piano~!

2009-03-15T00:14:00.011+08:00

So... that's the end of it.
My piano had gone with the lorry for disposal.
Mixed feelings collide inside.
A little of sad.
A little of grieve.
A little of disbelieve.
... And a little of relieve.

This is a tribute to my old piano(s).

It was not long ago i bought that piano with a major from my savings. Back in 2003 I've decided to upgrade my Yamaha Studio Upright (that i owned more than 8 years) to Suzuki Digital, just simply because I was so into music composition. Been exposed to piano since I was 10, it had been a part of my life - regardless when I'm happy, when I fall, when I'm angry, falling in love, out of love, feeling bored or content, etc. It's me and my music. I never felt so attached with any other musical instruments other than piano.

My Yamaha Upright was the initial of my every obsession on classical music. From there (and Ms.Cathy - my former piano instructor) I dived into the universe of beautiful classical (like Chopin, Vivaldi, Tchaikovsky, Beethoven, Strauss, Mozart, Brahm, etc) to Disney (the common Whole New World, Beauty and The Beast) to oldies (The Beetles, Love Story, Micheal Learns To Rock, etc) to Pop (Le Ann Rhimes, Savage Garden, Britney Spears), to Malay Pop (Siti, Nora, etc) and lastly to modern classical of Richard Clayderman. To me, among all... nothing outbid classical and for that I enjoyed the most!

Getting Suzuki Digital wasnt much of my first choice. Well, I prefer Yamaha but I changed my mind due it was known for being so freaking expensive. With that amount of money (at the age of 17), I can only afford Suzuki to meet my wonderness. I explored more sound, more creativity... but seriously, the feelings aint the same as playing Upright - just because Upright provide more firm surface. Gotta love for what I paid though.

26th Feb 2006 - Shah Alam had the worst flash flood in history ever! The Suzuki Digital has yet to be 3 years old, but sad to say it had drowned during the mayhem. Few months after the flood I tried to get it fix (even referred to some friends who actually piano expertise) but none say it good.

If I want to get it fix, I need to replace the whole motherboard.
Since it drowned, there are possibility for the piano to collapse in process to move it whereabout.

Damn! Which left me with an end. People have no idea how hard for me to live every day back then. Have you ever felt something part of you been taken out from your life and thus your life became disfuntional in certain ways? That's how I felt. I could feel the pain every time I walked down the stairs and stared at the dead piano in front of me. Even when I was emotionally distraught I had a difficulties to expressed my anxiety to diff channel, thus I started to bang and throw things around, or perhaps break anything I could get in hand. Do you know how hard that was?

Day by day, we moved things around the house. The piano just sit still under the staircase to be an ornament for my mother's pots of flower arrangements. It will soon be forgotten, but its like a burden for me to see every day. What good it posses if it could only sit still being dead while I cannot enjoy playing it anymore? It took me 3 years to make the decision to let it go, and ask a person to dispose the thing (though the person is just a dial away). I learned to let it go.

My mom reminded me something recently, as per quote:

"Mama happy tengok masa Lydia main piano dulu. Even though orang suruh practise 1 jam je, you will practise at least 3 hours a day tanpa disuruh. And masa tu mama tau you happy sangat main piano. Mama pun happy. I think I want to get you a new piano."

P.s: I don't understand how people could once reacted to my piano misery "why don't u get yourself a keyboard then, at least there's something...". Waddaheck?! Trust me, if I buy a keyboard, it will turned me to be some what retard and I will end up slamming the keyboard to wall or crash it into million pieces with a bulldozer! The problem isn't the keyboard, its just me. If I really wanna get a fucking keyboard, I must have gotten it long time ago la!

It's ok, Ab!

2009-03-10T20:50:00.014+08:00

Initially wanted to make a surprise visit for Ab at his work place last Saturday (after dinner with Zul). Coincidentally I viewed Ab's profile a day before the surprise visit plan, and in the other way round, I'm the one who surprised because Ab is (or perhaps 'was') in top 20 of Akademi Fantasia 7! Fuiyoo, he did it again!

Then on the Saturday I missed Tirai AF7 (I), after came back from dinner I eagerly catch it in youtube.

On Sunday, wah... awal-awal da tunggu depan TV tuh! Excited to see this Mr. Abraham Edwin Dungot in Tirai Akademi Fantasia 7 (II).

And Acis said..."Ab, you did a very very good job. However I am very sad to say... that your journey ends here..."

I was like... waddaheck????!!!!

That's the only thing I can say. Shocking.

First second, Acis were giving him an appraisal, another second he said Ab didnt get thru'. What did just happen there? Am I missing something in between those seconds?

Even my father were sighed "kesian Ab, teringin betul dia nak masuk AF kali ni. tak dapat pulak"

Well, all I can say AF7 really sticks to their "TRANSFORMASI" concept. Though they are dying to have Ab in the academy (can see Pn. Siti Hajar broke down upon Ab's elimination), but you see... by looking back at Ab's music background, I guess the show feels it is much fair giving a way to someone who is much in need of the loophole rather than him. He's already a top 4 in OIAM2, musically trained before and been singing for a quite numerous of year. The only lack on him, he doesn't have an album. Oh wait, I'm not so sure whether he got an album on his Kadazan songs previously or not, but commercially, after his breakthrough in reality tv shows... he got no album. Plus, he ain't need the transformation much. He already have the star quality, its just that he need to be polish a little bit here and there. Unlike the rest of the peeps in AF7 who is still consider as a raw material which will be transformed into a finish product sooner or later.

In other way, I personally think Ab needs a loophole/platform to produce an album and get his name on the chart. And AF7 ain't the loophole he's looking for.

Nevermind, kita cari lagi. I believe it is somewhere, if you tak give up (in God's will) you will find your loophole someday. =)

p.s:
1. Wait a minute. That Adila seems so somewhat familiar....!!!
2. According to Tirai AF7, I don't understand why the peeps like to play with other people's head/hair. Err.. not nice at all.
3. Pakcik, lets go for sushi and pizza later!

Gastro-Hunters Weekend ( + Public Holiday)

2009-03-09T02:02:00.020+08:00

This weekend had been officially labeled as the weekend where I ate the most this year (perhaps my whole life). As far as I concern, I never felt even a tiny-tini-hunger this weekend. At some point, I was too bloated.. I felt wanna puke!

Saturday (07/03/09)
I woke up that morning like some what zombie due to the cloudy day and my mom forced me to wake up because my sister got tuition this morning. Thus, we all have to go for kinda early breakky. Chose to eat nasi lemak at Ali's Corner nearby my house, among the nicest nasi lemak I ever had so far. Awesome!

I spared my tummy during lunch by eating mixed vege (my father's set meal side dishes) and a small bowl of soup. The tummy is meant to be spared for the dinner later that day.

Ah yes, the dinner that I'd been waiting for! Since this year I felt so lazy to get Zul, my former uni-classmate, a bday present (I usually have difficulties getting guys a bday present. If he's a girl, i might get her a very cute hair clips instead!) I've decided to treat him for a meal. And he'd been given choices of Teppanyaki or Japanese Buffet, since he kinda likes japanese food. Thus he chose japanese buffet. Around 8.30pm we met at Saisaki Japanese Restaurant is Wisma UOA, KL.

We only can get in about half an hour later because due to the full house. Weekend, what do you expect?

I had couple of sashimi and seafood carbonara in my first plate. Not the best combination but it surely scrumtious! Then I had teppanyaki but totaly forgot to photolog. =.="

The Chawanmushi is oh so yummay~!

Also I had a few more other rounds but it happened to be we were too busy stuffed ourselves, I forgot to photolog again.

Zul heading on sashimi, temaki and udon.

I love Green Tea Ice-Cream! Choc Swirl is nice too~

We left our table at 10.30pm looking like this.

I had too much that night, we went back with a combo of tummy discomfort and a little nausea. We ate like crazy! Hahah.

Ohya, and Zul gave me lollies as a token of appreciation. Aww... thanx bro!

Sunday (08/03/09)

I woke up in a zombie state again today. Mainly because twas still tired upon the day before. And yes, my mom forced me to wake up again since its almost 9am. Therefore I headed to shower and 15mins after that the family headed to Bangsar for breakfast. My father was in crave for banana-leaf chapatti at Nirwana Maju. Going with the flow, I just tagged around. And yet again, it was full house! But fret no more, the guy over there managed to open more tables.

We had vadai before our meals got served. Omg, it was freaking crunchy!

And I had Rawa Thosai this morning. It's been awhile since I last tasted a good Rawa Thosai. Two thumbs up!

My vain sister with her very vain roti telur.

A refreshing mango lassi in the morning... uuuh~!

After breakky we went back to Shah Alam, and I was out again to buy the groceries. I kinda rushed myself as I'm gonna meet May (my bestie) for lunch. Here I go again to Bangsar. Decided to fetch her (since I'm gonna past by her housing area) and headed to Bangsar Village at 2pm.

Uuuh.. sexay Ferrari~!

I never been to Bangsar Village before. And I been long time wanna tried Delicious since I heard many good response from my peers (and my mom!). So, we decided to checked out Delicious for lunch.

Luckily we got one final table that very minute. If we're late by few minutes we might need to wait for the next table to get lost. =p Oooh..! Felt like trying everything but the tummy and the cash aint that big to cater everything. Thus me and May decided to make today a sinful one.

Death by Iced Chocolate. Oh wow... sinful pleasure version 1.0!

Smoked Salmon Quiche, so addictive~!

Carbonara Spaghettini with Wild Mushroom, Beef Bacon, Oregano and Cream... yumma! Sinful pleasure version 2.0!

We stop before ordering the dessert. Yeah, it was a pretty heavy lunch I must say. So we decided to get our bumps out off the place and just sight-seeing Bangsar Village before heading for dessert. And.. thank you May-o for the fabulous lunch! (next outing is gonna be on my treat)

Spotted this very cute nail spa. Owned by Soong Ai Ling. =)

Sewel-ness after heavy lunch.

