View From My Open Window

This is a tribute to my old piano(s).

It was not long ago i bought that piano with a major from my savings. Back in 2003 I've decided to upgrade my Yamaha Studio Upright (that i owned more than 8 years) to Suzuki Digital, just simply because I was so into music composition. Been exposed to piano since I was 10, it had been a part of my life - regardless when I'm happy, when I fall, when I'm angry, falling in love, out of love, feeling bored or content, etc. It's me and my music. I never felt so attached with any other musical instruments other than piano.

My Yamaha Upright was the initial of my every obsession on classical music. From there (and Ms.Cathy - my former piano instructor) I dived into the universe of beautiful classical (like Chopin, Vivaldi, Tchaikovsky, Beethoven, Strauss, Mozart, Brahm, etc) to Disney (the common Whole New World, Beauty and The Beast) to oldies (The Beetles, Love Story, Micheal Learns To Rock, etc) to Pop (Le Ann Rhimes, Savage Garden, Britney Spears), to Malay Pop (Siti, Nora, etc) and lastly to modern classical of Richard Clayderman. To me, among all... nothing outbid classical and for that I enjoyed the most!

Getting Suzuki Digital wasnt much of my first choice. Well, I prefer Yamaha but I changed my mind due it was known for being so freaking expensive. With that amount of money (at the age of 17), I can only afford Suzuki to meet my wonderness. I explored more sound, more creativity... but seriously, the feelings aint the same as playing Upright - just because Upright provide more firm surface. Gotta love for what I paid though.

26th Feb 2006 - Shah Alam had the worst flash flood in history ever! The Suzuki Digital has yet to be 3 years old, but sad to say it had drowned during the mayhem. Few months after the flood I tried to get it fix (even referred to some friends who actually piano expertise) but none say it good.

1. If I want to get it fix, I need to replace the whole motherboard.
2. Since it drowned, there are possibility for the piano to collapse in process to move it whereabout.

Damn! Which left me with an end. People have no idea how hard for me to live every day back then. Have you ever felt something part of you been taken out from your life and thus your life became disfuntional in certain ways? That's how I felt. I could feel the pain every time I walked down the stairs and stared at the dead piano in front of me. Even when I was emotionally distraught I had a difficulties to expressed my anxiety to diff channel, thus I started to bang and throw things around, or perhaps break anything I could get in hand. Do you know how hard that was?

Day by day, we moved things around the house. The piano just sit still under the staircase to be an ornament for my mother's pots of flower arrangements. It will soon be forgotten, but its like a burden for me to see every day. What good it posses if it could only sit still being dead while I cannot enjoy playing it anymore? It took me 3 years to make the decision to let it go, and ask a person to dispose the thing (though the person is just a dial away). I learned to let it go.

My mom reminded me something recently, as per quote:

"Mama happy tengok masa Lydia main piano dulu. Even though orang suruh practise 1 jam je, you will practise at least 3 hours a day tanpa disuruh. And masa tu mama tau you happy sangat main piano. Mama pun happy. I think I want to get you a new piano."

P.s: I don't understand how people could once reacted to my piano misery "why don't u get yourself a keyboard then, at least there's something...". Waddaheck?! Trust me, if I buy a keyboard, it will turned me to be some what retard and I will end up slamming the keyboard to wall or crash it into million pieces with a bulldozer! The problem isn't the keyboard, its just me. If I really wanna get a fucking keyboard, I must have gotten it long time ago la!

Initially wanted to make a surprise visit for Ab at his work place last Saturday (after dinner with Zul). Coincidentally I viewed Ab's profile a day before the surprise visit plan, and in the other way round, I'm the one who surprised because Ab is (or perhaps 'was') in top 20 of Akademi Fantasia 7! Fuiyoo, he did it again!

Then on the Saturday I missed Tirai AF7 (I), after came back from dinner I eagerly catch it in youtube.

On Sunday, wah... awal-awal da tunggu depan TV tuh! Excited to see this Mr. Abraham Edwin Dungot in Tirai Akademi Fantasia 7 (II).

And Acis said..."Ab, you did a very very good job. However I am very sad to say... that your journey ends here..."

