View From My Open Window

It was a rather calm Friday morning, I was surprised I managed to sleep within 10 mins yesterday (quite overdose on Kopiko at work way before that) and I woke up the morning without hesitation unlike I always had been since the last 2 weeks. Prepared for work, I realized I owned an extra 10 mins that morning. Figured out, no point coming too early for work today.. so I decided to spend my extra 10 mins to flick on my emails and my extended comunity accounts.

I received a message from Ikhmal (Kem Remaja) in Friendster which turned my initial bless to horror.

salamz... hye lydia... sampai berjumpa lagie erk.. still remember me... ikhmal from key l... lydia tahue tak nur a'asikin dah meninggal?

I replied and turned off the computer, thus sped to office.


This morning I found out my Kem Remaja bestie had past away, only she died about 4 months ago!

The thing had been ringing in my ear like a broken record since I turned off the computer and it stretched out when i was on my wheels and yet even at work. I felt the deep anxiousness and an unutterable gloom behind me.

During lunch I chose to sit alone in the cafe facing the next golf course greens as I decided to put Iza on the line to get more spill. I just wanna know the cause of death and glad I was at a sitting position at that very moment.

Time past by, I decided to online early this night... just to produce this blog while waiting Ikhmal's reply anticipatingly. He gave me a direct link to the news feeder to answer my inquiries and a below message.

u can know all da story from dat page...

banyak yang ekinz cite pasal lydia...

cuma terkilan tak dapat tunaikan permintaan arwah...

actually meninggal thn lepas bulan 10...

i pun tak tahue.... i dapat tahue pun bulan 12.. coz i tetiba mimpikan dia...

pagie 2 i call hp tak berblas... i call umah mak dia bagitahue dia dah meninggal... bagai nak pitam i dengar... coz mal sangat sayangkan dia...

The bolded phrase finally brought me into tears (which has restrained since morning). Some small things people do can really make an impact to a certain human beings.


Knew her when we were in 16 thru a camping program, Kem Remaja Ke-11, where 100 of us practically spent much of our time in half-forest for 10 days back in 2002. We clicked the moment we reached there. She's a bubbly person, thats the first thing I have in mind up till today. And she has the most genuine smile among all. I still remember how she got a crush on one guy in my team while I had a crush on another guy in my team as well and we used code name 'Abe aku' appointed each other crushes. It was freaking hilarious. And she's very funny indeed yet so benevolent and lovable thru out the whole friendship. Even when we were out of camping we talked to each other occasionally. Only when we reunited in Unisel, we became a slight distance as both of us took different courses in different campuses. But we still flick each other Friendsters once in a while.

Kin...
Kenapa ko pegi tak bagitau aku?
Kenapa ko pegi cepat sangat?
Dah lama baru aku dapat tau ko da takde...
Aku baru je plan nak buat alumni gathering for bebudak kem..
Supaya kita smua bley reunited n lepak cam dulu2...
Supaya kita bley catch up with each other's lifes...
As the matter of fact, aku da berjaya kumpulkan sebahagian darinye...
Aku rindu sgt kat ko, Kin...

I have to admit, knowing Ekin is no longer around does slammed a little bit of impact towards me today. She will remain be love by her love ones till the end of time. May God always bless her soul and place her among those faith ones. al-fatihah