After spent 1.5 hours of window shopping, we extend our sinful pleasure at Starbucks plus more chit-chatty!

Choc eclair.. sinful pleasure version 3.0.

Banana choc chip muffin..! Sinful pleasure version 4.0!

May-o reluctant to have the last eclair as she's too full.

Can't imagine we actually wanted to form a rock band ala LP girl version back in highschool

Heading home

We get retarded after over dose on Chocs today.

I came home at 7pm with a very full tummy. Chilled at home for like half an hour and went out again since decided to accompany my parents for dinner. I only had mineral water with few sips of Mi Bandung Muar's gravy. I cant eat no more!

Daddy too focus on his dinner, and the Mi Bandung is actually his.

As a conclusion, I ate too much this weekend which leads to much hunger for next one week. And... delicious is officially in my list of my fave place. =)

Monday (09/03/09)
I thought my gastrointestinal journey will end there. But I was wrong, this morning my mom asked me to get some stuff at IKEA. Hurm.. IKEA... having lunch at IKEA is consider mandatory! And yeah, my sister 'ketuk' me 'cukup-cukup' today!

We had Beef Balls, BBQ Chic Wings, Gravad Lax (smoked salmon) and some buttercake sugar glaze dessert.

nom-nom Gravad Lax~!

I'm so gonna have only baked fish tonight for dinner. That's it! My gastro journey ends here this week.

I learn to let it go

2009-03-05T00:12:00.011+08:00

Attempted to come out with a political post last week but decided to call it off because i was lack of vocabs to filled in, pretty much because I had mixed feelings through out the whole week.. thus my mind was as solitary as my soul. My intention of publishing my own comments or p.o.v on the political scene here in Malaysia had been warned by my father - one wrong step/phrase, i might be arrested by I.S.A. I reckon it is not worth it, might as well I sit quietly watching the political epic and laugh out loud like no one cares. Seriously, it is so epic... it look more like a huge joke now.

Leaving the epic behind, I get hold to my life which it seems not much exciting these days. Yea, I had fun most of the time, but it ain't excites me much. The fun seems to feel so... blunt. Where the spark gone?

I found out many some sort of superhuman comic movies are conquering the cinema these days. I'm not much of a movie junkie, as per known by many people. But... damn, I really need to find some time to go to the cinema as I eagerly wanna do marathon on these 3 movies:

And since I am so used to it, I dont mind watching them alone. I think its a perfect idea for me to get intact with my own childhood memories. (love it!)

I also get intact with my fellow ex-sktp-ians these days, in facebook that is. I found (or they found me, actually) 15 of the 3 Intan '95 alumni and we're all excited for the reunion in the making. It's been 14 years... perhaps if we can get more people and get in touch with Pn.Adeda, the reunion is so gonna ON!

Oops! I did it again! Due to my over curiosity i found out... that 'dude' is married! So much for 'fly me to the moon' momentos. Hahhaha. Its a good thing I guess. If its not because of my curiosity, I might still drooling on a married man! (once upon a time i quoted 'Curiosity Kills' and now i wonder 'am I gonna die in my own curiosity someday?') Next!

Here I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate Maciej Pilarczyk, my really really really long time mate (yea, we sorta know each other since.. what? i was 14?), who had just got engaged recently. Sad that I only knew this from Adam (the brother), and not from the yours truely himself. Perhaps he got his own reason to keep it low. Anyhow, massive congrats to Mak n his fiancee! Cheers!

No... he DID NOT got engaged to Lucia, the cat!

Just a quick one on the music act. I have to admit that I recently slowing myself from the music scene due to my commitments with the work and the family (plus catching up with my own personal life). But it ain't a valid reason not to support my fellow friends.

Congratz to Imran Ajmain for the release of his 2nd single - Jika Engkau Pergi, which also the theme song of new Samarinda's slot 'Yusuff'. The song is superb, I still cannot get the orchestra off my head. Thus, kudos to u - Imran, and Sulu Sarawak. 5 thumbs up!

Also best of luck to Pop Shuvit for their new single Oh! Sizuka which will release on 11th March 2009. Oh my... I miss u guys to the bits! Now u guys got all brand new streetteam proteges to replace me but anyhow I will drop by at the scene once in a while. I hope this new single will rock, like you guys always do. Gambatte!!!

P.S:

1. If I'm rich enough, i might get Imran Ajmain and Afgan theirselves to serenades me every night till I soundly asleep. But since much of crazy dreams like this is so crazy, till God might also think He'll be crazy if approve such crazy wishes like this... this is why human invented radio, CDs and ipod. And also handphones equiped with media player!

2. Still waiting for the relaunching of 21:05 Productions. =p

I will go extra miles...

2009-02-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

... for you.

And none will do the same to me.

How convenient?

Nom nom d chop chop!

2009-02-23T00:46:00.004+08:00

Yea, i missed dinner with opah and rushed back to shah alam because i told her mama wil be making chicken chop tonight, and perhaps spare other round with opah next time. But, not really.. mama didnt made the chicken chop, I did (end up) using my own recipe. Mama made the coleslaw. But it was all hmm.. hmm.. good. My father gave 3 Perry (the Platypus) as a compliment for tonight's dinner.

It's been a content day. I'm happy and hope opah happy receiving a cut from my first pay (from her very first grand-daughter). But urm, I dont know why I felt some sort guilty of not having dinner with the old lady. =.="

Shitness!

2009-02-20T00:09:00.007+08:00

Well, I was just filling my time to stroll in lelong.com.my since there's nothing really nice on tv tonight. Just browsing thru, and I came across to this oh so freaking guitar. It just wowed me since the moment I clicked to enlarge. Its a SGEM 10 Ibanez Alike Guitar and below are the list of it's features:-

Joint: Bolt-on
Body: Basswood
Neck: Maple
Fingerboard: Rosewood
Tuning Machines: GOLD Die-cast
Scale Length: 25.5"
Fret: 24
Control: 1V, 1T, 5-Way Selector
Pickups: H-S-H
Hardware: GOLD
Bridge: Double Locking Tremolo
Pickguard: 3-Ply White Perloid pickguard

And I thought, damn this is so freaking cool! It wowed me the instant I clicked the picture for enlarge. Gaga! If only I know to play the guitar (or paid more attention when my bro tried to teach me guitar many years back) I would have bid on this thing and make sure the guitar is mine, all mine. Plus, for the mean time the price is at RM203, what a bargain aye? But again, I dont know to play the guitar, therefore its pointless for me to own it. Might as well I make an EzyPay for a new piano.

But yeah... it is sooooo prettyyyyyyyyyyy~!

P.s: i'm not so sure on the genuicity this series, tried to googled up more on Ibanez guitars but I found none bout this series.

R.I.P Version 1.0

2009-02-13T23:49:00.008+08:00

It was a rather calm Friday morning, I was surprised I managed to sleep within 10 mins yesterday (quite overdose on Kopiko at work way before that) and I woke up the morning without hesitation unlike I always had been since the last 2 weeks. Prepared for work, I realized I owned an extra 10 mins that morning. Figured out, no point coming too early for work today.. so I decided to spend my extra 10 mins to flick on my emails and my extended comunity accounts.

I received a message from Ikhmal (Kem Remaja) in Friendster which turned my initial bless to horror.

salamz... hye lydia... sampai berjumpa lagie erk.. still remember me... ikhmal from key l... lydia tahue tak nur a'asikin dah meninggal?

I replied and turned off the computer, thus sped to office.

This morning I found out my Kem Remaja bestie had past away, only she died about 4 months ago!

The thing had been ringing in my ear like a broken record since I turned off the computer and it stretched out when i was on my wheels and yet even at work. I felt the deep anxiousness and an unutterable gloom behind me.

During lunch I chose to sit alone in the cafe facing the next golf course greens as I decided to put Iza on the line to get more spill. I just wanna know the cause of death and glad I was at a sitting position at that very moment.

Time past by, I decided to online early this night... just to produce this blog while waiting Ikhmal's reply anticipatingly. He gave me a direct link to the news feeder to answer my inquiries and a below message.

u can know all da story from dat page...

banyak yang ekinz cite pasal lydia...

cuma terkilan tak dapat tunaikan permintaan arwah...

actually meninggal thn lepas bulan 10...

i pun tak tahue.... i dapat tahue pun bulan 12.. coz i tetiba mimpikan dia...
pagie 2 i call hp tak berblas... i call umah mak dia bagitahue dia dah meninggal... bagai nak pitam i dengar... coz mal sangat sayangkan dia...

The bolded phrase finally brought me into tears (which has restrained since morning). Some small things people do can really make an impact to a certain human beings.

Knew her when we were in 16 thru a camping program, Kem Remaja Ke-11, where 100 of us practically spent much of our time in half-forest for 10 days back in 2002. We clicked the moment we reached there. She's a bubbly person, thats the first thing I have in mind up till today. And she has the most genuine smile among all. I still remember how she got a crush on one guy in my team while I had a crush on another guy in my team as well and we used code name 'Abe aku' appointed each other crushes. It was freaking hilarious. And she's very funny indeed yet so benevolent and lovable thru out the whole friendship. Even when we were out of camping we talked to each other occasionally. Only when we reunited in Unisel, we became a slight distance as both of us took different courses in different campuses. But we still flick each other Friendsters once in a while.

Kin...
Kenapa ko pegi tak bagitau aku?
Kenapa ko pegi cepat sangat?
Dah lama baru aku dapat tau ko da takde...
Aku baru je plan nak buat alumni gathering for bebudak kem..
Supaya kita smua bley reunited n lepak cam dulu2...
Supaya kita bley catch up with each other's lifes...
As the matter of fact, aku da berjaya kumpulkan sebahagian darinye...
Aku rindu sgt kat ko, Kin...