I was like... waddaheck????!!!!

That's the only thing I can say. Shocking.

First second, Acis were giving him an appraisal, another second he said Ab didnt get thru'. What did just happen there? Am I missing something in between those seconds?

Even my father were sighed "kesian Ab, teringin betul dia nak masuk AF kali ni. tak dapat pulak"

Well, all I can say AF7 really sticks to their "TRANSFORMASI" concept. Though they are dying to have Ab in the academy (can see Pn. Siti Hajar broke down upon Ab's elimination), but you see... by looking back at Ab's music background, I guess the show feels it is much fair giving a way to someone who is much in need of the loophole rather than him. He's already a top 4 in OIAM2, musically trained before and been singing for a quite numerous of year. The only lack on him, he doesn't have an album. Oh wait, I'm not so sure whether he got an album on his Kadazan songs previously or not, but commercially, after his breakthrough in reality tv shows... he got no album. Plus, he ain't need the transformation much. He already have the star quality, its just that he need to be polish a little bit here and there. Unlike the rest of the peeps in AF7 who is still consider as a raw material which will be transformed into a finish product sooner or later.

In other way, I personally think Ab needs a loophole/platform to produce an album and get his name on the chart. And AF7 ain't the loophole he's looking for.

Nevermind, kita cari lagi. I believe it is somewhere, if you tak give up (in God's will) you will find your loophole someday. =)

p.s:
1. Wait a minute. That Adila seems so somewhat familiar....!!!
2. According to Tirai AF7, I don't understand why the peeps like to play with other people's head/hair. Err.. not nice at all.
3. Pakcik, lets go for sushi and pizza later!

This weekend had been officially labeled as the weekend where I ate the most this year (perhaps my whole life). As far as I concern, I never felt even a tiny-tini-hunger this weekend. At some point, I was too bloated.. I felt wanna puke!

Saturday (07/03/09)
I woke up that morning like some what zombie due to the cloudy day and my mom forced me to wake up because my sister got tuition this morning. Thus, we all have to go for kinda early breakky. Chose to eat nasi lemak at Ali's Corner nearby my house, among the nicest nasi lemak I ever had so far. Awesome!

I spared my tummy during lunch by eating mixed vege (my father's set meal side dishes) and a small bowl of soup. The tummy is meant to be spared for the dinner later that day.

Ah yes, the dinner that I'd been waiting for! Since this year I felt so lazy to get Zul, my former uni-classmate, a bday present (I usually have difficulties getting guys a bday present. If he's a girl, i might get her a very cute hair clips instead!) I've decided to treat him for a meal. And he'd been given choices of Teppanyaki or Japanese Buffet, since he kinda likes japanese food. Thus he chose japanese buffet. Around 8.30pm we met at Saisaki Japanese Restaurant is Wisma UOA, KL.


We only can get in about half an hour later because due to the full house. Weekend, what do you expect?


I had couple of sashimi and seafood carbonara in my first plate. Not the best combination but it surely scrumtious! Then I had teppanyaki but totaly forgot to photolog. =.="

We stop before ordering the dessert. Yeah, it was a pretty heavy lunch I must say. So we decided to get our bumps out off the place and just sight-seeing Bangsar Village before heading for dessert. And.. thank you May-o for the fabulous lunch! (next outing is gonna be on my treat)


After spent 1.5 hours of window shopping, we extend our sinful pleasure at Starbucks plus more chit-chatty!





I'm so gonna have only baked fish tonight for dinner. That's it! My gastro journey ends here this week.

Attempted to come out with a political post last week but decided to call it off because i was lack of vocabs to filled in, pretty much because I had mixed feelings through out the whole week.. thus my mind was as solitary as my soul. My intention of publishing my own comments or p.o.v on the political scene here in Malaysia had been warned by my father - one wrong step/phrase, i might be arrested by I.S.A. I reckon it is not worth it, might as well I sit quietly watching the political epic and laugh out loud like no one cares. Seriously, it is so epic... it look more like a huge joke now.

Leaving the epic behind, I get hold to my life which it seems not much exciting these days. Yea, I had fun most of the time, but it ain't excites me much. The fun seems to feel so... blunt. Where the spark gone?