I have to admit, knowing Ekin is no longer around does slammed a little bit of impact towards me today. She will remain be love by her love ones till the end of time. May God always bless her soul and place her among those faith ones. al-fatihah

Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical III

2009-02-10T02:54:00.003+08:00

ah yes, i still kenot get over this. though it'd been a week.

argh depress nye aku!!!! tiket habis jua, tak dapat nak tengok PGL this time! why??? whyyyy????????

isk isk.

p.s: this is among stage play that i really, really, wanna watch. i didnt buy the tix because someone promised me a pair of it. and ennnnnd uuuup, due to sooooo many response by the VIPs, the person has to let go my tix to others. bummer. kalo tau, awal2 da aku booking ticket ini. haih.

Stranger By The Day

2009-02-03T09:23:00.004+08:00

I was doing my normal regime at the gym last week and suddenly this song were aired from the gym stereo. Heard it for the first time, I have to say I kinda like this song. Then when I came home, forgotten whats their chorus like, thus failed to search the tittle of the song. 2 days later visited the gym, hoping it will play this song again. And they did! Managed to memorize the chorus (duh.. its just "stranger by the day, it keeps getting stranger by the day, stranger by the day..."!) and figured its from Shades Apart. The funny thing is, I never thought this song was so popular before! Yet all around the world are trying to do cover for this song. Now i know why I haven't heard this song, this is from American Pie soundtrack in 1999. At that age, I was way too young to get involve in such movie. =)

I tried to search the original video clip or perhaps that feature Shades Apart themself in youtube, but I got none. I guess it got rejected from the content owner in there. Wow, so strick indeed. For the time being, this is the best cover I've seen in youtube so far, kudos to this guy. But of course, Shades Apart's version is more rocking fabulous!

Merry Lunar New Year 2009

2009-01-29T00:52:00.014+08:00

"Listen to me, you will be my next Padawan, little child!" says Obi Wan Kenobi

Chinese New Year had past for 2 days and I'm still in the mood for it. Perhaps I'm overly joyed from the CNY Lunch at my grandmom's place 2 days ago. Initially the plan was just between my family + my grandmom to have steamboat, but at last minute... almost all the extended family tipped in!.. except my Aunt-Gee and her family in Kelantan, hey.. cannot force them to drive 8 hours straight from Kelantan to Klang, thats just plain cruel.

We had a food feast that day. Steamboat, teppanyaki (I dont know what teppanyaki has to do with the Chinese theme), puddings, dim sum, egg noodle, peanuts, sunflower seeds, pineapple fried rice, chinese tea, fortune cookies and tons of oranges! We asked Aunt-Norly to bring the egg rolls, she end up brought CNY Cheezy Bitez Pizza which is alright for all of us.

And of course, besides the food, the main attraction was the one month old Omar. He spent much of his time sleeping that day, when he's not sleeping.. he'll scream. At a month old, he cant do much adorable stuff. But we all cant help to noticed how chubs he is and thats made him just to be plain cute! And I'm glad he uses the Winnie The Pooh bolster that I gave. =)

He sleeps

He sleeps again...

He sleeps again and again...!

... he looks like my late grandfather!

Later that evening the cousins spent time chit-chatting and catching up. I have to admit, oh wow.. how fast my younger cousins have grown, physically and mentally. As the eldest cousin, I often thought my cousins are bunch of kids, but that day... I was amused of the vocabs that they chose in their coversation, I was amused but wasnt impressed. Hey, we managed to snap crazy pictures later that evening! But the crazy pictures didnt work so well because everybody was too stuffed out from the lunch.

Impersonating Mary Poppin?

Oh yea, my grandmom gave us all girls an identical braceletes + earings instead of angpau! I guess she gave those to reminds us that we are actually RELATED. haha. Sometimes I do forgot about it.

Power bracelets, brought to you by BB Beadz.

But all I can say is, my grandmom was the happiest person that day. It showed. Perhaps all these while the family failed to get along much even during the Eid. Sad. Each of the extended families does contribute to the slacks of picture perfect family and I honestly confest I do contribute a minor amount of it. But mainly because I hate to see my grandmom get hurt, and I know... nobody loves my grandmom as much as I do. When she's happy, I'll be 10 times happier! Therefore, that day my grandmom was at the top notch of her happiness!

I hope the happy momentos will not just end there. I opt for more family gatherings in future and hopes all the extended families will be in. Yam-sing! (a toast or cheers in Mandarin)

p.s: My fortune cookies says....

.... care to gimmie prezzies, anyone?

Defending Frank

2009-01-16T00:49:00.011+08:00

I was listening to lite.fm in the car the other day and suddenly i was turned on to a song What Now, My Love? by Frank Sinatra and Aretha Franklin. Really captivated by that song, sung by 2 larger than live legends and I thought its just simply bea-u-ti-ful! Though the song aint about pleasant feelings much, but i dont know.. the swing just play its magic in that song. It feels soooo good. Come on, just click the youtube, will ya!

Came back from which ever place i went, twas still in the mood for the song.Thus, I changed my facebook's status to the tittle of the song and I played the youtube all night long (love love love!). The next day I received a comment from someone i know for couple of years ago. His name is Khalid (bukan nama sebenar) questioning upon my status. I explained to him its a song from Frank Sinatra and Aretha Franklin. Then later that day he replied...

"owh... the guy with a fake butt!"

I was like.. what his fucking problem, man??? So pissed, i replied "whateva" to his page.

After 24 hours considering and still incensed by his comment, I decided to remove Khalid from my friend list. That's it.

As a musician, I have a high sense of respect to other fellow musicians, regardless if they are big names or just a minor in the industry. U will never hear "I HATE that song!" came out from my mouth, its just so absurd. Regardless what ever they do, like Micheal Jackson with his plastic surgeries, like Britney Spears became sucha rebel mom of 2 boys, like Marilyn Manson for being... simply odd?, i will never questioned and judged them from there. Thats just who they are. And to tell you the truth, I barely keep track now days with who sings what on the radio.. because I only judge them from the music they aired. If the song didnt up to my standard, the song is ain't for me then. No hate happening here, because I believe each song, each what ever piece have its own effort of lifes behind it. So, we gotta respect the music for that.

As for Frank Sinatra, I grew up listening to his jazz-swing music... like Fly Me To The Moon (love love love!), Cant Take My Eyes Off You and My Way (haha, my father's fave by far). Therefore I hv a certain respect towards him. I dont mind other people doesnt hv the same respect or point of view towards him like I do, but I do mind when people dissing upon something what I like/love. Next time, if you know something that I like but u dislike em'.. please, for heaven sake, keep them to yourself.

Fly Me To The Moon, shall we?

And as a humble human being, I'm trying my best to respect every fellow human beings around. But in the same time I do expect that fellow human beings to at least have a sense of respect towards me too. If he/she failed to give me the amount of respect I demand, then I dont think he/she desserve the respect I've given.

p.s: i hv other reasons to removed Khalid from my list:

he's useless, brings no good to me at all.
he always make me feel bad upon his comments.
he's a blardy sex maniac. go die u frigging pervert.
he has no sense of respect, and i think especially to women.
dissing Frank Sinatra is like an icing on the cake of my fury. what's ur damn prob with Frank anyway???

Presenting Baby Om

2009-01-06T09:57:00.006+08:00

Last sunday was the Majlis Cukur Jambul for my 2 weeks old cousin, Baby Om. Borned on 19th December 2008 at 10.30pm with the weight 3.70kg, he's the first born of proud parents Angkoi (it suppose to be Uncle, but i was pelat back then. Therefore, everybody call him Angkoi) and Auntie-M. Just to fresh some memories, I was the wedding planner/videographer for their wedding back in December 2007.

Me, Marissa, Opah and Baby Om

Given name Muhammad Omar Kamily b. Amiruddin, he's the continoual of The Ahmad Kamily legacy (my late grandfather) since his father (angkoi) is the only son in the sibling. But not long after that, the name has been change to Ahmad Omar b. Amiruddin due to the long name issue. To be frank, I prefer the first name better or Omar Kamily instead. But any how, he's still my one and only Baby Om!

Baby Om about to screaaaam

I arrived late at the majlis cukur jambul (my Angkoi's father-in-law's crib), therefore I missed the whole thing. That's the first time I met Baby Om, because I was in Kelantan when he borned. He's very baik, tido je... even tho' he basically di-pass-pass to countless of arms that day. But as soon the mother put him on the mattress, woah... he's such a screamo! Baby Om ni ikut siapa? Well.. judging from testimonies I received, he drinks alot (milk) and sleep alot.. i gotta say.. angkoi. -.-"

Baby Om with his Mother and cousin Marissa

Baby Om with his cousin, Lydia =)

p.s:

Well, at first everybody called him Omar. But since I called him Baby Om, everybody seems to call him Baby Om instead. Hahah
Produced this blog 2 days after the weekend. I got sick ever since I came back from the majlis up till today.

Renegade my feature wall?

2009-01-04T02:23:00.010+08:00

I was wondering... since I wanna do a slight change in my room... what should I put to replace this Maksim bunting on my feature wall?

My room is small but cosy. People said if siapa tido dalam my room, sure susah nak bangun. Hahaha. This bunting had been up since 2004, therefore I'd been staring this bunting for 5 years now, every single day. Got it during Maksim's huge concert on April 2004 and on that time I was still on piano craze and way before my piano became a titanic in the flash flood. (ah, tragic.. still, I've failed to get over it). Yea, I must admit.. though its been 5 years, I still enjoy ogling this banner. Since I'm in the spirit of room makeover, I feel like replacing this bunting and keep it in my safe for good. But I still clueless what to replace with. Is it another bunting (I only keep Star Wars and Maksim's, the rest I've discarded)? Mirror perhaps? I dont know, but once I got something that is way better than this, then I will bring down this bunting. So, for the mean time I still can lay my eagle eyes on Maksim. =)

Just now, before I came up with this blog... I was freaking out due to the lost of my camera. Well, the camera ain't that so much of a great... its my Canon Ixus 860 IS. This camera is like among my biggest possesion (after my piano incident, besides my car) and I usually bring it where ever I go (except when I do my groceries or pasar). More or less, my soul mate la. I even keep it near my bed along with my phone and the air-cond remote. Just now I wanted to recharge the battery before the majlis cukur jambul of my new born cousin tomorrow and I was so flip out because I couldnt find that damn camera. Recently my mom asked me to clean my room, so I was up for the spring cleaning and clearing and rearranging stuffs. I remember I put the camera in a paper bag so it wont stray anywhere. I've searched high and low and practically became insane for one hour (I even bugged Farid who is currently in Surabaya at the moment, because I went histerically nuts), until I found it under my note book on my table. =.=" How great God is, He could really test ones faith by mengkaburkan something yg actually is infront of our vary eyes. In the other hand, I need to learn how to chill.

This morning I was pretty amazed by the front cover story of The Star regarding whale shark caught by fishermen in Penang. Then I couldnt stop cursing (blame my bad morning - I wasnt in a good mood and the weather was bad either) as I continue reading it. My doubt was, why did the fishermen pull that 2 tonne whale shark to the beach? Kesian dia, let say that fish get caught in the net... why they cannot just let it go instead of dragging this fish all the way to the shore? If the fish is readily injured and nyawa-nyawa ikan I think ok jugak la to pull it off and show off. But if its healthy, please.. just let it free la. Kesian dia. Though this Rhincodon typus does not pose any harm to human (as they are known for their gentle and playfulness) but this species is consider vulnarable by IUCN. Credit to the fishermen because they informed the state Department of Fisheries but I just wonder what would they do with that fish? I've been to Penang's Department of Fisheries before, I just hope they will not end up put it in one of their aquarium!... or die in this mere time. Either way I'm gonna get pretty angry.

p.s: this is something I did not inherit from my late grandfather. My late grandfather was a pretty hardcore hunter while I end up to be a so-called wild nature activist and a proud member of World Wide Fund for Nature (WWF) Malaysia since 2004. I'm just one step away from being a vegan! Seriously.

Punca & Persembahan: Imran Ajmain and Friends

2008-12-30T01:51:00.012+08:00

Its been awhile since I write any reviews on concerts, movies or breaking through tracks. Blame my over rated life, hence I'd been quite lazy to do any reviews or even to write a blog.

On 21st of December, my plane (from Kota Bharu, Kelantan) landed in KLIA approximately around 11am and I reached Shah Alam at noon. Dropped my luggage, get ready for the showcase and out again at 1.30pm. Managed to go for wash and blow (yea, i have to say my hair wasnt in its best of shape that time), drove myself to Batu Tiga station and ditched my car there to take the Komuter (to avoid traffic and unsufficient amount of parking space). Still tired, yeah i didnt exactly get much rest when I was in Kelantan, I marched myself to The Annexe, Central Market. Arrived there pretty on time, hence I've got a seat at the back. Oh yea, supposely Wan tagged along, but her ride got delayed that day and failed to reach KL on time. Therefore, I flew solo that day.

Took place at The Annexe, Central Market; Imran Ajmain started the show with a song called Dia. It was an old track from Harvey Malaiholo. The song was simply beau-ti-ful! Well, being a totaly self-absorb and perasan, I was drooling the whole 5 minutes (or 4 minutes and 40 seconds to be exact) of that song and wishing it was dedicated to me (Lydia = LyDia = Dia, ya know what I mean). Haha, which so NOT! Next, Imran continues serenading us with Malu and Aku Bukan Untukmu (cover version of Rossa's).

Infinatez conquer the stage after that, belt out their souls on Ada Masa and Acapella Medleys: L.O.V.E and Cant Take My Eyes Off You. I was very amazed by their vocal harmonization, oh well.. I'd always adore their talent even when they were in Gangstars 2007. After the medleys, Imran joined Infinatez to perform What If (Babyface's), Digenggam Surga (Numata's), Dengan Senyummu (Radio's) and Why You Follow Me (Eric Benet's). Something that I noticed about Imran that day, well... known him since March 08, he'd always been friendly and yet can be pretty sturdy at a time. But on that day I found another side of him which I never saw that coming, he has a very cheeky persona! He's just simply adorable and witty doing his thing on stage which I cant help it to rose a smile for the entire 2 hours show. =)

Atilia entertained the crowd with her soulful voice on Selalu Denganmu and duet with Imran on Imran's ever famous piece, Seribu Tahun. The crowd went insane drowned with that song. haha. The duo didnt stop there, they continue to serenade the crowd with Georgy Porgy (Eric Benet/Faith Evans') and Butterflies (Floetry/Michael Jackson). I was stunned when Imran sang Dia (Sheila Majid's this time) because I always love that song, and its been pretty awhile tak dengar lagu tu. Love it! And next, Imran perfomed a piece from Bunga Citra Lestari's Pernah Muda.

Imran brought in a surprise guest, Shazzy on the stage. Oh wow, I haven't seen this guy for ages! The first time I saw him was many years ago when he'd just launch his hip hop album and after that he kapush from the scene. Great to see him back and haha, I always knew he's super good in playing the saxophone. Once again, the crowd gone crazy as Shazzy played his sexy saxophone tunes on Mahakarya Cinta (Faizal Tahir's). Oh, I was hypnotized by the tune~! And finally, Shazzy accompanied Imran on Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang, Imran's latest single.

Oh wait, it did not stop there! Since Harvey Malaiholo's Dia been linger in Imran's head on that day, he sang it once again as encore. Haih, and now that song is stuck in my head! But I dont mind, I like that song.

As a conclusion, the showcase had been very successful and way beyond than what I expected. Two thumbs up for the team! =)

I reached home at 8pm (did some shopping for Adam Pilarczyk's birthday present) and helped my mom prepare the dinner. I didnt have much appetite that night because I was so exhausted. After cleared the table, I tertido kat living room and when my mom switched on the fan I woke up with a scream 'sejuuuuuuuuuuk!!!!'. Hence, I demam.. at least for the next 3 days followed with lack of appetite and diarrhea. Sigh.

p.s:

Sorry the videos are a bit shaky, playing with distance and very exhausting hands.
Have I told you this entire showcase had been accompanied by a 5 piece band??? Stunning!
Ohya, honestly.. is my name hard to pronounce if I tell you verbally? Because what happen was, after I snapped picture with the band (Infinatez), Alvin asked me for my name. I said 'Lydia' and he was like 'Nidia?' and I was like 'no, Lydia' and he's like 'Vidya?' and I was like 'Ly-di-a' and he was like 'Nidia?!' and I end up with 'haih, Lydia Wati!' and then he goes 'oooooh, Lydiaaaaaa'. Hahhaha. I wasn't pissed, but it just striked me to wonder... is the name Lydia hard to pronounce? Hehe. Nice to meet u guys too~!
Imran Ajmain is among the people who can make me look slightly petite in pictures. We shall make more picture together next time! haha

Ambo gi doh Kelate, awok bilo laghi?

2008-12-26T01:05:00.012+08:00

Last week I spent the whole week lepaking at my cousin's place in Bachok, Kelantan. Well, the trip had been planned for months dimana me, my brother, my sister and opah to fly to Kelantan for holiday/visiting my relatives there. The first mistake I made was at the airport. Actually I planned to withdraw my money at the airport, but that particular morning.. i tertinggal my ATM card in the other purse. haih. So, there goes my trip.. with a very minimal pocket money.

Coincidentally, my aunt baru terseliuh kaki... memandangkan I'm the only next-of-kin that has a valid license driver (besides my aunt n uncle) there, where so ever we wanna go (or i wanna go) i have to drive the Unser, which is sooo cooool! I always thinks the bigger rides, the better for me.

The 2nd day we're in Kelantan, I drove the whole lot to Pantai Bachok where we had picnic by the beach. The place have evolved somehow, ever since the last time I came to Kelantan (which is like 6 years ago). They have build wakaf so ppl can lepak there under the shades.

And we practically spent the whole afternoon flying the kites and jumping all around at the beach mcm monyet. We were warned not to mandi laut because of the musim tengkujuh and the tide was pretty un-cool that time. But we're happy~!

And after that, Izzat brought us to see his little kambing that he called.... Mek.
The second day in Kelantan, its the day out for my siblings and the fellow cousins; Alief, Lan, Nanin and Izzat. Its time for the youth to have some fun! Well, judging from the land that we're on that time, you cannot expect la to hv much things there. Therefore, the bowling in KB Mall will do! And after that, we did some shopping in Tesco there... at least I can get most of my essentials of what I wanna cook there. I scored some time to do some shopping stuffs for Alief's birthday surprise.

Third day in Kelantan, we all went to my late grandfather's younger sister, Opah Ngah's place in Pasir Putih. I brought Apple Crumble (serves with Vanilla Ice-Cream, perfect for sunny day!) there and it left into crumbs in within 5 mins! Oh yea and I also made kerabu mangga/kerabu pauh as what they called there for lunch. We spent the entire afternoon at my Opah Ngah's house and headed home when it approach dawn. And we called the day off. And later that evening, we had surprise birthday party for Alief. Well, tak sempat nak buat cake pon. So, candles on roti canai pon jadi la. haha. But it was one heck of birth day surprise!!!