I found out many some sort of superhuman comic movies are conquering the cinema these days. I'm not much of a movie junkie, as per known by many people. But... damn, I really need to find some time to go to the cinema as I eagerly wanna do marathon on these 3 movies:




And since I am so used to it, I dont mind watching them alone. I think its a perfect idea for me to get intact with my own childhood memories. (love it!)

I also get intact with my fellow ex-sktp-ians these days, in facebook that is. I found (or they found me, actually) 15 of the 3 Intan '95 alumni and we're all excited for the reunion in the making. It's been 14 years... perhaps if we can get more people and get in touch with Pn.Adeda, the reunion is so gonna ON!


Oops! I did it again! Due to my over curiosity i found out... that 'dude' is married! So much for 'fly me to the moon' momentos. Hahhaha. Its a good thing I guess. If its not because of my curiosity, I might still drooling on a married man! (once upon a time i quoted 'Curiosity Kills' and now i wonder 'am I gonna die in my own curiosity someday?') Next!

Here I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate Maciej Pilarczyk, my really really really long time mate (yea, we sorta know each other since.. what? i was 14?), who had just got engaged recently. Sad that I only knew this from Adam (the brother), and not from the yours truely himself. Perhaps he got his own reason to keep it low. Anyhow, massive congrats to Mak n his fiancee! Cheers!

Just a quick one on the music act. I have to admit that I recently slowing myself from the music scene due to my commitments with the work and the family (plus catching up with my own personal life). But it ain't a valid reason not to support my fellow friends.

Congratz to Imran Ajmain for the release of his 2nd single - Jika Engkau Pergi, which also the theme song of new Samarinda's slot 'Yusuff'. The song is superb, I still cannot get the orchestra off my head. Thus, kudos to u - Imran, and Sulu Sarawak. 5 thumbs up!

Also best of luck to Pop Shuvit for their new single Oh! Sizuka which will release on 11th March 2009. Oh my... I miss u guys to the bits! Now u guys got all brand new streetteam proteges to replace me but anyhow I will drop by at the scene once in a while. I hope this new single will rock, like you guys always do. Gambatte!!!

P.S:

1. If I'm rich enough, i might get Imran Ajmain and Afgan theirselves to serenades me every night till I soundly asleep. But since much of crazy dreams like this is so crazy, till God might also think He'll be crazy if approve such crazy wishes like this... this is why human invented radio, CDs and ipod. And also handphones equiped with media player!

2. Still waiting for the relaunching of 21:05 Productions. =p

... for you.

And none will do the same to me.

How convenient?

Yea, i missed dinner with opah and rushed back to shah alam because i told her mama wil be making chicken chop tonight, and perhaps spare other round with opah next time. But, not really.. mama didnt made the chicken chop, I did (end up) using my own recipe. Mama made the coleslaw. But it was all hmm.. hmm.. good. My father gave 3 Perry (the Platypus) as a compliment for tonight's dinner.

It's been a content day. I'm happy and hope opah happy receiving a cut from my first pay (from her very first grand-daughter). But urm, I dont know why I felt some sort guilty of not having dinner with the old lady. =.="

Well, I was just filling my time to stroll in lelong.com.my since there's nothing really nice on tv tonight. Just browsing thru, and I came across to this oh so freaking guitar. It just wowed me since the moment I clicked to enlarge. Its a SGEM 10 Ibanez Alike Guitar and below are the list of it's features:-

And I thought, damn this is so freaking cool! It wowed me the instant I clicked the picture for enlarge. Gaga! If only I know to play the guitar (or paid more attention when my bro tried to teach me guitar many years back) I would have bid on this thing and make sure the guitar is mine, all mine. Plus, for the mean time the price is at RM203, what a bargain aye? But again, I dont know to play the guitar, therefore its pointless for me to own it. Might as well I make an EzyPay for a new piano.

But yeah... it is sooooo prettyyyyyyyyyyy~!

P.s: i'm not so sure on the genuicity this series, tried to googled up more on Ibanez guitars but I found none bout this series.