Fourth day in Kelantan, we visited Opah Ngah's son, Uncle Sham (who is also my mom's cousin) who lives in Kota Bharu. I brought my ever famous Carrot Cake and T-Gee brought her signature Moist Chocolate Cake. The house was such a breathtaking! I adore the architectural of the house and how well it been decorated. And I found this so funny, it feels like baru je lagi diorang ni kawin... tau-tau he has 4 sons now and the eldest is older t han my sister! waaaa... aku rasa macam da tuaaaaa~! During my rendezvous at Uncle Sham's place, suddenly my cam turn weird and displayed Memory Card Error. There goes all my pictures and videos, gone! That is why there is no pictures for 2nd-4th day as they kapush with the Memory Card. I ended the day with a feeling of devastetad.

Fifth day in Kelantan, that morning I have to call my mom to tell her my memory card hassle. And I have no choice but to tell her about my ATM thingy as well, because I already short of cash. After some money transfer, we decided to knock ourselves out for fishing in Machang. Uncle Wan (the father of my cousins) was rushing out that morning and b rought the Unser. So, I have no choice but to use the Kancil. Urgh, can u imagine all 7 of us - badan sihat belaka in one small white old Kancil? That fishing place is like 2 squares of paddy field, one for Air Tawar and one for Air Masin. After half an hour of journey, I dropped the kids at the fishing place and headed to Kota Bharu to get a new memory card for my camera.

After 4 times attempted of 'almost' dapat ikan, we headed home as the sky turn dark. That evening, uncle sham and family came for dinner.
And look, I found a very old picture of Lan, Alief and Nanin when they were much.. erm... innocent! hahahah

The sixth day in Kelantan, its SHOPPING day! We were out the whole day to buy keropok ikan, keropok lekor, wild mushroom, serunding, kain batik, kaftans and souvenirs. We crashed Pasar Siti Khadijah and get a very good deals!

And when arrived home, we gotta nibs some of the things that we never tried before. These combination enough to make gas ammonia untuk meletupkan rumah Borat kat Kazakhstan.

That evening, I kena jugak tunaikan my promise to T-Gee to make the lasagna and lotus tofu. Lasagna had always been T-Gee's favourite and I practically made for her every Hari Raya. Only this year I changed my mind and made Shepperd's Pie instead on Raya. Why it is so important for me to cook? Here a lil' thing bout T-Gee. She's my mom's younger sister, therefore she's an uptown girl since born. After STPM she pursued English in Scotland and live there for about 6 years. She came back and few years after that she got married to a pure Kelantanese, Uncle Wan, who jati diri melayunye sangat la kuat. Couple of years ago they moved to Kelantan and be a permenant resident to an area that can be consider 'ceruk rantau'. Therefore, I cook to feed my aunt-Gee's inner soul. Haha.

The seventh day in Kelantan, which also our last day there. We say bye-bye to the house, papaya, goat and Kelantan as my flight depart at 9.30am. Sigh, my bro tertinggal one of the hand luggage at the airport and aunt-Gee was super nice to pos-laju-kan the luggage. =)
I had so much fun there, and T-Gee's family are the best relatives I ever had (I'm not being bias, but relatives yg dekat pon mcm hampeh je.. jumpe time raya je =.="). Their hospitality is superb, tho' Alief demam and T-Gee terseliuh kaki... they still know how to have fun! That's the spirit I admire so much, the spirit of Family. Too bad diorang stay jauh. No worry, dalam 2 tahun ni kitorang bawak opah datang lagi! May Allah will always bless this family with joy and happiness.

b.o.r.e.d

2008-11-29T00:58:00.005+08:00

I'm bored, though I reserved myself from doing my thesis correction, I'm still bored.

I'm jobless

My father restrain myself from going out since I'm jobless

My money is decreasing everyday

I'm anxious

The seeking maid process is such a pest

I cut my finger when i cook just now

I'm fat

I figured out I'm not that friendly, thus I have a very limited friends

Somehow once in while i felt betrayed

I feel lost

I feel lonely at the mo

I dont have a boyfriend

I dont know if I should get a boyfriend

I just hate to clean up my room at the moment

I'm feeling freaking miserable

I'm drowning deeply in this emotion time by time

People says I think too much

People says I complain much

I know this may drive me to a very dreadful depression

I'm sadistic

I'm psychotic

I changed my blog template to pink

I hated pink

I hate pink

I'm gonna hate pink

Wth, I'm just fucking bored!

What's cookin'?

2008-11-16T00:43:00.005+08:00

It's time to blog again!

Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate Rudy and Intan, they both had just get hitched on Nov 15th, 2008. OMG, I cant believe u guys dah kawin!!! and I'm so happy for u guys! Smoga bahagia ke anak cucu. =)

Tersentuh skejap tengok gamba nie. =)

For the past one week I'd been pretty busy preparing myself for the ultimate thesis presentation which I proudly announce had been held last Friday. Oh well, cant really tell if it was good because i know... its BAD! But i don't bloody care, I am just glad its over. And I hope I don't have to repeat this semester again!

And for the past one week, ironically.. 4 out of 7 days people had been discussing wedding bells with me. The story started because last week was the final week of me being an undergrad student in my uni. And some makcik in the Haemodialysis Unit (where my father done his 3 times a week routine dialysis) reckoned that I'm gonna get married in this mere of time. Don't worry makcik, I will pray for your good health and I'm pretty sure u akan sampai juge ke my wedding, kelak. But what I know, my wedding lambat lagi. I have set several goals to achieve before I can get married.

I must have a secured job with a good income.
I must obtain my MBA. (come on la, lepas kawin nnt sure susah punye kalo nak blaja balik)
I must have a car, under my own name. (hopefully by end of next year i can achieve this one)
I must have a unit of house/apartment/condo/flat, also under my name.

These are my 4 personal essentials/conditions/goals before I can tie the knot. And this is why I kata I akan kawin LAMBAT lagi!

I cant believe I could give a tutor using SMS. Haha. Alex had been asking me to help him out with his proposal preparation through this week before he could present it to the examiners. Oh, Alex is a junior of mine and oh boy, I had never been asked such number of questions regarding multiplex PCR before, not even from my examiner. One thing for sure he is such a high determine kiddo! And aku yg penat kena explain kat dia through sms panjang berjela.

Nasib baik dia nie baik dan comel. =)

Getting a new maid seems live forever. So I'm trying to get used to cooking in the house every now and then. Last Tuesday, my mom sent my sister a note to ask me to cook Masak Lemak Rebung, Ayam Percik and make sambal belacan-tempoyak. To tell you the truth, I had never cook Masak Lemak before (though now I know how freaking easy it is) and its been ages since the last time my Opah taught me how to cook Ayam Percik.

As a result, voila~! I cant believe it taste alright. As the matter of fact, my parents were so pleased with the food (which leads to several days of discussing wedding bells =.="). Not bad aye my hand?

Remember I told you how baking could calm me down? My mom had been planning for oh-so-many weeks to make Tiramisu, and I'd been searching the Mascarpone cheese for high and low and finally I've decided to get it at The Cold Storage. Biasanye, if my mom says she's so excited to do something... u dont get fooled by that, biasanye I yg end up kena buat. So there I go, 3pm on Sunday afternoon in the kitchen. The egg whites and sugar were whip till it silky smooth. The cake had been sliced equally. The coffee had been made to perfecto. And things starting to get hay-wire the moment I poured in the whipped cream. Damn, the cream just dont want to fluff! So I stop to whip and add the Mascarpone cheese. And things are getting worst. The texture seems to gradually curdled. Oh, that is bad. Something I know bout whipped cream, if it turns up curdled - meaning it had been over-whipped and nothing can be done anymore. Damn, so there goes my Tiramisu. =.=" Enough this thing make me heartache for at least 2 hours, bengang giler.

It may look like shit, but it taste not bad. Tunggu la Malaysia, aku akan buat till perfecto!

So just now my mom asked me to make fried chicken (the usual tumeric seasoning) for dinner. But I dont know why, I have this experimenting mood. I've decided to make fried chicken ala KFC, where I ground the spices from scratch. And of course la I tengok buku but I've done some modification in the recipe (bak kata Puan Rozila - my food microbe lecturer, it is called "optimization") and it turns out to be not that bad! It doesnt taste like KFC so much, but it is still hmmm good. I was happy when my father and my sister berebut for the last piece, I take that as a complement. And now my father asked me to learn how to cook more because my 'air tangan' is consider good. Hear that? My 'air tangan' is good. =)

Yesterday Zul SMSed me that he figured it out how to tackle a girl's heart. Zul is my good friend in uni, my classmate infact. A so-called hearthrob to ramai gadis in my class (tempat lain juge), and he's much like a big brother to me.

Zul wrote: I dont know how much dia (his working colleague) suka kat I. But her attitude da jauh berubah dari mula kenal dulu. Dulu if org kenenkan kitorang, dia marah. Skarang, dia senyum2 je. Banyak lagi la. And all I did just listen to her probs, her ambitions, her hobbies - and then shows her everything that she told me. And I always could guess her mood. If she looks moody and I ask her why, she will look very happy when I noticed and ask her. Boley apply kat gurl lain tak?

I replied: Well generally, female memang suka orang caring macam tu. To a woman, a man who listens n remember details (walopon detail tu tak important), to a woman ia agak bermakna jugak la. So, not surprise la if she terpikat kat Zul. Haha.

Orang tua-tua kata, kalo nak pikat hati laki... mesti dari perutnye. Betul ke?

Tepuk dada, tanye selera... nak Kuey Teow Goreng Kerang or nak Char Kuey Teow? =p

Let my hair dry

2008-11-08T00:36:00.005+08:00

Its 12.50am and I'm waiting for my hair to dry. I figured out, perhaps I can scribble something in here.

Life had been same ol', it seems like forever for my family to get the new maid. So, for the time being AKU LAH SURI RUMAHTANGGA SEPENUH MASA itu. Still.. juggling with the fact I need to work out more than twice a week at the gym.

Talk about gym, my abdomen is still sore from working out with Nurul last Wednesday. Whenever I laugh or cough, my tummy will hurt like crazy. I wonder what went wrong.

Yesterday when I was accompanied my sister and her friend to watch High School Musical 3 (I know, stop laughing!), I received a text message from Wan regarding my viva/presentation. My examiner will be Puan Fatimah Corazon Abdullah. Damn, even by saying her name boley menakutkan aku. Inikan lagi dapat dia as my examiner. Habis la akuuuuu~!

I'm running out of word. And my hair is dry enough. Toodles~!

ske ati aku le, aku ske pussycat dolls! aku nak jadi kurus mcm pussycat dolls!

Lapang kepalo den

2008-11-03T23:57:00.002+08:00

What do ya know... I thought its impossible to complete my thesis within these few days (due to the so last minute data/result), but i totally rock it! Yea, despite the fact I had to stay up more than 40 hours.. it was all done and I already passed it to the coordinator. Though my lecturer end up calling me 4.30pm because she wanna discuss about my correction (lambat giler call aku, baik tak payah.. coordinator pon balik kul 5pm. giler nk suruh aku buat correction?) i felt relieve, like big burden had just lifted out of my head. Well, there's still little burden left, since my viva presentation is in next week. Well.. what the heck?

Last week had been a super crazy week. From failing my multiplex pcr (for 10th time?) to the return of my exes, it was infact the craziest thing ever. From my previous blog I did left out the scene of Ex#1 actually hold my hand tight that evening and said how he miss me much, hahaha.. goosebumps!!!

Special note to my exes (or bakal ex): if u guys dump me, I dont mind being fren with u guys after that (plz gimmie couple of years to clear my head first, of course). But... tolong la after that few years tu, tolong la JANGAN muncul kembali dengan tiba-tiba dan merayu nak couple balik macam tu. Not nice la. I mean, it was hard when u guys dump me... and guess what, I'd moved on. Korang buat camtu menjadikan aku sakit jiwa je.

Ah.. I'm gonna take some time off for the next couple of days. I'm tired, very tired. Sapa bley tolong urut nieh? =p

Ghost(s) from the past

2008-10-31T00:11:00.006+08:00

How bizarre! Yesterday my first ex (Ex#1) texted me saying that he's in Bangi and will be in Shah Alam today, invited me to hang out since its been awhile we didnt see each other and we bet we hv loads of catching up to do. (we haven't reach the bizarre part yet)

Story behind Ex#1
Knew back in early 2004 when we both were part-timer at the local fast food franchise. Seperated in October 2004, he sorta left me back then. 2 years after that he texted me to wish me birthday and since that I hold the grudge no more and we became friends. Somewhere in 2007, he get a job in Penang and moved there. But seriously, we barely keep in touch and practically text each other less than 5 times a year (including Raya and birthdays).

When I was on my way to the venue that we (me andEx#1) set, I received a text message from someone... er.. someone I hope he'd die far far. I received an sms from my second ex (Ex#2). The message sounded like this:-

Hi Lydia, **** ni. u still mrh kt i lg ke? i mintak maaf ape yg i wat kat u. I nk kawan balik ngan u. susah tul i nak carik balik no. u ni. plz accept me back. i miss u. really.

I was like.. wat the fuck?

Story behind Ex#2
We were friends back in highschool and he was my highschool bestie's bf. After highschool, their (my bestie and Ex#2) relationship collapse, but I still be friends to both party - until my bestie end up to be such a nasty biatch. So, me and Ex#2 used to hang alot since then and decided to bring the relationship to another level (konon). Few months after that he dump me (2005), over my room-mate. He told my friends 'we (me and Ex#2) didnt declare' and my room-mate told my friends 'mana la tau.. dah dia yang nak kat aku'. Ever since that i wish him to just go die.. far far. And I didnt commit any relationship ever since then.

How bizarre! The evening I'm about to do some catch up with Ex#1, the same time Ex#2 texted me! Its like.. both of them are from my past, and both of them were... thinking about me at the same time?! Bizarre kan? kan? I've decided to go meet Ex#1 first before I could make any decission about the Ex#2. Memeningkan kepala je.

I had a great time meeting Ex#1, we were like bunch of school kids gossiping and updating and kutuking each other like no body business. Yeah, its been a year since he moved to Penang. Surprising, he said he has not get involve in any serious relationship after we split. Another part I felt honored. Well.. I know Ex#1 is a great guy, but enough that he knows I dont have any feelings towards him anymore, and I know he dont have any feelings towards me too (I think so).

I came back, i felt a huge pain on my head again when I have to face my handphone. Well... Something I'd learnt from Alfred many months ago, just let go. Yang sudah tu sudah. So I've decided to forgive Ex#2 since syawal is still around. Ya know, my friend adviced me to torcher him like mad since he sorta mess up with me last time. But then, aku terfikir... if I hate people, I dont torcher them... i just leave them. Make people suffer is not my style at all. So, he sorta safe in that part alright. But I guess replying his message wasnt a good move, because here comes series of apologizing, reconcilation, and begging to restart the relationship. Damn. What makes he think I wanna accept him back? He's a jerk, for God sake!

Kenapa la mereka begini. Dahsyat nye hidup aku malam nie!

p.s: aku masih lagi terasa nak bakar Merak hidup-hidup sampai dia rentung, memandangkan dia bagi no. tepon aku kat Ex#2 and now he's haunting me!

Let it be..?!

2008-10-27T01:08:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a very weird day, I'd been running around shah alam - subang like mad, like no tomorrow as my routines and project collides. I have to get my project done by the evening as my due date is approaching next Friday. The day was chaotic, till it really kick me at my head because I was so damn hungry (at 7.45pm)... i forgot to take my meal that day.

I was alone doing my DNA research project yesterday in the Food Microbiology Lab (accompanied by my trustworthy MP3s of course), it was rather calm since most of the students had gone back for their Diwali holiday. Suddenly around 6.30pm I heard bit 'kecoh' behind my lab, and they were speaking in tamil (I was like 'aiyo.. asal depa tak balek lagi nie? tak reti ke da nak deepavali?') as I heard the sound of a girl and a boy, perhaps joking around at the back of the lab building.

When my electrophoresis were done (approximately 7pm), I have to tranfer them (my electrophoresis gel) to Ethidium-Bromide solution in the Genomic Lab, which located in another block. I was on my way to Genomic Lab with 2 cases of electropherisis gel in my rubber gloved hand as I past by the inter-block valley and I saw the chaotic bout. They weren't joking around.. they were actually quarelling! (please, I dont understand tamil) I saw in front of my vary eyes the guy actually snatched the girl's hand and sorta slam her to the pavement. Chill striked.. I just walk (as I hv my project in my hands) leaving the scene and I was kinda relieve as I met a security guard in the other block.

me: bang, kat blakang jalan tu ada org macam gadowh...
pak guard: saya tau, biar la... kita tok sah masuk campur. kalo saya masuk campur nnt takut saya plak yang kena..

so, i left the pak guard and went into the Genomic Lab.

What bother me most bout the above scenario is..
Is our society been so ignorance towards domestic violence like that? I mean, I saw the guy gone physical towards that girl.. I made my right to report it to the nearest authority (well, reporting to the security guard is authority, no?) but all I get is 'biar la...'? You must be kidding me. I mean, aren't they were paid to secure the place and its a common sense that they are responsible to monitor any abnormal activities (like.. smoking, fireworks, adultery etc) in the varsity compound, no? Ye la, to those yg do such activity like that secretly takpe la terlepas.. but the guy terang-terang bersikap ganas to that girl. Kenapa ia dibiarkan?

I know its their urusan rumahtangga (sungguhpon tak kawin lg), but u see... is it rational to put the woman's life at stake of such violence act? Mungkin her bf wasnt rational, but as a citizen to a country that had been fighting for the nation rights back then, rasional ke if kita biarkan je keganasan sebegitu berlaku? Kang tak pasal-pasal ada yg mati la, kena rogol la.. bila da macam tu, it will be too late already. Then, the public will just put a blame on "alah.. benda nak jadi..". What the heck?

Tepuk dada, tanye selera... nak satay atau nak ayam golek?

Entah

2008-10-24T02:28:00.003+08:00

Afgan - Entah

Dirt on my friend

2008-10-24T00:43:00.003+08:00

I had just came back from Merck's Annual Dinner at the The Saujana, KL. It was fun and frenzy, until the moment I dropped Wan at her place.

Here's a lil dirt about Wan. She's a good friend of mine since my sophomore year and still am since I'm doing my project under Puan Rozila and she's currently Puan Rozila's research assistant.

Recently she had a breakdown, the shit is like... her current boyfriend is sorta gives her a cold shoulder or bak kata orang melayu 'main tarik tali' atau 'acuh tak acuh'. Before this she'd a breakup with the same person (she wanted it), but then after that she went to dig her own shit by cari balik orang tu. And I think the guy is starting to play with her heart and her head.

I've been bare with my own feelings to remain calm for the past few weeks due to her antiques (her so called misery), but just now she'd just across the border a little bit more.

In the middle of Merck's Dinner, she borrowed my cellphone. I figured she's calling her sister. Then after we went back from the event, when we reached her house... she borrowed mine again and put it on loudspeaker. And a guy's voice answered. WTF?!

Wan: Hello... saya da sampai umah dah.
That guy: ok la

then he hung up. Well.. the moment she put it on loudspeaker, I wasnt happy bout it. It doesnt amuse me at all. Why she go and call that blardy bastard? And the most I'm not happy about, why calling that bastard using my cellphone?! Dah tau i tak suka that guy... urgh! Then complain if she's using my cellphone the guy will answer it immediately while it takes him to answer after the 3rd times of calling if she uses her own phone. what is she trying to prove to me by doing that?

i knew from the start that he's not really that into her. and tomorrow she wants me to follow her all the way to Bangi (i think i buy my own tix) to meet up with him because she wants him to break up with her. Yes, u didnt read it wrong. She wants that guy to break up with her (not that she wants to break up with the guy instead). What the crap?

the reason she wants me to go along because what she heard from her friend, one girl faced the same thing and the guy end up asked her to prove to him (by giving her virginity) and end up the guy still dump her. i know Wan wants a closure. and she seems really positive about that guy is so gonna break up with her if she go to Bangi (as she will make him angry sorta shit). But she'd been ignoring my thoughts:

What if dia cakap dia still sayang kat Wan? Then Wan will melt again and going thru the same thng again, and misery again, and feels shitty again.. (and haunt me again?) Then she said "he will definitely would never say that". I asked "how u know?!". She replied "because i know him". I asked him "but if he changes his mind and say he still want to continue the relationship?"
Once Wan asked that guy "do u still love me?" and the guy took a long pause before he answered "maybe". And since then Wan still putting her highest hope on that guy. WTF? What kind of boyfriend answers "maybe" on that? Either it is a 'yes' or 'no' isnt it? If its a 'maybe' the guy is unsure with his feelings, thus.. he does think bout ditching u la blardy ass-hole! cuma dia takmo cakap je!
From there u can see that guy can end up mess up with her head by saying that he dont wanna break up with him, kan? Then the usaha of 2 hours komuter journey to Bangi will be such a waste. Kan? Kan?
Is it nescessary to report everything yg ko buat kat lelaki tuh? Perlu ke? I bet the dude dont even wanna know lah!

The other day Wan did said something bout I didnt really support her like her other friends do (because the rest were so furious regarding this matter and i can remain my calm). I told her that if I give her nasihat pon, not that she gonna listen pon. She said "tak jugak..." (denial). And now, I'd give my words... ada dia dengar ke? Ada dia nak peduli? Fuck u la, she dont give a damn.. nak ikot kepala sendiri je. Lagi nk bertekak ngan aku kata aku tak faham.

What the heck that I need to understand?
I understood that he dont want u...
I understood that he wants to mess up with ur heart...
and I understood that you're a psyco-bitch who failed to face the fact.

So siapa yg tak faham skarang nie? Siapa yg nk sangat pergi Bangi supaya jantan dgn harapan jantan tu akan putuskan hubungan (mcm confirm je)?

SIAPA????!!!!

Sometimes I wonder why I put myself in this shitness. Kalo diikutkan, I dont even wanna know this crap. But kenapa aku nak buang masa dgn benda ni smua? Wan... because ko kawan aku. Ko sahabat aku. Aku care pasal ko. Ko nak defend lelaki yg buat ko terpinga-pinga tu over kawan ko, kan? Tapi kalo mcm ni la perangai ko, baik ko tak payah jadi sahabat aku. Tuhan da bagi ko otak, ko tak nak guna. Tuhan da bagi sahabat-sahabat ko otak, ko still tak nak dengar. Berlagak la konon lelaki tu nak go on lagi the relationship dengan ko, end up ko sengsara and ko kusutkan otak smua orang. Seriously, at this point.. kalo ko rasa ko nak gi mati, aku pon tak peduli dah. At least otak aku tak kusut da lepas tu.

And last but not least, kalo ko rasa ko nak mendekatkan diri ngan Zul.. lepas ni aku da tak nak tolong da... coz aku sedar, kalo camni la perangai ko... ko ternyata tak layak langsung untuk lelaki baik seperti Zul!

p.s: drama ko ni betul-betul mematikan my happiness after meeting my bapak angkat kat Merck tadi! Sesungguhnye aku tersangat happy bila terjumpe bapak angkat aku tadi and glad that he's still cute and wicked, which I hope my happiness will remain at least till aku tertido mlm ni. But tak sempat aku nak sampai umah ko da spoil-kan mood aku. Damn u!

guilty pleasure

2008-10-22T00:42:00.003+08:00

This is out of the blue...

I went there unintentionally just to feed me and Wan's curiosity on Abg Baju Ketat Kaler Purple...

Initially just went there for info seeking...

About to pull the plug, but Wan kept persuading me...

I have no where to escape...

Without a cash, I had to swipe my credit card...

I hope my mom won't kill me at the end of the month...

Now I have 12 months contract with...

Damn, I almost pull the plug and that would save me from paying RM@#% every month. Damn u Wan for persuading.

p.s: Farid, just to feed ur curiosity... remember the last time we talked on the phone and u asked me bout my weight. The next day I weigh myself, I lost 5 kilo ever since Raya. I win~!

Fasten your sit-belt

2008-10-20T00:46:00.016+08:00

Time fly by so quickly this week.

Are you insane?! Its so quick until I forgot what happen to me this week!

How many of u out there likes to 'berebut' things with other people? Some people likes it because of the thrill and the adrenaline rush, some people likes to play with other people's head. But I *hands down* DON'T. I like something that I wanna use is there for me to use. Maybe u'll laugh till u pee (judging from my car condition and the messy-ness of my room), but i like things to be in order. Like last month, when I was so enthusiast to do my lab works. Suddenly the rubber glove is out of stock. My lecturer said she'd ordered few boxes of new glove already and its probabbly on its way for the next couple days. I've waited, from days to weeks. Gosh, how I hate doing lab works without appropriate things. I end up buying it myself, which it practically cost me about RM26 for 2 boxes. See.. I rather buy the thing than keeping my works lagging. Last thursday, if according to plan... Wan wants to do her PCR in the morning. So, I agree to use the PCR machine in the afternoon. So that morning, I came around 9am to do extraction for my Salmonella spp. and Escherichia coli O157:H7, and Fiza (Wan's co-partner) haven't show up. Do u know what time she showed up? End up she came around 11.30am! So much for doing in the morning. I was surprise why she (Fiza) didnt start her PCR thingy at 12 noon, but after that Ghopi came. After some hulla-balloo moments bla bla bla (I was so angry, so I was on my headphone and MP3 all of the time) for 2 hours, Ghopi asked me if I know how to set the programme for the PCR machine. OMG? All the hulla-balloo and waiting for Ghopi is because she doesnt know how to use the PCR machine?! Like, sooooo wasting my time. So I jumped out of my table to the PCR machine, and under 5 mins.. her PCR is on the run. Then Wan said "laaa... ko tau PCR ke? asal ko tak cakap? aku ingat ko tak reti" At that time it was 2.30pm and I'm at the top of my anger. These are the things in my head that time:-

Supposely I do my PCR in the afternoon, if she starts at 2.30pm and finish at 5.30pm... and at what time can I use that blardy machine and what time can I go back?! (because my project requires 3.5 hours of PCR and 90 mins on electrophoresis and 30 mins on EtBr plus 30 mins editing it on SynGen - do the maths!)
Oh, slama ni si Fiza tu mcm bagus sgt je... but end up, stupid jugak.
Memang la aku reti PCR, yg aku dok buat PCR run every week tu apa (for 7th time!!!)? Ingat aku bodo sgt ke? (Oi, I'm not that stupid as I look ya know!)

After setting for Fiza's PCR, I just went out of the lab. Hatred just lingers in my head. I couldnt bear to see their faces (even Wan's, tho' she's my bestie) as if I stay any longer in that lab, I might throwing things and perhaps destroy the lab. I dont mind dummies, I willing to teach them. But when it comes to people that berlagak bagus but a dummy and end up menyusahkan I and wasting my time, there's a lot to be hate ya know. If PCR machine is so cheap, I rather buy one for myself. But I'm sorry for myself because the PCR machine is so blardy expensive, I can get 4 of my cars to get one of that stupid machine. Isnt it insane?

That same night, I was so tensed.. I end up chopping off my long hair. I kept my hair long (of course i do some trimmings every 3 months) for nearly 3 years now, only for one purpose; I want to curl it up for the convo. So much for having convo this year. Since I'm not graduating this Nov, I guess no point for me to keep my hair long la. Dont u think? So, without any hesitation, I just go to any stupid salon in section 7 and chopped the hair off. And clearly the hairdresser doesnt know what he/she (omg, how to say this.. its a she-man) is doing. Tho' my hair looks like the cutest hair style in the world that night, remind me not to go the purple salon again!

On Wednesday morning, due the stress and tensed I had last evening, I decided to stay at home in the morning and bake chocolate cupcakes to calm me down. Baking is sorta like meditation - only when I have someone else to clean the mess for me. Thank God I have a very hardworking temporary maid at the moment. Again, baking is sorta like meditation. You dont just throw things in the mixing bowl, u put one by one in order. Then I skip the mixer, I mix it using the wire wisk instead. When i bake, i sorta use all my 5 senses all together; i can see my cake puff up in the oven, i can smell the cake from a far (meaning it's cooked! and i dont even have to use the timer), I can touch the warm puffy cake and I can taste the rich goodness of my semi-sweet chocholate cupcake (yummmy). Hear? Well.. I only can hear my sister shouts "Yummmm sedapnye!!!!" and she's just 1 meter away from me. I feel so calm~!

A lot of cooking I did that day, when my sister came back from school I made her chicken rice for lunch. After lunch I taught my maid how to make kerabu. After the cooking lesson, I decided to go to UNISEL to take some data from the lab's computer (back up just in case i need to lie, later). The sky was grey.. dark grey, and the rain pour heavily like there's no tomorrow. That's the scariest stormy wheather I ever experienced outside. I drove my car as careful as I can. I was relieve when I'm just about 20 meters away from the university. Suddenly, when i'm approaching the university, the car infront of the van that is infront of me stop abruptly, making the van stop abruptly as well and I have to pull the emergency brake. Since the road was wet and descending, my car sorta slide down and BAM! hits the van. Damn! The van didnt damage much, except the steel inside sorta bent and the bumper scratched. But my car... the worst damage I ever had so far! Thank goodness the second I realize my car slided down, I had turned my wheel so the damage only occur only at the half side of my bumper. I'm just happy to be alive. Tomorrow I'm gonna collect my car from the mechanic, I wonder whats the cost like. Damn.

Ever since my accident, I have not gone out of the house. Even my lecturer decided to ask me to pass up the thesis draft on next Monday instead of Friday. Aww.. Puan Rozila is soooo sweet~! Yea, she could be unpredictably blur sometime, but she is nice. As long the student is nice to her and shows that he/her is hardworking, she'll help you all the way as much as she can - even in her preganancies. But if the student didnt show his/her affection to the work, she'll just them in hell. Hahah, that is something unpredictable bout her. She could be quite ganas in that part sometimes.

Have I told u how I hate my computer table... very much?! I have to do my thesis for the next 2 weeks and my books are EVERYWHERE! and since its small and tall and not so solid, it practically rocks when I use the printer. Haih, i told my mom i wanted the big RM170 computer table, but she dont want to buy it because it's slightly bigger and pricier. Haih.. see... we buy small and cheap and not solid computer table, and we get a hulla dancing computer table each time when I print!

I followed my father for his physiotherapy last saturday. I dont know, I can see Hidayat sorta look at me in every other minute... and I saw it thru the huge mirror! Hahahha. But every time I caught him do that, I just give a friendly smile. Haha, clearly he's shy. How cute. Omg, how long will it take for him to break the shy-ness? I bet if this take any longer, till my father can walk properly also he will never approach me. Hahah! But something that I learnt from him, he's ok around kids. =) And thats have a point!

I went to my relative's wedding Sunday. Something that I learnt today, my father is NEVER a good co-pilot. Hahaha. My mom has a quick temper when she's on wheel. So when my father, the no good navigator give wrong instructions... the car will go chaos like more chaos than Kedai Nasi Ayam Pak Mal. Haha, I hope I got neither of those traits. =)

Earlier in the afternoon today, Torai/Tony/Toneq/Firdaus called me but I had my sister answered the call since I was taking my bath. Later after that I smsed him upon why he called me. He didnt reply. Later tonight I've decided to return his call instead, here's the conversation.

Lydia: Hello, wei.. ko call ke siang tadi? Asal?
Torai: Oh, ala.. saje je... sebab arini Sunday. Ok-la, aku tgh futsal nie. Bye~!

It was a short call, but enough to make me stop and think for a while... ada jugak orang call me because it's Sunday.

"Because its freeeee... on Sundaaaaaay~!" (Xpax advert)

haha~!

Breaking the habits

2008-10-12T23:59:00.012+08:00

Last week had been quite prolific as I able to break my routines.

Monday
It was the first working day after Raya holiday. Attempted to start my PCR project again [after the holiday], but I wasnt in the mood. Therefore, I've decided to go to the bank to put in my duit raya later in the afternoon. But the ASB close at 4pm and it wont make it to my turn.. so I've decided to do some cabinet shopping. Haha, it sounds so odd, isnt it? Well, my mom asked me to find a new kitchen cabinet to replace the current damaged one. Done that, and the tauke said it will be deliver within this one week. After some cabinet shopping, me and my sidekick, Wan, went in to Shah Mall to just kill the time. Oh my, after 3 years of waiting, the Starbuck's Coffee Jelly Frappuchino is back and me love it!!! Ah... heaven~!

Tuesday
Attempted to do DNA extraction using P:C:I method. But after doing it halfway thru, my mood went down again when I couldnt find the chemical for the second half of the process. Damn, ruining my mood very badly. End up, I followed Wan to UiTM to support her cousin - organize a blood donation campaign at the Engineering Faculty. Well, at first I wasnt much into donating because for the past one year I failed to donate blood as my Hb (haemoglobin) count had been reportedly low, in the range of 11.2-11.8g/dl. I heard, anything below 11g/dl is consider anaemic. Creepy. A normal individual have to be in at least 12.5g/dl and above to donate blood, but in my case... my Hb count has to be at least 12.8g/dl so my blood in the body will still be enough even though my I've given away 450ml of blood as my blood takes slower time to replenish. But hell yea, I successfully donate my blood that day! (without really knowing what's my Hb count like for that day) After the the blood donation thingy, I sped home as the tauke called me because he wants to send my kitchen cabinet already. Yeay. After moved the stuff from the old cabinets to the new cabinets, I sped to Section 7 again to follow Wan for.... jogging~!

Wednesday
I woke up enthusiastically that morning as I planned to catch BioMalaysia 2008 with Wan. We reached KLCC at 11.30am and practically spent 2.5 hours at the convention center. Though I think 2.5 hours is barely enough. But what can I do, my sidekick, Wan been complaining much as her feet kills her after the 2nd hour and she's hungry. This is the down part of going with/accompanied by other people, because I know I wanna spend more time at the convention center (to get contacts for job hunting). This is why I like to go anywhere ALONE. After lunch, we went for lil' window shopping which includes for refrigerator and stove. My current refrigerator and stove is so sadistic. =.=" God, have mercy on them.

Thursday
We (me and Wan) were anxious because Puan Rozila, our supervisor didnt return our calls and messages. So I've decided to meet Puan Shila to spill my anxiousness as the due date is approaching. But I was in Puan Shila's room, surprisingly Puan Rozila came that day. Though for a short time but enough for me to have a conversation with her about my project and yeay, Natasha from UPM has got the PCR result! With her new method, I hope my project will success as well. In the afternoon, Wan asked me out for lunch. Attempted to go nearby, but we end up having a short trip to KL Sentral [via komuter] to have lunch and to surprise visit Zul during his Management Training there. Working hard, brother, working hard~! Mission accomplished. =) When we reached Shah Alam back later that afternoon, Wan were surprised as the time is approaching to 5pm, so she totally forgot to check the purities for her project. Haha, constantly merepeking with her kills the time rapidly more than I expected. On my way back, I drop by to get my father Starbuck's Coffee Jelly Frappuchino as he had been kutuk-ing me religiously everyday because I only brought back one Coffee Jelly Frap for my sister... and none for him. Hahah, a tall Coffee Jelly Frap will shut him up. =)

Friday
I dont know, I just feel like lepak-ing in the lab that day. For lunch, I followed Wan's former housemates; Leen and As, for lunch at Barra, After lunch, I just lepak in the lab with them... listening to their recent breakup stories. God, have a mercy on me~! I was dead bored. After the 2 hours of sadistic ear-aching stories, As has to go off to Genomic Lab to have class with Puan Fatimah. So we decided to get out of the lab. We went to Ole-Ole instead for bowling. yes, me + baju kurung = bowling. haha. After bowling, we went for karaoke. It was quite fun. Later that evening, I had dinner with my highschool friend, Asna. Oh well, she texted me earlier that day - wants to meet me and sounded pretty urgent. So we decided to meet up at Bigfood, a new western dining place near my house. Well, she was having a problem with Ajib, his bf. We tried the Grilled Salmon and Romeo & Juliet Pizza. The pizza was ok, but the Grilled Salmon tasted a lil' bit yucky. I've cooked much better than that. But so far, after went there for 3 times.. this is the only time it disappoint me. The rest of the time, it were ay-ok~!

Saturday
I accompanied my father for dialysis that day. Oh man, Kim canceled the physiotherapy session that day as she were on emergency leave since Thursday. Ala... tak dapat la nak usha Hidayat [the other physiotherapist]!!! Hehe... naughty me~!

Sunday
Suddenly my father wants to go to Tanglin for breakfast that morning. Yeay, I had a blissful bowl of Wantan Curry Mee and a glass of Iced Nescafe. Yuuummmyyy~! After came back from breakfast I sets off to do some groceries. Later that day me and my mom fixed a new computer table. Yeay, I feel very independent because we dont need a man to fix a computer table. But it was a one hell of exhausted and I hate the new computer table because it is so small! Urgh~!

Through the entire week, I also felt terribly useless as I've gone to the lab everyday but I didnt do my PCR project but I kidnap Wan to go jalan-jalan instead. Damn, the due is on 17th October 2008. Giddy up Lydia~!

Fame, delayed

2008-10-08T23:30:00.007+08:00

Ya know, I was waiting for my sister the other day, to fetch her from tuition [which the routine is like 4 times a week?]. I was bored with my track cd listing, so i switch to the radio. I turned on to Fly.fm and they played Tokio Hotel - Through The Monsoon. Tokio Hotel is a rock band from Germany. I thought "oh, they already start to play this song (in Malaysia) now..."

After that song, the advert was up and i switched to Hitz.fm. And guess what, they're playing Tokio Hotel - Through The Monsoon as well. I was like "wah, this song is so famous now meh?" because the first time I heard that song is like a year ago. Delayed famous. =)

Then Marissa, my younger sister, hopped in the car and automatically recognized the song "eh, didnt we heard this song long time ago... when will Hitz.fm and Fly.fm play Elliot Minor - The White One Is Evil???" Haha, a very clever 11 year old little kiddo I must say. Yea, play their songs so they can do tour here, as promised by Alex of Elliot Minor to me last month. =) Play other than TWOIE also i dont mind. Hurry up la. Pleeeeease~!

p/s: yes Farid, I know u're bored of me talking bout this guys for the past one year.. but what can I do? They are so close to my heart and Ed Minton is soooo comel~!

comel = cute (in malay language)

Tadaaaa~!

2008-10-04T23:37:00.003+08:00

Finally, here I am in Blogger/Blogspot after been urged for oh-so-many months by my 2 besties, May and Farid. First thing first, I have to admit that I am no longer a frequent blogger... but I guess by joining this, who knows I might get myself back in the track - just to kill the time in my fast pace life.

For the mean time, cheerios~!